Seeing a lot of scars on his head, Han Han would ask, "Dad, why do I have so many scars on my head?"
How many roads does a boy have to go through, how many storms and rains does it have to go through to become a real man?
Before Han Han's father had time to adapt to the transition, he was pushed onto the road of rapid growth by a serious illness of his son. Quickly switch roles between an ignorant young man and a responsible father.
After his son fell ill, in order to let the doctor find him in the fastest time, Han Han's father changed his WeChat name to "Han Han's father", which has not changed until now. Only he himself knew what was behind these five words.
It was a war, a war of a novice dad with a son who was less than 4 months old, step by step!
"I'm completely confused, I haven't experienced heavy winds and rains."
Han Han's father was born in an ordinary family, grew up smoothly, met his lover, and got married. Like every young man, he lived a bland life, sometimes satisfied, sometimes anxious, "when married, I hope to buy a house in the county town and give my children and wife a stable home." ”
He and his wife run a small factory together in Yuyao, Ningbo, where the two men rely on each other and support each other, and the busy and undisturbed days are also filled with small but sure happiness.
In March 2019, Han Han was born, which added a lot of joy to the couple's life.
From the beginning of his wife's pregnancy, Han Han's father was particularly excited, accompanied by every obstetric examination, taking care of his wife's living and eating, and also making full preparations for Han Han's arrival, even the things in the waiting bag were carefully selected and bought repeatedly by him.
Every time he looks at Han Han, Han Han's father feels extremely happy, always feels how wonderful the little life in his arms is, and he will also learn all kinds of parenting knowledge online.
Slowly, he found that the child was a little different from other children, 3 months later, Han Han would not look up, his eyes could only look to the side, and his neck could not turn freely, he could only turn to the side. Because the neck cannot be turned to the other side, it is not convenient for the mother to breastfeed, so she can only use the breast pump to suck it out and feed it with a bottle.
Implications before treatment
When he noticed this, Han Han's father was a little muttering in his heart, but considering that each child's development was different, he was not very nervous.
During the child's 3-month physical examination, he still focused on telling the community doctor about his doubts. The physical examination doctor initially judged that it might be torticollis and suggested going to the hospital orthopedic department for re-examination.
Although the doctor said that it was not a serious situation, Han Han's father could not put his mind at ease.
Soon after, he took Han Han to Ningbo Women and Children's Hospital for review, as soon as the head CT report came out, the doctor's expression was very serious, shaking his head, saying that there was a cyst in the skull, the situation was quite serious, it was recommended to go to the Children's Hospital Affiliated to Zhejiang University immediately to re-examine and confirm, and recommended Dr. Shen Zhipeng, who specializes in pediatric neurosurgery.
"At that time, we were all confused, and we went to the hospital happily, thinking that it was just a very simple small problem, and we were completely unprepared." "During pregnancy, we are very careful not to let my mother touch anything unsafe or dangerous."
After listening to the doctor, "I am completely ignorant, and I have not experienced heavy winds and rains." ”
No one taught him how to face the "big thing" in front of him, Han Han's father could not imagine what happened later at that time, and it may be that he can so fearlessly lead his son to fight against fate and become the most determined direction for the family.
Soon, Han Han's father reacted, on the way home, he was already thinking about what to do, and he was very sure of one thing, that is, to cure, to let his son live and live healthily!
Han Han's image report
"Live and nurture, don't give up any hope"
In the middle of summer and July, Han Han's father contacted many people in a short period of time, and also contacted Dr. Shen directly, and immediately explained the situation to the doctor and sent the report and the film. Dr. Shen said, "Surgery is necessary immediately." Surgery is also tricky, but if you don't, you don't have any chance.
After learning this news, the family was completely godless, and the child's mother kept crying. "I'm panicked, but I can't mess around." He forced himself to suppress his emotions and make a decisive decision, first of all, to go to the Children's Hospital affiliated to Zhejiang University School of Medicine as quickly as possible.
When I got home to pack up my things, the whole family did not dare to delay for half a moment and set off for Hangzhou. This time, I stayed from the middle of summer to the cold winter.
On July 20, after arriving at the Children's Hospital Affiliated to Zhejiang University, the doctor on duty immediately took the parents and children to start a series of examinations.
"The first thing is to draw 22 tubes of blood. Because too much blood was drawn at once, when it was half drawn, the blood did not come out, and the nurse asked me to press the child's arm with my hand, press it twice, and the blood would come out a little, press twice, and the blood would come out a little. Han Han's face was crying purple, and Han Han's father still didn't know what words to use to describe the mood at that time.
Soon, Han Han was diagnosed with choroid plexus papilloma, a type of brain tumor.
Knowledge points:
Choroid plexus tumors are tumors that originate in indoor choroid plexus epithelial cells, tend to occur in children, and are the most common brain tumors at age 1.
Choroid plexus tumors can be divided into benign and malignant. Choroid plexus papilloma is benign, choroid plexus cancer is malignant, and choroid plexus papilloma to choroid plexus carcinoma ratio is 5:1.
Choroid plexus papillomas grow slowly and can be cured surgically. Choroid cluster carcinoma shows malignant features, grows rapidly, often diffusely invades the brain tissue surrounding the tumor, and often spreads cerebrospinal fluid and metastasizes to other normal brain and spinal cord tissues.
Dr. Shen recommended immediate surgery. Accompanied by his cousin, cousin and other brothers, Han Han's father participated in the preoperative conversation on behalf of the whole family.
The doctor calmly and patiently explained the operation and all the conditions that might arise. Finally, the doctor looked at Han Han's father and said, "This is your own child, you have to be mentally prepared, have a life and a nurture, don't give up any glimmer of hope, we work together." ”
Dr. Shen did not know how many dark moments this sentence supported Han Han's father, "Every time I am about to collapse, I have a life and a nurture, and I will never give up!" This sentence will jump out. ”
As soon as he walked out of the door of the doctor's office and saw his sister, Han Han's father couldn't bear it anymore and hugged his sister and cried.
He is also a father for the first time, how is it so difficult! His connotation is still so small, why should he go through this? The fear and sadness that had been endured for a long time were finally released with tears.
His mind echoed the words of the doctor, "Heavy bleeding, hydrocephalus, intracranial infection, risk of anesthesia..." Those words kept turning into monstrous waves in his mind.
"Now that I think about it, I don't know how I survived." After crying, Han Han's father calmed down again, remembered the doctor's words, had a life and a nurturing life, and did his best together! "Parents can't help with the operation, but we have to cheer up and be strong, cheer up Han Han, give him all hope, give him confidence."
"A tree that had withered before
You suddenly see green shoots in it."
July 22, Surgery Day.
The operation went from 9 a.m. to 3 p.m., and during these 6 hours, Han Han's father and family members did not let go of the strings in their hearts for a moment. Doctors have said that as long as the operation lasts more than 3 hours, the operation is half successful. They kept staring at the time, and 3 hours passed, hoping for a little more.
At three o'clock in the afternoon, as soon as he heard someone shouting "Han Han's parents", Han Han's father was the first to rush to the doctor, the words were not clear, his brain was blank, and he finally breathed a sigh of relief when he heard the doctor say "the operation was successful".
The doctor showed them a picture of the tumor, and the whole family was very surprised, how there was such a big thing in his little head, as big as a goose egg. The doctor said that we had cut off everything we could see, and in the later stage, we would rely on Han Han to break through the pass by himself.
That night, Han Han's father, who was guarding at the entrance of the ICU, received two critical illness notifications, and Han Han had postoperative complications.
He couldn't see Han Han, and could only hopelessly wait for the doctor at the entrance of the ICU to call his name, "At that time, I didn't think about anything, I kept staring at the door, even if it wasn't my name." He didn't dare to close his eyes, "That kind of helplessness and despair, now that I think about it again occasionally, I have to take a few deep breaths to ease up." "It wasn't until five o'clock in the morning that the doctor told him that the situation was under control.
On the second day of entering the ICU, Han Han was pushed out for examination, and it was also the first time han Han's parents saw Han Han after surgery. Although the body was fixed to the hospital bed, Han Han was awake and had been looking at her mother with a longing and pleading look.
"It feels like a tree that has withered, and you suddenly see green shoots in it." This is the most memorable scene of Han Han's father, Han Han gave him great confidence, his heart was instantly full of hope, and he felt that this war had finally survived.
The first time I came out of the ICU for an inspection
"Craniotomy a few times Han Han rarely cried
He seems to know everything."
After staying in the ICU for 11 days, Han Han was transferred to the general ward, and a few days later, he was hospitalized in the rehabilitation hospital for rehabilitation treatment.
"I can look up and my eyes are rolling around, and I'm really happy to see my child recover so well." More than 20 days later, during the re-examination, a complication was found - subdural effusion, which required craniotomy for debridement surgery.
In the next two months, Han Han underwent two more craniotomy operations to deal with the problem of effusion. Later, at the suggestion of the doctor, an internal shunt operation was performed on Han Han, and a drainage tube was placed in Han Han's head, and the effusion was introduced into the abdominal cavity with a drainage tube to allow the abdominal cavity to be absorbed. After the internal shunt surgery, Han Han's condition tended to be stable, and after receiving the doctor's permission, Han Han was discharged from the hospital with his family and went home.
However, Han Han began to have a low fever not long after he was discharged from the hospital, and Han Han's father thought that the child's resistance was weak, changed the environment, did not adapt, suffered from the cold, and was a common cold and fever, so he first went to the local hospital for examination.
At that time, the hospital found out that there was a little infection, but the indicators were not very high. Because the hospital did not have beds, Han Han's father took Han Han to the Women's and Children's Hospital in Ningbo City, and when he checked again, he found that the hypersensitivity C-reactive protein index was very high, and the doctor judged that it might be intracranial infection or sepsis.
Han Han's father immediately became nervous and immediately asked the ambulance to take Han Han to the Children's Hospital Affiliated to Zhejiang University.
Because of the intracranial infection, Han Han stayed in the hospital for more than two months, during which he underwent two more craniotomy operations. At that time, Han Han had been 10 months old, and he had to infuse almost every day, and there was no place for needles in his hands and feet.
Han Han is also very resistant, unwilling to inject, Han Han's father and family tried their best not to let Han Han pull the needle, if it is on the hand, put a sock on the hand, if it is on the arm, it is wrapped with a diaper to wrap the indwelling needle, if it is on the foot, ask the doctor to ask for a cardboard, clamp.
The saddest thing is fasting before surgery. Once, Han Han's surgery was ranked behind, and he had to fast for 15 hours before the operation. Unable to eat anything, Han Han was so hungry that he cried and refused to sleep, and his grandmother could only hold him in a circle in the hospital corridor. Grandma walked in front with Han Han in her arms, and Han Han's father followed behind him with an infusion bottle on the handle of his clothes.
In the past six months of treatment, accompanied by his parents and grandmother and grandmother, Han Han has grown from 4 months to 10 months, although he has always been in the hospital, but Han Han has still been growing vigorously and growing up vigorously, "Han Han rarely cries, only cries when he is injected or examined, and does not cry when he is finished." Very sensible, as if he knew everything. ”
Implications in treatment
"Dad, why do I have so many scars on my head?"
Today, Han Han has passed the age of two and has fully recovered, and only needs to go to re-examination every six months. Usually, like other children, it is better to raise them in the normal way.
Just after experiencing so much, Han Han's father will still be very nervous about Han Han's illness, as long as the cold and fever exceed two days, he will take it directly to Hangzhou, afraid that it will delay any.
Seeing a lot of scars on his head, Han Han would ask, "Dad, why do I have so many scars on my head?" Han Han's father was instantly blurred in front of his eyes, and his heart ached beyond belief.
That period of time, from July 20, 2019 to January 23, 2020, how many days and nights. Han Han's father would often recall the scene at that time, and when he was working, he would suddenly remember it and would inexplicably shed a lot of tears.
Han Han's father now has the same troubles as all parents and is experiencing Han Han's headache of 2 years old.
"I want to come by myself, I have to flush the toilet by myself, I have to turn off the lights myself, I have to listen to the temperature of the air conditioner, and I have to choose my own clothes." If Dad were to talk about him, Han Han would still say angrily, "Dad, you go to work, don't let you take care of it." He planned to let Han Han go to kindergarten a year later, spend a little more time with him, and let him grow up fully and start solidly.
Han Han's father most wants to say to parents who are also experiencing similar situations that the thinking must be clear, reduce misdiagnosis and missed diagnosis, and take fewer or no detours. Medical conditions are not very good places, try to go to first-tier cities to see, parents to give themselves and children hope, even if it is a first-line vitality, we must try, do not give up, must believe in science, must believe in medicine.
Han Han's father read a lot of magazines during the treatment, and also communicated a lot with the doctor, and slowly knew that he understood the situation of children's tumors, and his heart became more and more bottomed, believing in medicine and believing in doctors.
The most important psychological preparation is to have a life and a nurturing life, do not give up! This is also what the attending doctor said to him, and it is also the sentence that most firmly strengthens his confidence in treatment.
Now the implications
postscript:
When writing a manuscript, I can only find a place where no one is, because I will cry because I write. At the thought of xiao Hanhan, who has only been 4 months, he really can't stand it.
At the end of the interview, talking with Han Han's father about the child's two-year-old, there was a feeling of rain passing through the sky, and he finally said, "Life sometimes feels very fragile, and sometimes it feels very tenacious!" ”
I think that only people who have truly experienced and survived this battle of life and death can say this sentence, they will be so full of mixed feelings and full of strength and hope!
Source: Sunflower Children
Editor-in-charge: Wang Hang
Proofreader: Zang Hengjia
Plate making: Xue Jiao