If you have emotional problems, you can always come to me and talk about it
Let me be your best listener and listen to the truest voice in your heart
Author: Hua Yu Chi
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Note| the original book is different from the TV series
In the original work, Sheng Minglan did not fall in love with Gu Tingye until his death.
Whether it was at the beginning of Gu Tingye's calculations or after his triumphant return, the author never showed Sheng Minglan's intentions, but only gave warmth through mutual compromise between the two people and snuggled for warmth.
In the face of disappointment and reality again and again, what Sheng Minglan has exchanged for it has always been a compromise, and has always been cautious and trembling like walking on thin ice.
Even if he had to agree to Gu Tingye's marriage proposal, it was only because he had taken a fancy to the three "sexual choices" in him. ”
In fact, if you can read the three choices that Sheng Minglan finally identified gu Tingye, you can also see the unavoidable compromises and blandness in the marriage.
Marriage is always connected to reality, always realistic enough that you have to bow your head after seeing everything clearly.
From discouragement to death, there is always a process
In the original work, Sheng Minglan is actually a cross-over character with a modern soul.
In other words, she is a living person with a mind, a soul, and an independent personality of her own.
Sheng Minglan in the past life was a clerk in the civil court, she saw all the sorrows and joys on the scene, and she had not yet felt the vicissitudes of love and marriage, and from a realistic point of view, for marriage, she had long seen through the vicissitudes and reality inside.
Therefore, after coming to ancient times, she always paid sympathy for those who could not help herself, including herself.
Later, Gu Tingye's marriage proposal was actually more like a calculation for Sheng Minglan.
This is like a scam waiting to lure the fishing child to the bait, in order to lay this game, almost everyone has fallen into the trap he has set, which is actually an intolerable manipulation for Sheng Minglan, who has received modern education.
Previously, for He Hongwen, the reason why she endured and endured again was because she chose to accept this body and accept this fate, but the good villain still had the right to choose her marriage with her grandmother, and in order to live well, she endured it again and again.
Sheng Minglan is a person who is very good at "disguise".
But Gu Tingye's current move is to push her into the fire pit.
The power of the high-gate household, she has not seen it, moreover, Gu Tingye has chosen her among so many women, not just because she is interested in herself.
For Sheng Minglan, Gu Tingye actually did not love so much.
When Gu Tingye chose Sheng Minglan, it was the same as when he chose Yu Yanran before, and before that, he always had to weigh the conditions first.
In fact, sometimes from discouragement to death, there is always a process.
Sheng Minglan finally chose to marry Gu Tingye under the balance, which was actually more like a big gamble in life.
The key point is that she knows Gu Tingye's difficulties, and Gu Tingye also knows her difficulties, not to mention that she herself knows that there is no love in that era.
Marriages that can really grow old in white, and have real love, throughout the ages, can be described as very few, like the marriage state of Madame Wang in "Dream of the Red Chamber", which is normal:
Doing a good job of being the head of the family, raising children, teaching children, and respecting each other is already a good state.
For life, after Sheng Minglan came to ancient times, he has always been unusually sober.
But meeting Gu Tingye was definitely the biggest accident in her stable life.
Weigh the pros and cons, and even weigh everything
After becoming relatives, Gu Tingye and Sheng Minglan have always been in a process of mutual temptation.
However, the moment when the mutual temptation begins, there is no end.
Knowing that true feelings are the most unsatisfactory, Gu Tingye wants to test Sheng Minglan's sincerity again and again.
From the moment he lost his mother, from the moment she revealed the disguise of Zhu Manniang's drum skin, from the moment he discovered Xiao Qin's deception, from the moment he saw that the jianghu was suffering from danger, he always had a so-called obsession in his heart.
But he forgot that from the moment he chose to calculate, this feeling was full of ups and downs.
He wants this true feeling, and while he longs for others to truly love him, he also forgets how to treat others sincerely.
He has suffered hardships, and he has planted his head on women, but in the end, he still expects to get such warmth, perhaps more like a causal cycle.
Sheng Minglan originally agreed to Gu Tingye's marriage proposal, in addition to having to, in fact, he also looked at three conditions:
One is Gu Tingye's purpose in asking to marry her now.
Sheng Minglan understands very well that today's Gu Tingye is still not the stupid boy who only knows how to walk chickens and dogs and drink flower wine, and now it is different from the past, his identity and the current identity of the Sheng family, there is too much gap, if it is said that there is nothing to ask for, it is unlikely.
Is it to marry yourself in order to have a suitable wife, or to have a suitable partner?
The second is what kind of environment this person is in.
When the new emperor ascended the throne, although he Gu Tingye was now hot, he could also be said to be surrounded by wolves, and the troubles around him were inevitable, and the former dynasty, the inner house, and even the relatives of the officials in the palace, the interest relations around him were also enough headaches.
Third; and the most important one, whether the person has really used his heart for himself.
This marriage, he really thought hard.
Before and after to wrap so many people around, and even set up a plan to wait for people to drill into it, the mind in this, but if it is worse, it will be a failure, so the mind, to this point, even if you don't marry now, it is not okay.
If you don't marry, you are very likely to completely offend him as Sheng Hu said; but if you marry, it is a big gamble in life.
She understands:
What kind of card fate gave her, she had to go on, and what was important was how to play this card better.
I have calculated so much, but I have forgotten how to treat people sincerely
In the original work, Sheng Minglan had long been worn away by reality and had to choose to start learning to be prepared and learn to accept everything early.
The same is true of Gu Tingye.
However, while expecting others to treat him sincerely, he also forgot how to treat others sincerely.
In this world, it has always been true heart for heart.
Don't you treat others with sincerity, let alone others treat you with sincerity?
Gu Tingye was entangled and confused, feeling that Sheng Minglan did not treat him with sincerity, did not show ten points of love like Zhu Manniang in the past, and felt that she did not have half sincerity, which showed that Gu Tingye actually had a little bit of "inferiority" in his bones.
Especially after Ai Sheng Minglan married him, all the sufferings he suffered, even the disaster of innocence, were all related to him.
For Zhu Manniang's incident, he could obviously tell the truth and give his wife a fairness, but under the balance, he still chose the most chilling way:
"I don't want to justify anything. You're right when you say I don't really treat you. But I am not born cold, I have treated people sincerely, but the end, being deceived, being bullied, being wronged, nowhere to sue, no one to trust... I can only jump out, go outside, take off Gu Houci's clothes, crowns, names, everything, dig out the heart, lower the head, from the new, from the new. ”
"Eventually, I will. Think beforehand, pros and cons, good or bad, positive and negative... Will resist the calculation, will also calculate others. He laughed bitterly, "Only by killing/dying that Gu Tingye can you survive." ”
He stretched out his palm to wrap around Minglan's hand and said bitterly, "After knowing that your mother is safe, the first thing I thought of was not to worry about your fear, but to breathe for you, but how to suppress manniang's matter steadily." You blamed me later, blamed me, all right! Just like me, I actually dared to complain that you didn't really treat me, what an asshole! ”
In this process, Gu Tingye thought that he had seen through everything and seen through the cold state of the world, but he did not want to, although he had completed his own transformation, he had also buried the real Gu Tingye in the past.
"When your grandmother had an accident, you knelt in front of the hospital bed, crying so sadly, so heart and lungs. In order to get justice for the old lady, you are completely open-minded, rich in life and death, and refuse to turn back in death! I woke up like a dream - it turned out that I had walked so much, so many gains and losses, but I forgot the most important... I forgot how to treat people sincerely..."
Fate has never been a smooth road for him, crossing the bumps, adventures, looking back, and finding that the precious past has been lost.
And in this process, what he forgot, and what he forgot was not just to treat people sincerely?
The same is true of Sheng Minglan, who has never found a direction.
For this person, she is not without a little intention, but this happiness has suddenly increased, she has no grasp at all, for such a thing, it seems to her like a pie in the sky, a person who has been tempered by reality early, a person who has faded innocence early, how can he easily pay his true heart?
The two of them, who had already experienced too much, had long been worn away by reality and enthusiasm, learned to disguise early, learned to be wary of everything early, were careful, weighed the pros and cons of people and things around them, and went around in a circle to find out what they really lost.
As written in the original book:
They are all prematurely worn away by reality and innocence and enthusiasm, and they will have all kinds of disguises in life, full of vigilance and caution against people and things, cautious, and unwilling to believe easily.
It wasn't until I crossed the mountains, suspicion, sadness, hesitation, and a big circle that I realized that what I wanted was close at hand.
For the matter of love, they themselves are people who are not willing to believe it easily.
So careful, so tempting each other, is only the final choice to compromise.
Sometimes, love is a fool's self-amusement, but also a tacit compromise.
That's all.
Author: Hua Yu Chi, freelance writer, both romantic and rationalist, focusing on women's growth and emotional writing, a woman who loves to read.
Love the beauty of words, sell words for a living, and believe that one day you will achieve a better self.
At present, the writing is shallow and still being sharpened...