Why am I so beautiful, but I am not as good as my poor classmates.
This passage comes from a post-90s girl, who is just twenty-seven years old this year and has been a child for six weeks. She suddenly realized that the life she was living was not what she wanted, but she couldn't break free from the life she was. I feel like I'm living a miserable life,
The girl had just turned twenty and married into the village, and her children happened to be the same age as my twins, and the children often played together, and we both naturally knew each other.
Gradually, she regarded me as a confidant elder sister, and began to talk about her family, about her children, about her husband and her mother's family, and in between, she revealed that she hated her current life and blamed these on her parents.
When she was in middle school, she studied well, but in high school, due to partial subjects, another reason was because she was beautiful, so many boys chased her and made her have no intention of learning.
I went to a specialty in high school and dropped out after a year. She discussed going out to work with her parents, but her parents were not at ease, and finally went to help in a small restaurant opened by her aunt's county, and worked for a year and found a shopping mall to sell clothes.
After working in the county for two years, she thought about going to the big city to see it. Let her former classmates find her a job, and soon find a job. She told her parents, but they said they wouldn't let her go. The reason is that it is too far from home, there are many bad people in big cities, and I am afraid of what to do if something happens. Her parents even locked her in the house for a while because of this.
Her parents were still not assured that she would sneak away one day, so they discussed finding a suitable partner for her to marry. The girl met several people, and finally met this guy in our village. The boy was four years older than her, and he was a tall man of about eight meters and a handsome man. But because of the poor family conditions, the girl still decided to marry him. Parents did not agree at first, and then thought about it, good to be close to home, although the family conditions are not good, the two people are still young and slowly struggling! So I met for two months and got married.
A boy was born shortly after marriage, and because her mother-in-law was ill, she could not help her with the child. She couldn't go out with her husband to work, so she had to stay at home with her children.
In recent years, she has seen that girls in her classmates have also been married. Most of them have buildings and cars, and from time to time show their happy lives in the circle of friends. She began to feel unbalanced, I am not worse than them, why my life is not as good as theirs. In the end she felt that her parents were to blame for all this.
When she went to school, she should have studied hard and had a great future, but her parents never guided her correctly, so that she did not study well. Later, she wanted to go out and break in, but was firmly opposed by her parents. In order not to let her marry far away, he arranged for her to get married early. By the time she understood marriage, it was too late.
Although she herself has responsibilities, more responsibility may be her parents, as parents when children go to school, they should tell her why she wants to study, and what life will be brought to her by learning. The child grows up day by day, don't live without protection, one day she will have to face life on her own. You can't make decisions for your child, and your ideas can be used as a reference for her, rather than being carried out by children.
