One of the representative poets of the Obscure School, a prodigy admitted to Peking University at the age of 15, why would he choose to commit suicide by lying on the track?

introduction

The Book of Song and the Biography of Xie Lingyun once wrote: "To attain the Tao, one should be wise and wise, and the heavens should be born before the spiritual fortune, and the buddha must be after the spiritual fortune." The meaning refers to those who have literary genius and have a karmic relationship with writing, and the person Ziyuan wants to talk about today is a person who can be called a wise man of letters. Despite his talent and literary talent, he eventually left this world early

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Speaking of Haizi, many young people now feel strange, and older people will definitely remember one of the representative poets of this obscure school, the modern poet who once brought beautiful poetry to the world.

One of Haizi's poems is very famous, or a few of them are extremely impressive in the public's memory, "From tomorrow onwards, be a happy person." Feed the horses, chop wood, and travel the world. From tomorrow, care for grain and vegetables. I have a house facing the sea and spring blossoms. ”

▲Haizi old photo

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But in fact, the person who wrote such a beautiful verse, his life is not beautiful.

Haizi, whose original name was Cha Haisheng, was born in 1964 in Chawan Village, Gaohe Town, Huaining County, Anhui Province. Haizi's origins were so ordinary that they could not be more ordinary, his ancestors had been farmers for generations, and his father, Zha Zhengquan, had never even attended school.

No one would have thought that he would use the pen name "Haizi" in the future and leave this name as one of the brightest stars in the history of modern Chinese poetry.

▲Recent photo of the gate of Peking University

In 1979, at the age of 15, Zha Haisheng took the college entrance examination and was admitted to the law department of Peking University with the first place in the liberal arts department in Anqing.

Since then, Cha Haisheng has been labeled a child prodigy and a genius.

Years later, looking back on the time when I took the train to Peking University, the time on the campus of Peking University, Haizi said: "At that time, the night was almost like daytime. ”

As the youngest student on the Campus of Peking University at that time, Haizi, who was only 15 years old, was respected by everyone.

At that time, the campus of Peking University was full of romantic colors, and "Today" magazine was popular, almost every dormitory had an order, and Haizi's dormitory also had it, and he naturally saw it.

The poetry of Kitajima, Gu Cheng, and others was at the time when it swept the Peking University campus, and Zha Haisheng was envious of it, so he began to study hard and accumulate his literary knowledge, laying a solid foundation for the time when he later devoted himself to poetry.

In July 1983, Haizi graduated from Peking University, and in the period before leaving the university, Haizi met the department of Chinese of Peking University through a friend, and became acquainted with his classmate Luo Yihe, and then became acquainted with Liu Junxiang, a classmate of the 81st class of the English Department of Peking University. At this point, the "Three Musketeers of Peking University" was assembled.

Liu Jun took the pen name Xichuan, Luo Yihe used his original name, and Cha Haisheng took the pen name Haizi, and the three began to swim in the ocean of poetry. After the porcelain industry, Haizi entered the China University of Political Science and Law.

▲Haizi's former residence

During his work, Haizi had two public relationships, but in the end they did not end well, which made him quite devastated.

In 1987, Haizi specially took his mother Cao Caiju from her hometown to Beijing to live. After his mother came to Beijing, Haizi hoped to make her happy, so he borrowed some money from a friend. However, as a mother, Cao Caiju understands that her son is not good at sociability, and the weakness of Haizi's interpersonal relationship has always been the most worrying thing for Cao Caiju. In fact, Haizi did make her career unsmooth because of her relationships.

During his time at the University of Political Science and Law, Haizi has always been alone, never participating in any group activities, and without human expansion, Haizi's position has always been in the position of "teaching assistant" and has not changed.

Haizi committed suicide on March 26, 1989, at the age of 25, in Shanghai.

Later, in the pocket of Haizi who committed suicide, a suicide note he left for relatives was found, which wrote some words similar to gibberish, "My death has nothing to do with anyone."

As for the cause of Haizi's suicide, his close friend Nishikawa believes that the personality reason is one of the important factors that led to Haizi's suicide.

Haizi's personality is simple, stubborn, unsociable, and sometimes indulged in painful and sad emotions and cannot be separated.

epilogue

Nishikawa believes that the personality reason Haizi chose to choose the biggest reason for suicide. Then Luo Yihe, who died immediately after his friend, had no way of knowing his specific evaluation of Haizi. Haizi's last time can be described as difficult and bumpy, Wang Bo of the Tang Dynasty once wrote in the "Farewell To the Tengwang Pavilion": "The times are uneven, the fate is uncertain" Perhaps it is the envy of heaven that will make Haizi finally choose to end his short life in this world.

Resources:

"Spring, Ten Haizi", "Modern Poet Haizi"