No one in the crowd will care about you, you will never be as important as you think, living well or badly is your own business, you don't have so many audiences, don't live too tired. Change yourself, be good at relief, and cure heart diseases with love and warmth.
"There is no distinction between tragedy and comedy in the world, and if you can come out of tragedy, it is comedy; if you indulge in comedy, it is tragedy." Duan Sha is no longer obsessive, sharp, no longer locked in love, she wants to say goodbye to a ghostly dream in a fresh and unworldly way. For the convenience of narration, I use the first person.
01
I came to this café again, sat alone in a corner, quietly watching the warm winter sun lazily sliding on the glass of the curtain wall of the opposite building, watching the people on the street coming and going, until the lights came up, and another long cold winter night came.
Time passes so imperceptibly, look at the phone, see other people's love and hate. I know that I have failed all the people around me who care about me, and I can never let a smile bloom sincerely on my face.
Always have the same dreams, always swinging his arms hard in the muddy and turbulent river, flapping the water, sinking and floating, watching the boat drift farther and farther, always waking up sweaty, suddenly sitting on the bed, looking around, and calming down.
It has been 4 years since the marriage changed, everything should be forgotten and everything should be put down, we all have our own lives, each has its own world, and we do not disturb each other. My daughter always loves to sing that song: whine, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, bla
My daughter thinks of her father, she wants her father, no matter how hard I try to compensate, in the end I can't fill the paleness that my daughter has left in my heart when she loses her father's love, and God knows how much I want to give my daughter a complete love, but I can't do anything about it.
How innocent my daughter is, why should she bear such pain, the most afraid to see the happiness between the three mouths, the unparalleled happiness instantly crushed all my efforts to disguise, but I can't start over, and time can't go back.
02
To be born is impossible to choose; to live is the process of life, as long as it is the direction of the heart, it can live out the appearance of life. I know that there are landscapes everywhere in life, I just lack a heart to appreciate the scenery, I could have let my life go all the way to the flowers.
Sadness and sorrow are because they are not strong enough and not sunny enough, since they have not fulfilled their wishes, it is better to be relieved. "Fate is love is empty, flashy and always with the wind" indifferent in the world, safe in the world, my life trajectory I will use my life to outline.
I have not been able to open my heart knot, always wrapped myself tightly, there is a man named Si Kang has been guarding me for nearly half a year, always warmly greeting me, but I am like a stone, refusing to be thousands of miles away, he is a courier company worker, divorced with a boy.
Si Kang said that he would surprise me by having a folder on his computer named after the nickname he gave me; in Word, he also recorded in detail every conversation we had, and how he felt differently each time, and he expressed his love in such a simple and clumsy way.
03
My cold exterior might have made him lose his patience, indifference, not that I was heartless, I was just using it to shield my heart from the wind and rain, just a tool to avoid being hurt, because I was afraid.
He asked me out many times, I was like a dusty woman pretending to be particularly unaffordable, and now I want to be a woman who understands, my good friends all know that there is such a man who has been "seducing" me, and they encourage me to go to the appointment. For several years, I was like a bird without legs, flying in the clouds and not mooring.
I have health and peace, I can hear the natural sounds, I can see the beauty of the world, I can climb uphill and down the hill, why should I be so self-pitying, after the time, I am doing and being pretentious, why should I be a woman who "no zuo no die"? The breeze blows, and the palace dances against the wind and flips against the wind.
Friends have helped me with ideas, from clothing to makeup, from hairstyles to expressions, laugh and laugh! Or boots short skirt loose sweater to come easily. I smiled and said that I treated it with a normal heart, can I really be normal? I doubt it. I don't run away anymore, I want to change my life patterns.
04
The winter snow is blowing, I put dead leaves into my bags, my heart becomes warm, I am ready to enjoy the gifts of each season with my lover. I'm going to try to fall in love again, to continue my love sequel, and I'm still hesitating about something, thinking that I'm really choppy and can't be calm.
We may not be rich, we can earn with both hands, slowly but firmly enjoy the tranquility of life, the exclusive love given to our daughters. Whether it is splendid or sleepy, take life seriously, and guard the long stream of family water.
Hong Huang, who was born with a shining aura, has been married four times, three ex-husbands are not rich and expensive, one of them is a well-known director Chen Kaige, and finally married Yang Xiaoping, a lonely and unknown decoration worker with a son, but let him find the stability of life.
Hong Huang said that her life with Yang Xiaoping was the most comfortable and tacit understanding, "good men are dessert after dinner" The view is fresh and hot, good men make women love it, women need the nourishment of love, and a woman full of love is so vivid and beautiful.
05
I know, Duan Sha, and Si Kang came together, this year, Duan Sha 32 years old, Si Kang 35 years old, a sagittarius woman and an Aries man, a match made in heaven, they held a simple wedding, enjoyed the tranquility of ordinary people, and the wind and rain watched the tide rise and fall, listened to the sound of the wind and rain.
This relaxed and quiet gaze is the longest companionship in marriage. Life is unbearable, it is good to have love, after experiencing the washing of the river and the sea, gushing persuasion, Duan Sha defeated herself and finally became a woman who can accept herself and accept the status quo.