This life is quite long to say, but it is actually quite short to think about. After thinking about it, I saw through people's lives in this life, and I also realized a simple truth: people who live for a hundred years are also dead.
Today we will read a book by Mr. Shi Zhongshan, "Mother, It's Good to Be Alive".
The story takes place in the 1960s, when hunger and cold erode the town together. Master Wen walked around the house with his hands behind his back, and saw his wife and two sons staring at the steaming water in the pot, but there was nothing to eat, and from time to time he heard the cries of the two children, "Hungry, Hungry." Master Wen remembered that in the summer, he could often catch fish in the Xida River outside the city, so he resolutely walked out despite the snow.
Master Wen left but never returned, until the next day bad news came, Master Wen died, in order to catch fish for his wife and children, he fell into the ice cave, until the next day was not salvaged by the downstream people.
Master Wen had already frozen into a popsicle, but the strange thing was that the fish held tightly in Master Wen's hand flashed suddenly. The son Dalin and the daughter Daxiu looked at their father lying in the snow, first at first, until they finished drinking their mother's Shuzhen fish soup, only to realize that their father had left them far away.
Not long after, a butcher named Yang Mazi walked into the family.
Yang Mazi was a butcher in the local slaughterhouse, and the pigs left over from the pigs that were killed on weekdays were left in the water to take home, so at that time, Yang Mazi was undoubtedly relatively rich, at least able to eat enough.
When Yang Mazi saw that Master Wen was dead, he often took bones and pigs into the water for Shuzhen's mother and son, and when they came and went, they "fell in love" and got married.
"Falling in love" was a luxury at the time, and it was a popular saying at the time that a single stick man could marry a skinny yellow flower girl with two white masks.
Whenever Shuzhen made love to Yang Mazi, when the pleasure was coming, her eyes always flashed the fish that Master Wen was holding in her hand, and at this time she seemed to hear Master Wen saying: Eat fish, boil fish soup for the children to drink. The orgasm immediately left her, how hard Master Ren Yang tried, her body always cooled down little by little.
Soon, she gave birth to Kobayashi and Xiaoxiu, and in order to balance the relationship between the family, she decided not to give birth.
But the change of things finally came again, Master Yang was very strong at first, he could do it with Shuzhen two or three times a night, and the next day he could put a whole pig on the board, and later because Old Yang was too greedy for her and lost his body, resulting in a day worse than a day.
"The animals have come, and they have come to settle accounts with me." In this way, Master Yang also died.
The burden of life was on the shoulders of her mother, Shuzhen, who lived by picking up rags, and at that time, the scraps had to be divided into areas, otherwise the recycling station would not collect them.
In order to avoid the children, the mother always goes out after the children go to school, and comes back immediately after school to make meals for the children.
However, it will always be known, and that day, Obayashi watched his mother creeping up to pick up the garbage, and at first he couldn't believe it, until he came to the front, grabbed his mother's back basket and ran to the recycle station crying.
At this moment, the mother did not grow up until her own Dalin grew up.
At night, Obayashi cried and said to his mother, "Mom, I don't want to go to the countryside, I want to work and support this family."
My mother didn't sleep all night, and when she thought about it, she could only find the old leader Su Factory Director when my father worked in the factory before. In order to find a job for Obayashi, the mother did not hesitate to exchange her body for it.
O Mother!
Obayashi went to work in the factory as he wished, and he also fell in love with the girl in the factory and got married.
However, the good times did not last long, the factory where Dalin was located closed, the husband and wife were laid off, in order to fill their stomachs, Dalin went to a very dangerous place, went to steal and sell the things in the factory, and was arrested and sentenced to three years in prison.
Bad things came one after another, first Obayashi's wife returned to her mother's house with her son, and then she made a fuss about divorce.
Shuzhen said, "Your mother is divorcing your father, who are you going to talk to?"
The grandson craned his neck and said, "With whom?" Of course with my mom. ”
Shuzhen said, "Your father was only sentenced to three years, and when you graduated from high school, he would come out." ”
Sun Tzu said with a red face: "Don't talk about him, I don't have such a father, he made me can't be a man." ”
Shuzhen said again, "Why doesn't he let you be a human being?" ”
The grandson stopped talking, tears in his eyes.
Shuzhen also said: "Your father's sentence is not for the sake of living." ”
Sun Tzu suddenly stood up and said coldly, "In the future, I will not be surnamed Wen, I don't have this father, I don't have you relatives." "Say it and whisk your sleeves away."
The eldest daughter Daxiu is also a bitter person, graduating from high school and being sent to the countryside to Ullapu in Inner Mongolia, which is the first time that Daxiu is away from home, and Shuzhen naturally cares about her stomach.
Within a month, Daxiu wrote a letter to his family, saying that Ulapu was only a few dozen kilometers from the outer Mongolian border, and the situation there was very tense, and in the middle of the night, it was often seen that signal flares would inexplicably rise in the depths of the grassland. These young intellectuals, called the Construction Corps, hold a hoe in one hand and a gun in the other, and are always ready. At that time, Sino-Soviet relations were very tense, and the place in Ulapu was so close to the border, and the war situation was on the verge of breaking out again.
Since then, her mother has begun to pay attention to the major affairs of the country, and she has not hesitated to spend money to buy a radio, and every time she picks up a newspaper, she carefully collects it and waits for her little daughter to read her at night.
Whenever there is a New Year's festival, the mother will always keep the position for Daxiu, crying and eating...
A few years later, the people who went to the countryside began to go around to return home, and the mother also inquired about the news in the street, but there was no news, seeing that the classmates were gone, and Daxiu's bitter tears were swirling.
Daxiu knows that her mother, who has to pick up the garbage on her own, cannot be counted on, and can only think of her own way. So she decided to take root in Inner Mongolia and married the son of a herdsman, and the local government personally arranged the wedding for them.
The uneasy mother first did a train for dozens of hours and then took a car for more than ten hours to the grassland where Daxiu stayed, and when she saw her eldest daughter who was living in a panic, her mother cried after she returned.
She had to work harder to pick up the garbage and send the money to Daxiu.
After a few years, Daxiu returned and never left again. There was a clothing stall on their street, and they went out before dawn, and didn't come back until late at night, and the winter meal became ice ballast, and the mother always wiped her tears in the dark.
It wasn't until later that I learned that Daxiu was divorced, but she didn't want her mother to worry about her.
But the good times were not long, just when Daxiu was running forward with enthusiasm to live, there was a problem with the body and nephritis, unless it was a kidney replacement. The mother was stunned by this news, she never thought that the good show would end up in such a fate, just a few days after a good day, God would not let people live.
She thought of the suffering that Daxiu had suffered over the years, felt sorry for Daxiu, and did not hesitate to kneel in front of the doctor and ask for her kidney to return to Daxiu, and Daxiu's pleading and tears could not stop her mother's determination. Mother Chong Daxiu said: "Girl, you don't have to say anything, for so many years, your mother can't stand you, just let your mother do something for you." ”
After a meeting and discussion, the hospital agreed to the mother's request.
On the day of the kidney replacement, the eldest son outside the operating room, Obayashi, trembled and signed the list, fortunately, the operation was relatively smooth.
Daxiu saw his mother, his mother saw Daxiu, they almost simultaneously extended their hands to each other, held each other at the same time, looked at each other, and the mother trembled and cried out: "Girl."
Daxiu shouted, "Mom."
Their ordinary name tells the true feelings of all people.
The youngest daughter Xiaoxiu is relatively lucky, although she is not good at studying, but inherited the beauty of her mother, there are many suitors in school, and finally she chose the daughter of the secretary of the municipal party committee, unlike the big brother and sister, she is smiling and going to the countryside, she and her boyfriend are not so much going to the countryside as they are going to travel, under the mediation of his father, it did not take long to come back.
A car picked up Xiaoxiu from the alley, and they got married.
Xiao Xiu's husband works in a unit, and it did not take long to become the section chief, Xiao Xiu's life is not to mention more moist, and occasionally the New Year's Festival will bring some gifts to her mother.
Later, his husband became the general manager of a state-owned enterprise, often not home, he always said that he was busy at work and had socializing, but in fact, he had a small third outside. The most hateful and most fortunate thing is that when Xiaoxiu questioned her husband for this, her husband not only did not admit his mistake, but also said with a straight face: "A man will be with a woman all his life, how boring, I have not divorced you, you have eaten and drunk." Xiao Xiu could only endure in silence.
The college entrance examination resumed, the mother in order to let the youngest son Kobayashi have nutrition to study, at the expense of selling blood for him to study, Kobayashi finally failed to be admitted, read the teacher training secondary school, after graduation in a school to teach, and married the teacher of the same school.
Because there is no house, the two have to live in the mother's place, whenever the family is delicious, they always eat at home, and when the family food is not good, the two will run outside to eat, and even said, the mother will take life, can not digest the delicious ...
When her mother went to visit Dalin in prison, she couldn't stand up and was paralyzed.
At the beginning, the children attached great importance to their mothers, and the mothers worked hard in their lives to pull the four children, they were sentient and righteous children, who bought nutritional products and came to see their mothers from time to time. The mother did not see good, nor did she see bad, and she dragged on again and again. Children have their own business, and besides, seeing that the mother is like this, for a while and a half there will be no major events, and they will be busy with whatever they should be busy with.
The Kobayashis took care of them for a while, so they gathered everyone to find a way, and the result of the discussion was either to take turns or find a nanny. They chose the latter.
After thinking about it, the mother saw through people's lives and realized a simple truth: when people live for a hundred years, they also die. After her mother thought it through, she made up her mind.
She took sleeping pills.
The three children lay on their mother's side of the bed, more remorseful.
The strong mother came back to life again, facing the three children at the bedside, and she recalled the past.
The mother reached out and took the hands of the three children in her own hands, and she smiled and said: It is good to be alive to see you.