Wu Mi
One day, Wu Mi received a letter from her own student Qian Zhongshu. When you open it, the words in the letter are clear.
"There is no end to the floating life is still suffering, infinite acid and tears who pay." It was this letter that caused the relationship between Wu Qian and his teachers and students to break down, and as a result, half of their lives were unsuccessful.
What made Qian Zhongshu write such a letter to his teacher? This has to be traced back to Wu Mi's youth.
Who is Wu Mi?
Wu Mi is a native of Jingyang County, Shaanxi Province. The characters Rain Monk, Yu Heng, pen name for the rest of his life.
The titles given to him in history seem to be a bit redundant, but each title is truly deserved, and it is not exaggerated. He is known as: one of the founders of the National College of Tsinghua University, the father of Chinese comparative literature; One of the founders of Chinese red science, together with Chen Yinke and Tang Yongtong, is known as the "Harvard Three Masters".
Wu Mi's heart is excellent.
He was not afraid of the powerful, and in Tsinghua Guo college, if anyone offended the powerful, he would always come forward, never letting his colleagues and friends be in danger.
Moreover, this talented man of the Republic of China is rigorous in his studies and can be described as attentive to academics. He studied both Chinese and Western, proficient in Western literature, especially in the Red Chamber. He loves Lin Daiyu in "Dream of the Red Chamber" and considers himself Zijuan.
It is said that he was gentlemanly and elegant, and his friendliness to the lady was almost compassionate. This is consistent with Baoyu's approach in "Dream of the Red Chamber". It is conceivable that he not only loves Dai Yu very much, but also looks like Bao Yu very much.
If we do not judge him by his experience, but only by his preferences, we can know that such a person should be clean and self-righteous, or that in his emotional world, he will set up a beautiful situation of his own, and will not allow it to be flawed.
The story begins when he first met his wife, or even earlier.
At that time, Wu Mi, who was studying in Europe, received a letter from her classmate Chen Liexun, in which she stated that her sister Chen Yixin admired her greatly and wanted to get to know herself, and even had the intention of making a promise to her.
At that time, after Wu Mi saw Chen Yixin's photo, she was thrilled.
It just so happened that Mao Yanwen, the cousin of Zhu Junyi (who was also Zhu's fiancée), was an alumnus of the Hangzhou Women's Division with Chen Xin, and Wu Mi entrusted Zhu Junyi to inquire on his behalf.
Mao Yanwen
Although the two are both alumni, they do not know each other. However, entrusted by his fiancé, Mao Yanwen had to take advantage of the summer vacation to go to Chen Xinyi's home to find out.
Mao Yanwen described Chen Xinyi in this way. It is said that this person is an old-fashioned woman, a very virtuous wife and mother, and if accompanied by him, he will be able to govern the family. But if you want to find fashionable women and sociable people, you should choose someone else.
Mao Yanwen suggested that Wu Mi communicate with him for a period of time before making a decision.
Wu Mi followed Mao Yanwen's advice and kept communicating with Chen Shuxin, feeling quite comfortable. Later, Wu Mi returned to China and married Chen.
Zhu Junyi
After marriage, as Mao Yanwen said, Chen Xinyi did his best to govern the family well, and gave birth to three daughters for Wu Mi. Wu Mi called it "hard work and tranquility".
If we think according to the norm, such a complete family should not have any more out-of-the-ordinary things.
However, there are times when not being a demon is not enough to call a talent. This is also an inferior root of the so-called self-intoxication of talents throughout the ages.
In the face of her hard-working and peaceful wife, Wu Mi felt inadequate because she was not a talented woman.
Just at this time, Zhu Junyi, who returned from studying abroad, changed his mind. Insisting on retiring from his fiancée and marrying someone else.
At that time, because of Wu Mi's marriage, Mao Yanwen inquired on his behalf. As a result, Mao Yanwen and his wife Chen Xinyi became girlfriends, and also became friends with Wu Mi.
As a good friend for many years, Wu Mi was careful between Mao Yanwen and Zhu Junyi, trying to save their relationship, but Zhu Junyi decided to turn around, and there was no room for maneuver.
Abandoned by her fiancé, Mao Yanwen was heartbroken, she had great admiration for her cousin since she was a child, never thought that her relationship with her cousin would change, and she was hit hard by this, and her grief had nowhere to go.
At this time, Wu Mi, who mediated from it, fell in love with Mao Yanwen because of excessive pity.
This period of origin, traced back, was long before he met Chen Xinyi. At that time, Zhu Junyi and Mao Yanwen often exchanged letters.
Because Wu Mi and Zhu Junyi had long been friends, from the time Mao Yanwen was still young and did not understand the sentence, Wu Mi began to read her letters to her cousin.
When she grew into a young girl of a wonderful age, her intellect gradually opened up, and her literary talent was remarkable, Wu Mi admired her talent while reading. Gradually, the flower-obsessed Wu Mi actually secretly had feelings.
If Zhu Junyi does not change his mind, this is only the past, but on the contrary, this past has been touched again with the changes in the relationship between the two.
This is the sadness of the so-called talent.
On the one hand, because he is well versed in the etiquette and doctrine of traditional Chinese culture, he does not dare to cross the line.
On the other hand, it was deeply affected by the new cultural movement, and the huge waves were so great that they could not resist. As a result, the desires of his human nature are aroused.
Sprinkling it arbitrarily in the name of "love" is irresponsible and unrestrained.
He thought of a way to have it both ways: to marry Mao Yanwen at the same time on the basis of not divorcing. Mao Yanwen, on the other hand, never moved his mind and dismissed it as "shameful." ”
Even so, when she saw Xu Zhimo and Zhang Youyi divorced and married Lu Xiaoman, Wu Mi was extremely envious. And followed Xu Zhimo's example of abandoning his wife, abandoning his three daughters, and openly divorcing to pursue Mao Yanwen.
It's a shame.
It is not denied that the literati of the Republic of China are a kind of breakthrough and reform. However, if you are well versed in the essence of Chinese culture, you should appreciate the obedience and indifference of the "Tao".
The intervention of Western culture must have an element of freedom, calling it "liberating human nature", but forgetting that good and evil in human nature coexist.
The unchecked river of desire rushes at will, creating many lonely women who are helpless.
The person who went up against the current like Zhang Youyi had opened up a different world, but how many other little-footed women had more to see?
Reform, likes and dislikes, is bound to be accompanied by the sorrow of a tax group.
Not only Wu Mi, but also many people in the Republic of China who were called masters by later generations, they also disagreed with the practice of tying their wives.
Women of the Old Republic of China
Wu Mi is good-natured, and after the divorce, he was sorry, and he bore all the living expenses and education expenses of his wife and three daughters.
But his feelings for Mao Yanwen only increased, and the other party had nothing more than a thought for him, so as to avoid his entanglement, he simply stayed in the United States to study.
Wu Mi went after her to the United States as a visiting scholar, but was still rejected.
Later, perhaps it was years of pursuit that impressed Mao Yanwen. When Wu Mi proposed to him again, Mao Yanwen finally agreed to him.
But when Mao Yanwen rushed to Paris, he repented again! Turn to pursuing others. This immature personality is like a child.
Because I liked a doll in a window, I didn't want to buy it. And when it finally arrived, it was abandoned and unwilling to play again.
Frustrated, Mao Yanwen married Xiong Xiling, former premier of the Republic of China, with the help of his classmates. At that time, Xiong Xiling's ex-wife had been dead for four years.
It is Xiong Xiling's daughter who is the matchmaker for the two, and he looks forward to a happy old age for his father.
At that time, Xiong Xiling was 65 years old and Mao Yanwen was 37 years old, although the age difference was huge, but in the end it was a solid protection.
When Mao Yanwen and Xiong Xiling got married, Wu Mi had deeply regretted his actions, and he found that he loved Mao Yanwen deeply and regretted his mistake.
He was married, and he published a poem in the newspaper to confess:
Wu Mi bitterly loved Mao Yanwen, and people from three continents were shocked to hear about it.
Xiong Xiling married Mao Yanwen
Divorce is not afraid of sage ridicule, money and reputation.
He wrote a large number of poems to express his feelings for Mao Yanwen. The heart, entangled in delusional thoughts, actually thought, "The skies desert the color world." ”
Two years later, Xiong Xiling died of illness, and Wu Mi actually felt that hope was rekindled.
Not only did he write 10,000 words of letters a day to send to Mao Yanwen, but even though the letters were returned intact, he still did not give up, and even once chased them to Hong Kong.
He always seemed to be wishful thinking.
Why, when you want, people must be willing, and if you don't want to, you can just throw people aside, as if others exist just for you.
Xiong Xiling and Mao Yanwen
Mao Yanwen felt her husband's protection of him and vowed not to marry again. Wu Mi's behavior has always been indifferent.
In order to express his feelings, he posted articles everywhere, and also dissected his poems for students in class, so that they were ridiculed.
Qian Zhongshu saw that his teacher was trapped in the situation, and in order to wake him up, he wrote a letter to him, in which he expressed his chest directly: "There is no end to the floating life and self-suffering, and there are endless bitter tears who pay for it."
This letter was originally well-intentioned, but it caused Wu Mi to misunderstand, and the relationship between the two broke down, and as a result, half of their lives were unsuccessful.
In Mao Yanwen's later years, an expert specializing in Wu Mi went to Taiwan for an exclusive interview, and Mao Yanwen's response was indifferent: "It's boring." He's one-sided and he's a nerd. ”
It is no wonder that Qian Zhongshu would write letters to his teachers. This reaction makes us viewers also sigh at it.
Money Bell Book
Mao Yanwen did not pay much attention to Wu Mi in his "Autobiography", but affirmed his character, saying that he had always taken good care of his wife and daughter after his divorce.
When it comes to love, Mao Yanwen believes that Wu Mi's ideals and pursuits of love are absurd and illusory, doomed to no results.
Mao Yanwen saw it very thoroughly, so she never touched her heart again.
The so-called "love" that Wu Mi poured out to her was actually a kind of self-pity. It is a kind of unwillingness to love and not to be able to do so.
The love he pursues is actually a beauty that arises from being far away. Once it was about to get, he would feel that some kind of beauty was destroyed.
He was happy to indulge in the pain of this love and not being able to do so, a habit that had been accumulated by the culture he had learned.
Therefore, such a kind person is trapped in a self-made mood, thinking that he is pure, but he does not want to be abusive.
And the purity he thinks he is is actually a reflection of the purity of his heart, but he mistook it for love.
If you project the cleanliness of this heart to other places, such as sending love to the landscape, such as serving the motherland, such as devoting yourself to culture, rather than living in someone, it is very different.
If love does not take the air and only survives in a vacuum, then no matter how beautiful it is, it is doomed to end up "very silly and naïve".
It is like a bubble blown by a child holding a colored stick, colorful, extremely round and beautiful, but it is not real in the end, and it will always be disillusioned.
This almost fairytale wishful thinking in reality always makes people feel like a joke.
And Wu Mi, while he was obsessed with Mao Yanwen, he also looked at the school's assistant teacher and pursued him.
When the people agreed to his marriage proposal, he showed them the poems he had written for Mao Yanwen and told them about his admiration for Mao Yanwen.
He even naively told people: If Mao Yanwen is willing to marry, of course, it is best, and if Mao Yanwen does not marry, he will concentrate on marrying you.
It's just inexplicably wonderful. Of course, people are reluctant to make such a promise.
He spent many years in his own situation until he met his second wife at nearly 60 years old.
The girl's name was Zou Lanfang, and she was only in her early twenties. I saw an article published by Wu Mi in the newspaper and wrote a letter to express her admiration.
Zou Lanfang was suppressed due to a rebellion due to a bad birth, leaving several children unattended, and the family of nine lived on Zou Lanfang's meager salary, which can be said to be very difficult.
Wu Mi in old age
After meeting Wu Mi, Zou Lanfang became close as a student. Wu Mi saw that her life was pitiful and very kind to herself, and Wu Mi, who had already pitied Xiang Xiang and cherished jade, married her.
The poet does not abandon his romantic nature because of his frustrated experience, and when he marries, he gives a poem, saying: "Yellow flowers and white hair are tied together, and the people of the time look at each other coldly."
As a professor, Wu Mi at that time was a high-income group, but after marriage, he needed to support Zou Lanfang's family of nine, which was a heavy burden.
And Zou Lanfang's body has never improved since marriage, because of tuberculosis, looking for medical treatment everywhere. After three years, the healing was fruitless and he eventually died.
At this time, the kind Professor Wu Mi took on the heavy responsibility of providing for Zou Lanfang's family, sending money every month without interruption. It was not until he was overwhelmed that he stopped providing for them.
This twilight love made Wu Mi, who should have enjoyed her old age in peace, feel hard. With love, I came, but I was involved in life.
Before that, the talented man probably never got confused by money.
He will only use his emotions to the point of truth, sprinkle pen and ink through the back of the paper, and retreat when he is about to arrive, seemingly indiscriminately irresponsible. The thickness of life does not occupy his mind.
One would argue that after his wife's death, he had the option of not taking care of her nephews and nieces.
However, he was Professor Wu Mi, and he would not avoid retreating under the power, so how could he ignore his wife's relatives.
Some people say that Zou Lanfang is cheating on marriage, in fact, the depth of love is not necessarily a cheat.
Since his quality and personality charm can make Chen Xinyi just read his text and see the photos, he has the idea of making a promise to him, as a viewer, how dare he conclude that Zou Lanfang did not marry him because he admired him deeply?
It is sad that I have lived in the city of fantasy all my life, but when I am old, I have tasted the heartache of life.
No matter how beautiful the fantasy is, it cannot withstand the thickness of reality. If the world is involved in the weight of life, before Zou Lanfang, Wu Mi suffered from the unbearable pain of life.
But if he cherished a stable life a little, he would not divorce his first wife. Unlike Xu Zhimo, Xu Zhimo and Zhang Youyi are arranged by his parents, while his union with his wife Chen Xinyi is the product of free love.
Or, he would marry Mao Yanwen with his consent.
Again, when he impresses the assistant teacher around him, if he is not so naïve, he will not run away with a good girl.
But he seems to be in this fate, and he does not analyze and perceive it himself.
Fate is not a conclusive conclusion, but once it is discovered and perceived, and avoided, it can change its direction.
The hell is that he always has to kick away the beauty in front of him, or watch it come without grabbing it and let it flow away. He seemed to be doing it tirelessly, unaware of his actions.
When he thought it was difficult to grasp, but because of his "love brain" and he had no ability to see the situation around him, he made his old age difficult.
Saying "amorous since ancient times empty hatred", no, he does not hate anyone, but he is willing to bear it.
Saying "all are in the middle of laughter", I can't laugh, his kindness and innocence are pitying.
He said that he was not dedicated, but in his later years he was still pursuing his love for Mao Yanwen.
But how can his actions be called single-mindedness?
Sanmao
Sanmao once said a sentence: "A mystery and pain that cannot be solved and cannot be said to be unknown to the relationship of past lives." ”
In short, the delicate world of feelings should also be treated with history as a mirror. It is still necessary to leave a clear awareness to avoid hurting others and hurting yourself.