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Author: Ling Yi
The story of "Big Brother" has seen countless people crying.
He was lonely all his life and was spurned.
His dream is to "become a woman."
Now, the dream has come true, but the "big brother" has disappeared.
01
In 2012, in Qingdao, a compound suddenly caught fire. The cause of the fire is unknown.
Smoke billowed from the scene and the fire spread rapidly.
Neighbors complained to reporters who came to interview:
"It's all tattered and piled up in mountains."
"He cooks in the house and makes wood to burn."
Just then, a man suddenly broke into the interview camera.
She wears pink women's clothes, wears thick makeup, and wears messy hair.
He is Liu Peilin.
He has no home, no job, no fixed residence. He was dazed and dazed.
Looking at the ruins, he kept repeating:
"I put out the fire before I left."
He was 56 years old.
Scavenging for a living.
People labeled him "demon", "flower girl", "big brother" and so on.
Overnight, Liu Peilin, a "man dressed as a woman", transformed into an Internet celebrity "Big Happy Brother".
The world laughed at his funny makeup, but they didn't know the heartache behind it.
Liu Peilin——
His lifelong dream is to "become a woman."
But this extraordinary dream was difficult for him to go to the sky.
02
Liu Peilin is a person who "comes from an unknown source".
At the age of 3, he was thrown at the Qingdao Railway Station. Carried home by adoptive parents to raise.
Years later, his adoptive father died of illness. The adoptive mother was also diagnosed with advanced cancer.
In order to cure his illness, he took out all his savings, sold the house, and helped his adoptive mother "renew his life".
But in the end, she left.
After the death of his adoptive mother, Liu Peilin collapsed.
Someone suggested that he go find a companion and start a family.
After introduction, he met a single mother.
The other person is mentally handicapped and unable to take care of himself. After spending some time together, the two were licensed to marry.
It was the only marriage in his life.
He wanted to do his husband's duty to cure his wife's illness. But he was told, "There is no cure for this." ”
A year later, the two could not get along, and finally broke up.
This marriage allowed him to completely "see through the red dust".
03
He owed 180,000 debts for the treatment of his adoptive mother.
In order to repay the debt, Liu Peilin began to scavenging.
I also began to respect my heart and put on women's clothes to live.
This desire for women's dress should start at an early age.
When he was a child, his adoptive mother often helped him tie his braids and wear skirts. He danced ballet and played Xi'er in "The White-Haired Girl".
He also likes to collect women's objects, often hiding in his room alone, putting on women's clothes, and self-appreciation.
He enjoys the feeling of "being a girl".
But before, because of the consideration of not being accepted by the world, he had to hide his "nature".
Today, marriage is gone, and parents are gone. He was the only one left in the world.
He felt it was time to liberate his nature.
He rode his bicycle to scavenging, living in cellars and water pipes, sleeping on the road, picking up food and food, and also picking up women's supplies.
Once, he picked up a dress and he loved it.
When I got home, I immediately changed into a pair of women's cloth shoes and heavy makeup.
He walked out of the house, to the park, to the beach.
Along the way, pedestrians pointed at him and even laughed.
He was eager to find a crack in the ground to drill into.
Passing by someone else's door, they scolded him as a thief and mentally ill.
The bus driver saw him dressed up and scolded him for obstructing his eyes.
Once, when he saw a car accident on the road, he went to take the handle, but he was blown away.
When others needed it, he reached out. But no one noticed, and there was not a single thank you.
His friend said, "Men should look like men." ”
He said: "I don't think I'm pretty good this way. ”
For a long time after wearing women's clothes, he had no friends.
When he met Dumb, it was his 12th year of wearing women's clothes.
That day, he was picking up scrap when suddenly a man hugged him tightly.
Unable to break free, he tried to turn back and communicate with the man.
The man is a mute.
He kept comparing with his hands, "I appreciate you, let's live together." ”
At that moment, Liu Peilin was stunned.
After 12 years, someone is finally willing to take the initiative to make friends with him.
They began to "live together" to live.
Liu Peilin said:
"He cares a lot about his family,
If you get money, you will buy food and drink,
Also added some cosmetics and clothes for me. ”
Although there are obstacles in communication, it brings Liu Peilin a full sense of security.
It was the first time he longed for stability.
The good times did not last long, and the dumb man suddenly disappeared.
No goodbyes, no signs.
Liu Peilin heard that the dumb man caused trouble and was locked up.
As for what to cause trouble, where it is closed, it is unknown.
It was hard to rekindle the enthusiasm for life, and once again it collapsed.
He didn't dare to ask for anything more, everything was out of reach.
Since then, Liu Peilin has also disappeared.
04
Returning to the public eye again is the "Big Brother".
After "Fire News", he also caught fire.
In 2012, he appeared on the TV show "Please Forgive Me" to apologize to his creditors.
He promised that even if it was difficult, he would insist on repaying the money.
After saying that, he bowed shyly and apologized.
In the spotlight, everyone wept for his sincerity.
The female host saw the situation and followed the coaxing:
"If you change into a man's clothes,
It will be even hotter than it is now!
Do you want to see it?
Come and go! ”
Unable to refuse, he removed all his makeup, changed into men's clothes, and took the stage again.
Offstage, everyone was cheering.
On stage, he was overwhelmed and smiled shyly.
No one noticed, tear marks hanging from the corners of his eyes.
If he was forced to change into men's clothes, it was for the sake of acting.
Then cut off the long hair, it is for life.
In 2016, Daxi Brother was 60 years old and officially retired.
There is a pension of 1350 yuan per month.
Pay the rent with 800 yuan, and the rest is used to pay off the debt.
Life is harder than it was before retirement.
Later, he could not even pay the rent and was evicted.
No shelter, there are still a bunch of debts to pay, what to do?
He thought of Mr. Zhao.
A well-meaning man who once said he would be willing to help him.
Mr. Zhao promised to provide him with a free residence.
But there are 2 conditions:
1, not allowed to wear women's clothing.
2, do not put waste products.
He nodded reluctantly.
If he doesn't, he'll never pay off his debts.
He said:
"I've been wearing women's clothes for 16 years,
Never broke the law,
Nor has it ever harmed anyone.
Clothes are a layer of skin,
Pick it up, pick it up. ”
He also cut off his long hair, which he had left for 18 years.
A little helpless, a little sad.
When he packed his bags, he threw away the women's clothes he had accumulated, one by one.
The reporter asked him:
"Will you wear women's clothes again?"
He said firmly:
"Absolutely impossible,
That's a phase of life.
Turned over. ”
He excitedly moved into his new home.
10 days later, he was complained about by neighbors.
Calling him what he looks like will scare the child.
Recalling the situation at that time, Daxi Brother said:
"You don't even know how hard they scold."
The landlord told him to move away quickly, and if he did not move, he called every day, came to the door, and threatened in various ways.
He tried to ask Mr. Zhao for help again.
As a result, Mr. Zhao was gone. Long hair was gone, and women's clothes were gone.
His heart was full of joy, and he was beaten back to his original form.
"I'm worthy of the world, but it always makes me sad."
Daxi Brother moved back to the old alley again and restarted the life of scavenging.
Sunrise and sunset.
Finally, the years paid off.
After 20 years of scavenging, he paid off all his debts.
That day, he couldn't wait to write in his diary:
"Dad, I've paid off my debt."
When he sold his adoptive father's house, he had always felt guilty.
Today, there is a great deal of relief.
In March 2019, Daxi Ge decided to leave Qingdao.
Where did he go?
Or do you still make a living as a scavenger?
Still wearing women's clothes?
No one knows, and no one mentions it.
The "big brother" who was very popular was gradually forgotten.
05
Liu Liangcheng once said a sentence:
"The snow that falls on a man's life,
We can't see it all.
We are all in our own lives,
Spend the winter alone. ”
This sentence was placed on Liu Peilin's body, which was appropriate.
We only see the misery of Brother Daxi, but we have not understood liu Peilin's nobility.
In the past, he wrote in the mirror, "A new day begins, come on!" ”
At the age of 60, he changed the sentence to, "60 years old, is the third step in life, hard work!" ”
Looking in the mirror, he smiled and said:
"Anyway, it's all about refueling, do it hard."
As time passed, the wrinkles on his face grew and his teeth fell out.
But it does not affect his pursuit of "refinement" in the slightest.
Skirts are picked up, cosmetics are picked up. But every day when he went out, he was like going to a feast.
Wearing skirts, painting nails, wearing necklaces, stepping on high heels, carrying bags, not a single link can be left behind.
Once, during a reporter's interview, he found that he was missing a piece of his ear.
Asked why, he said:
"Walking on the road and being robbed by bandits,
Tear off the earrings with blood and flesh. ”
Even so, he insisted on dropping the pendant for his ears.
The pain made him feel more and more interesting to be alive.
What makes him happy is reading.
His favorite writers are Lao She and Barkin.
He felt that those writings about human suffering resonated.
In the book, he finds his own way of connecting with the world.
At the same time, it also allowed him to find comfort in the panic.
What's more worth mentioning is that he insisted on keeping a diary.
Since elementary school, he has written more than 400 books in ten years.
There are reading feelings, there are small things in life, and there are secret things...
Written until 2019.
Some volunteer friends raised funds to help him get his diary to publish.
The title of the book is "My Life".
After 231 days, he took his new book and returned to his hometown of Qingdao for a sharing meeting.
The sharing session began, and he stepped onto the stage to shake hands with everyone one by one.
The audience cheered his name loudly.
"Old Liu, Sister Liu, Aunt Liu..."
Only no one shouted "Big Brother".
"I like the title of Sister Liu,
can point out the gender,
He also appears very young. ”
The main purpose of this sharing session is twofold:
1. Promote the new book.
2, tell the hometown father and elder, "My name is Liu Peilin, I am not crazy." ”
The world kissed him with pain, and he sang in return.
The income from the new book, he intends to invest in the "Hi Charity" special fund.
This project was set up for him by a friend.
Designed to help people with difficulties in life, or "marginalized people" like him.
At the meeting, he also said an impressive sentence.
"63-year-old Nishiyama,
But my heart is still young,
I'm willing to stay young forever. ”
He did it. Always enthusiastic, always young.
Some time ago, Sister Liu appeared on the catwalk wearing a pink fur coat and delicate makeup.
It was a party for special groups.
The organizers presented him with awards for his contributions to minorities.
This time, everyone present cheered for Sister Liu.
No mockery, no sarcasm.
There is no strange vision.
Nor did anyone want to "transform" him.
He waited a full 65 years for this day.
Everyone has the right to fight against fate.
There are also ways to reconcile with their hardships.
When one day, the other in our eyes is no longer the other, and the abnormal state has a reason for existence, that is, the progress of civilization.
Because we finally understand that to respect a way of life is to respect a free soul.
In the final analysis, those rebellions and disorders, those disorders and struggles, those pursuits and redemptions in Liu Peilin's body are all his personal struggle with fate.
It was His flame.
His snow.
He survived the war alone.
If you and I can't understand, then trying not to denigrate, not attack, and not see it as heresy is also the goodwill of human beings.
And if, if you are fortunate enough to sympathize with those tremors and ups and downs, those humiliations and tears, it is the greatest blessing of these communities.
They were finally seen.
Finally not lonely.
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