Prose / Spring
Recently, bored, I had a rabbit and a pair of parrots. I don't know why, after a few days of getting along, the rabbit and the parrot have changed from being timid when they first arrived to not being afraid of me.
I wondered: Why are these little animals and birds able to live in harmony with me, and some people treat them like guests, but they can't allow me to coexist? I was secretly annoyed. When I first brought the rabbit and the parrot home, my family laughed at me: I was very idle, I didn't have a dog to feed the cat, and I started raising birds to feed the rabbits, and I really didn't know that there was a problem with the string. I know that I have a bad temperament, although I can tolerate people and understand people, but I like to die, drill the horns, and be unreasonable. Therefore, this bad disease has also offended many people. So much so that they think that there is something wrong with me, and in reality they always think that I am not right, that it is not good, that I am not good, and I can't even allow me to suck in the air with them.
The world is so big that all things have a way. Everyone has their own way of life, and in reality there is only the trouble of comparison, but they do not know how easy it is to let go. You don't like me, I don't force it, I always have to find the joy of life for myself, and make my life as wonderful as possible. So in my spare time, I insisted on writing brush characters every day to practice calligraphy, and went into the writers' group to watch the teachers write interesting stories about previous years, the true feelings of the world, and the truths of the world. It has become a habit of life to rest on time before 9 o'clock and never stay up late. If you sit idle in this way, you will save a lot of trouble.
When a person is alone, it feels like a heart is really quiet, stable, and relaxed. At this time, you can think about the topic of life and read the meaning of life. I remember a senior said: If a scientist is arranged to teach in a kindergarten, the result is that the children do not like him and say that he is not cute; parents will also reflect that his attitude towards the child is blunt and not gentle; the head of the kindergarten also criticizes and teaches the scientist all day long that he is incompetent, and even a bunch of children are not good... In fact, none of them know that scientists have worked hard to change themselves in order to adapt to the environment, and the result is still not recognized by everyone. I know that nature's law of survival is "survival of the fittest, survival of the fittest."
People should adapt to the living environment. But for the dirty environment, can't people still change it and affect it? I knew very well that although I was not the scientist, I had fallen into the same embarrassment as the scientist. No matter life, no matter work, others think that I can't do it, that I don't fit in, that I can't satisfy them. Since you don't have the ability to change others, try to change yourself. So I keep reflecting, constantly improving myself, hoping to get their approval and one day they will be satisfied. So I let go of what I wanted to do and try to do what others wanted me to do. However, after a period of hard work, I found that the harder I tried, the more I couldn't find myself. Losing myself, all my pain, happiness and pursuits, etc., I don't know what the point is? "I" and "others" are different, everyone knows things, but no one consciously asks "me" to do the same thing as "others" and reap the same results. Sometimes they even do better than "others", but they still don't get their approval.
Just like Director Zhang in the article "Director Zhang Eating canteen" published in the "Cadre Decision-making Reference" APP a few days ago, no matter what he does, he will not be affirmed by everyone. I am only a teacher, and without the official position of Director Zhang, how can I ask for the approval of "others"? At this point I felt helpless. It's not that I'm not doing well, it's that I don't please "others". People are all different from each other, although they all belong to human beings, but after all, it is due to personality differences, which determines the diversity, richness and complexity of life individuals, and the commonality of life cannot be used to create a creative individual life. I belong to the special one, I can't change others, I can only change my own way of life, no longer blindly please others and wronged myself.
People are originally high-class animals, and it is better to think about the tiredness of getting along with them than to get along with small animals! They don't complain that I do this or that. When you have time, you can also tease them for a while. I'm different from others! But in life, I hope that I still have something to do in life itself. When night came, I began to think about what I was doing. It turned out that I was really different from others, always inconsistent with other people's behavior: thinking was inconsistent, others may be busier and more fulfilling, but I always felt busier and more empty, sometimes thinking that the so-called work, life, etc., felt that life was wasted. Work is only a form of supporting life and earning money; life is more to prove that you are a normal person, in order to win the reputation of others who say that you are a "good person", and you will not hesitate to sacrifice your own personality.
Changing the state of your life with fulfillment is actually a pleasure. Write a small letter after dinner, read a book for half an hour, tease them, and learn to communicate with them. Forget the unhappiness of the past, in fact, it is very simple, other people's lives do not have your journey, why change their future life state? Not forgetting the original intention and not forgetting the principle of being a person is the road to being a man.