"Bury Love" Chapter 1: At the age of sixteen, we fell in love at first sight, and the taste of first love ,,,,

That year, I was just sixteen years old, in the first semester of the third semester of junior high school, my eldest sister and my parents discussed to let me go to her house on vacation to take two little nephews and nieces, the nephew is more than two years old, the niece is more than one year old, she opened a small buying department, the child is too small, the rural people! There was a lot of farm work, so I went over to take care of the children and buy things for her family.

In the past few days, I have known many people in the unit, some are small soldiers, some are non-commissioned officers, some are platoon leaders, and the chief of the division knows a lot of people.

Maybe this place is too remote, sparsely populated, relatively backward, the traffic is particularly inconvenient, only my eldest sister's family is opened, it is also a village committee, which is equal to a more densely populated place, they are also a border guard station, so they all like to come to my eldest sister's house to buy things.

Although the eldest sister told me the price, but I can't remember the price at once, and some of them did not say, I often sell things at the wrong price, but they often come to buy things, what daily necessities, and cigarettes, they are more familiar with the price, sell expensive they will say expensive, sell cheap will also tell me to sell wrong, will make up the difference to me, so these cute and heroic brothers make me feel very envious, very adoring them, they let me have a sense of respect and distance, like them I admired them very much, and even had some foolish feelings for them, and their casual joke would make my face blush in an instant, and I never dared to look at any of them in the eye.

At that time, my family was poor, with a fragmented family, my parents either quarreled or fought every day, and I was often indiscriminately beaten and abused by my grumpy father, so I especially hated my father, and I was particularly inferior, and I also buried a dream in my heart, I must go out of the mountains, go to a very distant place, and always cut off relations with my parents forever.

Growing up in such a family, I always hoped that I could grow up a little faster and leave this ghost place where the birds don't. So even though I was only 16 years old, too many people had written me countless love letters, heart-shaped letters or small notes, and postcard cards, and I was never indifferent, never opened. Some people who directly let the passers-by return, some who did not want to help me return to the hard fortress for me, I directly tore it in front of them, just to let them see that I did not read the letter, did not want to know who it was, and did not want to accept curiosity.

On this day, my eldest sister and brother-in-law, as usual, had eaten breakfast early in the morning before dawn, prepared lunch to take to the mountains, and left home to work in the mountains before my nephews and nieces got up.

And the children and I slept until dawn, and when the children woke up, I had to get up and dress them, wash their faces, cook for them, feed them, feed the chickens and pigs, sweep the floor, sell things, and I did all the housework.

Today, I was sweeping the floor in front of the door as usual, and I saw a few officers carrying golden five-pointed stars on their shoulders, walking towards my eldest sister's small shop, I know this, they usually come to buy cigarettes, I see them come over and there will be a little shyness and embarrassment in my heart, but there is no way, this is something that my eldest sister gives me every day, I have to insist on it every day. Every time they see me, they always smile and squint, little girl, little girl shouting over, there is a kind of like it like to deliberately tease me, you say a word to me, you have to be embarrassed to be funny, blushing and fluttering look they are happy, I am always just smiling, without saying a word, bowing my head, my heart is always pounding, quickly put down the broom habitually walked into the counter to sell goods.

Just walked to the counter, I overheard a strange voice talking and laughing, I looked up, I couldn't help but glance in the direction of the strange voice coming from, my God, a pair of eyes are with affection and my eyes four eyes together, that moment the eyes of both of us seem to be frozen together can not be moved, I feel my face suddenly red all over the body, I also seem to see him blushing to his neck in an instant, his ear roots ,,, It should have been as red as I was all over my body, but our eyes still did not leave, as if we were reading each other's eyes, who is this? This person, this voice, this face, I saw for the first time, his face skin is white and handsome, tall and tall and handsome, and his voice, so beautiful, so manly, intoxicating, next to a voice sounded, I suddenly reacted, embarrassed to panic and retract my gaze, deliberately arranged the goods, took a clean towel to wipe the dust on the goods, a voice came over "Little girl, take a toothpaste, take a box of Red Tower Mountain cigarettes" I was very skilled in giving things to a secretary general, who also had the same surname as me, and we were already familiar with him, and there was no sense of embarrassment, a little intimate like a big brother. I said, "Brother Chief," and I took his money and gave him change. At this time, an intuition told me that he was still looking at me, and I quickly floated with a little afterglow, he was still looking at me with emotion, I pretended not to notice, and hurriedly turned my head into the counter to do something I didn't know. A platoon leader's voice came over, "Little girl, little girl," and I said what's wrong? He "Say it!" "What do I say and do?" He said, "Haven't you finished sweeping the ground yet?" Come out and continue to sweep well" I said "It's okay Brother Xiao Pai, too gray, will sweep again later" I know that he is deliberately teasing me and I want me to go out and chat with them, do not want me to hide inside the counter, this is his habit all the time, he likes to tease me blush.

The whistle sounded, this is the signal for them to eat, they all stood up and were preparing to go in the direction of the border station, the strange and handsome soldier brother was not hurriedly moving his body, I still saw his eyes have been constantly sweeping towards me, it seems that he has never left my body, the soldier brothers are waving at me one by one, little girl, we are gone, I said okay, okay, I also saw the strange soldier brother still smiling at me like that, The others walked in front of him one by one, he did not hurry to come to me at this time, gently and politely said to me, "Little girl, take me a bottle of perfume, and then bring me a handbag" I inexplicably took it to him and handed it over, he asked me how much it was, I was confused, and then he was in a hurry as if he wanted to hide something and said twenty pieces, he smiled and gave me twenty, and then looked at the comrades who were walking in front of him, he seemed to deliberately pull down the distance, and when they walked a certain distance from him He lowered his voice and said, "Little girl, are you free at night?" I asked you for a walk!" I was so surprised "Huh? After a while, he inexplicably walked away without saying anything, walked out a few steps, or looked back at me with a smile and did not return to God in surprise, I was like this, I have been in surprise to see him slowly disappear in front of my eyes.

In the afternoon, my eldest sister and brother-in-law came back with their tired bodies in tow, and I took care of all the chores in the house, and they only needed to take a bath and eat when they came home.

At that time, the eldest sister was only the third year of junior high school graduates, she was pregnant and married to the brother-in-law who had just retired from the army, my eldest sister was a town flower that was loved and recognized by everyone, and many young people in the unit were pursuing her, including their teachers, hospital doctors, outstanding young people of the government, and Zhiqing from Shanghai, but I don't know why, my eldest sister was pregnant with my brother-in-law's child, the third year of junior high school has not yet graduated and married my brother-in-law, this matter made my father angry in this life almost did not forgive my eldest sister, she lived a very hard life after marriage Unhappy, I look particularly distressed, but also silently thinking in my heart, I must not be like my eldest sister, take the road she walked, I must be happier and happier than my eldest sister.

After eating, the eldest sister and brother-in-law went to bed early with the children, this day they were really too hard, the children also missed their parents, from the time they came home, they did not rely on me. At that time, there was no electricity, there was no better road, lighting candles, kerosene lamps, especially not easy, so hard people are used to going to bed early and getting up early, working hard for life.

At that time, none of them had electricity and television, and the stadium of the border guard station would send out what dry electricity of their troops, anyway, at that time, we ordinary people called it like this, and then there was a not very large video on the table, sending dry electric discharge video series, the people in the surrounding villages would go to the stadium to watch the video every dark, especially the young people, and the only fun at that time might be to run here to watch the video series.

I am no exception, every night I will follow the little friends I know to see, what a luxurious and expectant moment, but tonight I am a little nervous, the words of the strange soldier brother have been ringing in my ears "Little girl, at night I ask you to go for a walk" My God, what does he mean? Teasing me! Then why would a soldier, an officer, make such a joke with me? Impossible! So if it wasn't a joke, why would he ask me for a walk? What does he really mean? I wondered what he meant.

It seems that there has been an inexplicable expectation that the sky is faster than a little dark, and seems to be afraid of darkness, I look forward to seeing him, and I am afraid that he will really appear in front of me, I am not prepared for anything, I am afraid that he really came to me, and I am afraid of being discovered by my eldest sister and brother-in-law, and I am looking forward to him appearing in front of me, I am struggling in contradictions, and I suddenly feel embarrassed to go to them to watch the video, afraid that I will meet him there, and I am also worried that I will really come to my eldest sister's house to find me how embarrassed I was discovered by my eldest sister and brother-in-law. And I'm afraid my eldest sister knows this kind of thing and scolds me.

In the hesitation wandering, as if the sky has been dark for a long time, I told my eldest sister earlier, I want to go to see the video, they also know that I will go with the little friends I know every day and will not say anything about me, but tonight they went to bed early, I still quietly wandered outside the house, feeling a little disappointed, it was dark for so long, he did not come to me, there was no phone at that time, there was no mobile phone, and no one could contact anyone, and the partners who often went to see the video with me were also busy going early, and I said that I had not yet taken a shower and stayed, Now I inexplicably have a sense of loss.

In fact, with a strong sense of inferiority, I did not dare to fantasize that I would be with such an excellent person, a soldier who made me admire like a god, how could I have an idea of such a small village girl? If so, you might as well want to take advantage of the rogues and abandon you! When I think about it, sentimental I am inexplicably a little sad. Forget it! Or go to the video series, abandon these unhappy troubles, I will go to the border defense court alone, here to them there is only a few minutes of things, I will not be in a hurry to walk while thinking about the ,,,

Just about to reach a place of perhaps a hundred meters, I saw a gray figure also moving towards the opposite place with me, slowly and slowly like getting closer and closer to me, I did not think too much, the brain is still thinking about the right and wrong of what just happened, did not imagine who the person who came in front of me, it is even more unlikely to think about whether it is him, but just a little bit in front of me, I saw a person in front of me leaning towards the foot of the oil palm tree on the side of the road, I mistakenly thought that this person would not want to urinate or something, So ashamed that I sped up and tried to rush over as fast as I could, "Hey! Little girl, why are you running so fast? I said nothing, go to the video, he still did not hurry to say "you wait, you come to my side for a while" I said no, he hurried over and pulled me over, this move blinded me, I nervously asked "What! What the heck! What the heck! He still said softly and gently, is it okay to accompany me to take a walk? I said no, no, no, so many people here come and go to see how interesting it is, what is he afraid of? I said it was not good to be afraid of others laughing at us. At this moment, he was no longer as gentle and calm as before, he took me tightly into his arms, making my breathing a little difficult, I was desperately trying to get out, but he hugged it tighter, I was afraid and anxious in my heart, I was afraid of being seen by people who came and went, and then I was afraid of meeting people who knew him and knew me, and I was even more afraid that my eldest sister and brother-in-law would find out that I was embarrassed and afraid of scolding, and my heart was nervous, and I felt that my whole body was trembling in anxiety or fear. At this time he suddenly took my hand and strode in the direction of another remote path, I said where to go he said more, just say follow me, don't be afraid, I actually involuntarily hurried to follow him, that minute felt that as long as people who came and went saw us both pulling on the road, it was better than anything. After a while he took me to a remote path, and from this path into another small fork road, a moment of kung fu we came to a small river, he picked a big stone, and did not know where to take out a few newspapers to spread on it, let me sit down, I sat down obediently, the heartbeat thumping and thumping how can not be calmed down, then he also sat down next to me, his feet on another big stone next to him, and then gently said sorry, scared you, I still can't breathe, Then he took me tightly into his arms again, and I heard his pounding heartbeat, and then he held me in his arms, listening to the heartbeat of the other party, listening to the sound of the flowing water of the river, sitting in silence, saying nothing, not daring to ask anything, and not knowing how long it took, did he say cold? I said it wasn't cold, and then I added that it was time to go home. He said no hurry, stay a little longer, and then hugged me more tightly, I was in his arms, to be honest, I enjoyed it very much, I hope I can hold it like this for a long time, a little longer, let the time stay at this moment and don't pass, my nervous heart slowly calmed down, quietly snuggled on his thick and broad shoulders, in his pocket, how sweet, how beautiful, this is the first time in my life to feel the feeling of being loved by a person, from childhood to adulthood, in addition to being scolded by my parents, listening to my parents' reprimands, Parents fight, I have not received anyone's praise, recognition, affirmation and encouragement, at this moment I really want to die in his arms, touched by emotion, I can't help it, unconsciously, teardrops quietly slipped down, quietly and one by one into his arms, please soak his clothes, he nervously asked me, what's wrong, am I scared of you? I hurriedly reached out my hand and hugged him tightly and said: No, and then let the tears flow silently, afraid that he would say that he was going to go, I put my head into his arms and stuck it to his chest, the smell of his body made me intoxicated and obsessed, at this moment I didn't want to care so much, and I didn't want to think about what would happen in the future, I wanted to be so quiet, silent, snuggled in his arms. He turned an angle, cushioned his thighs, let me lean down, put his hand cushion on his leg and gave me a pillow to let me lie down, he said it would be more comfortable, I just lay down, he lowered his head and gently kissed my rosy lips, my body felt like the whole body was crisp and numb, like a scattered shelf, there was no little resistance, the brain was instantly blank, like it had been out of the soul and did not know how to float to the top of that universe, this was the first date in my life, the first time I hugged a man, The first kiss, but he didn't know it yet.

We don't know how long we've been together, how long we've been kissing each other, and I suddenly asked him: What if you get pregnant like this? He burst out laughing, laughing so hard that he leaned forward and backwards, and I nervously stopped him from laughing so loudly that someone heard shyness die. At this time he stopped laughing, took a long breath, and then kissed me on the lips again affectionately, held me on his lap, kissed my ear and said to me, "I will be in charge of you, don't be afraid" I said I was not afraid! He seemed to want to laugh again, and then said, "Let's go!" I send you home" We just got up and hugged each other out of the hill road, walked to the big intersection and said you don't go out, I go out myself first, I went out for a few minutes after you went out, he didn't let go of my hand, and said straightly, "This is not our style as a soldier, the manly husband can flex and stretch out" and took my hand and sent me to the door of my eldest sister's house, and my nervous heart was going to jump out.

The next day, my eldest sister and brother-in-law went to the mountains to work again as usual, although I woke up and lay on the bed, waiting for the children to wake up I will get up, I sweetly think back to my heart, last night my sweet romance was mesmerizing first date, I can't help but cold face with a sweet smile, feeling that I am the happiest and luckiest, happiest woman in the world. Bouncing, there is the sound of leather shoes touching the ground, this familiar sound should only be the sound of the soldiers' shoes, I feel nervous in my heart, I am afraid that the person who comes is him, how embarrassing and embarrassing! Bang bang bang, really someone knocked on the door of the commissary, who did I answer? He said: The little girl is the tenderness and sweetness of his voice that I can feel. I was happy and embarrassed, but my heart was beautiful, and a 'sweetness' surged into my heart.

I hurriedly got up and opened the window door, smiled uninterestingly and looked at him, feeling that my face was suddenly red, and he looked as red as I was, but my hands still reached out, gently grabbed my hands and gently rubbed them, as if conveying the fiery affection in my heart.

At this time, he gently approached me again, held up my face, and quietly asked me, "Did your eldest sister go out to work?" "I said hmm! He kissed my forehead gently and affectionately, and then said, "I'll wait for you in the old place at night, I didn't say a word, I looked at him shyly, and then he said "I'm over, see you at night" and left. I watched him leave, walked a few steps over and turned his head to say goodbye to me, and disappeared out of my sight step by step.

On this day, I felt that the days passed very slowly, and I was very much looking forward to the day getting darker. At noon, all day in the afternoon, I saw that their comrades-in-arms were still coming to buy things one after another, but I didn't see him again, and my heart seemed to be eager to see if he would appear in front of my eyes again, but I didn't see him again.

It was not easy in the afternoon, the eldest sister and brother-in-law came back, they were too hard, eat a good dinner, take a bath and take the two children to bed, they know that I go to the video at night, will not go to bed so early, more young people! But I knew what I was thinking in my heart, and watching the video was no longer attractive to me. Of course, they will not tell them the little secrets in their hearts.

After washing, I carefully dressed myself up, choosing to close the door and go to the old place when the video had begun, and I deliberately chose to let the video start playing because I was afraid that the people who rushed to see the video would find us together, so I deliberately took the time back. Walking to the place where I met him yesterday, sure enough, I saw a figure standing tall under the oil palm tree waiting for me, I walked over, he took me upstairs again, and walked to the path in the other direction, I was a little uneasy in my heart, afraid of being bumped into by someone and finding us, this news let my eldest sister know that I might not be able to date him in the name of watching the video. But at night there were few people, very few people, and no one met us along the way.

He took me across a river, into a field of common people, and also took out the old newspaper he had prepared and spread it on the ground, and sat down with me, the night was quiet, the moon in the sky was really bright, round, bright, it felt really good. He once again let me rest my head on his thigh-resting hand, and then combed my long hair with his other hand, and from time to time he lowered his head to kiss my forehead, cheeks, nose, eyes, lips, and we just stayed so quietly and didn't speak, I wanted to say something or ask something, but I couldn't say a word, I felt that my whole body was soft and smooth without the crispness of bones, tonight was obviously much calmer than last night, and there was no more of the thumping and thumping heartbeat of last night. In fact, I feel very, very unreal in my heart, and I feel unrealistic, but I don't want to think about it, I like to enjoy this happy and sweet romantic feeling at this moment, I don't want to care about what it is, I am reluctant to destroy its good time. In fact, I am very eager to get an answer in my heart, such as wondering: Does he love me? Seriously? But I didn't have the courage to ask, nor did I dare to know the answer.

I don't know how long he sat like this, he suddenly hugged me tightly, kissed me wildly, panting, I was a little scared, but my hand was out of control, I couldn't make it up at all, my head was blank, I still struggled to say a word "don't" He also breathlessly replied to me with a sentence of "won't bully you, rest assured!" ”。

After a wild kiss and a burst of verbal sword, he asked me tenderly, "Are you cold?" "I said it wasn't cold. He took my hand and rubbed it and said, "Your hands are so cold, I'll dress you" and then he draped his olive-green military uniform with a five-pointed star on my body, and he gently asked me, what time is the beginning of school? I said report on the 28th. He muttered. Then say "Let's work together, cheer together, I'll go see you". I didn't know that hearing these words instantly burst into tears, and a line of tears flowed quietly, silently. He felt all this, and then asked me "what's wrong" and then kissed my tears with his lips, I couldn't say a word, but shed more tears,,,, hugged him tightly, kissed him along his lips,,, and he said affectionately and excitedly, "Believe me, I will not fail you, believe me." ”

Seeing that the time was almost up, I didn't dare to stay until the people who watched the video had gone back, so I said, "It's been too long, go back!" The video should be almost over" He said "Ok! Let's go! So we held hands and snuggled up tightly together out of the field, across the river, out of the woods path, and after a while, he sent me to my eldest sister's house, anyone who gave me a deep hug, took an envelope from his body and handed it to me, then said "Go back and open it" and then said "Good night!" "We kissed goodbye to this wonderful night.