I personally think that first of all, the heroine experienced a difficult journey, and then she took charge of the whole family, so she suddenly grew up. And Alyssa has always thought of her, insomnia before seeing her, not dressed well, bad mental state, etc., resulting in his poor image, so the heroine instantly does not love. And they have never really lived together, the relationship is naturally unstable, and many years later the heroine also said that he was like a shadow. Very realistically written. If Alyssa had been entangled, they would have been together long ago.
Secondly, it is a problem of Alyssa's personal condition, although it is not the cliché of "not enough money", but the personal downfall and the torture of love make him look completely temperamental, and then there is the personable Doctor Urbino who compares and judges. Of course, this is only one of the reasons, and there is another reason that I think is that in the year of separation, love and the image of the lover Alyssa are constantly raised in Fermina's heart, of course, it cannot be said that their previous love was not love, it was Fermina's fantasy, but in this year Fermina's fantasy of love and lover has been far higher than what they really are.
However, the lover she met in the middle of the city did not even play out her usual normal level, and the strong contrast between this high and low, coupled with the strong pursuit of Dr. Urbino, made Fermina suddenly discover that Florentino was not the lover she wanted.
So, I'm more inclined to have junior Fermina not really loving Alyssa. This thing sounds like a joke, making friends in the letter, determining the relationship in the letter, proposing in the letter, planning the wedding in the letter... They have almost no contact except for letter exchanges, and now it is "online dating". Fermina knew very little about Alyssa, really very little, all she knew was that Alyssa was a fanatical suitor, and she thought she had fallen in love with him, but in fact she only loved the person who wrote the letter in her mind.
People who have experienced online dating should know that when they fall in love with each other across the network line, they will always involuntarily idealize each other. Therefore, Fermina does not love him at all, but mistakenly recognizes the amorous knight in the fantasy as Alyssa, and substitutes herself as the tower princess in the illusion. When she returned from a trip and saw the world, her father handed over the keys to the family in her hands, which was equivalent to her really grasping the "authority" in reality, she stepped into the real world, and the illusion began to shatter. Alyssa went from being the romantic and amorous knight under the moon to the ruthless devil, the type she wouldn't associate with at all. Fermina's hidden forbidden love has become a small fight of an ignorant girl.
Then there's my favorite passage, where Alyssa learns that Fermina is coming back, stays up all night, runs to the beach to recite poems to the wind, and when she meets her at the market, her voice trembles, "This is not where the corolla goddess should come." "And Fermina was obviously startled, unable to believe that she had ever fallen in love with such a cold and ruthless devil, and in shock and disappointment she lost the last trace of patience to go on." No, please don't do that... Forget it. She waved and erased him from life.
All in all, it is not a kind of love, the heroine just falls in love with the love that brings her changes and makes his life fun. And not the one who brought her this change. Although the heroine agreed to marry, after being taken by her father on a difficult journey, her father gave her the keys to her home, and she was bent on marrying Alyssa. Even a second before she rejected Alyssa, she thought about the future of the two of them, only to see the poor Alyssa behind her for a moment.