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Every loss is for the sake of better owning | Cheng yi
As for? This was the sentence I heard the most during the time when Xiao Qiu and Xiao Qiu broke up.
Xiao Qiu and I were high school classmates, and we ran to a beautiful and fiery early love together.
Together, we survived the stressful college entrance examination.
Together, we spent four years in a different place.
Finally arrived at the same city to work.
But when everyone was ready for the red envelope and planning to attend our wedding, I proposed to break up.
We've met each other's parents long ago.
My parents are also reasonable people, and they did not ask for too high a bride price like Xiao Qiu.
Our work is busy and stable.
When the feelings come to an end, there is no third party destruction, and there is no gossip from the people around them.
It's just natural to say goodbye, as if it had been predestined a long time ago.
Xiao Qiu said that he never thought we would break up one day.
I looked into his eyes, and once I could read infinite light and energy from those eyes.
But now there was only deep exhaustion.
I said, you know, you've thought about it, and you don't object to it, don't you.
We choose silence for each other, and then we return to each other's sea of people.
The trigger for the breakup was a negligible vignette.
One day XiaoQiu had to work overtime temporarily after work.
As a result, I made a table of dishes that were hot and cold, cold and hot.
By the time he returned home quietly in the middle of the night, I was already lying weakly on the table and asleep.
It's such a small thing that can't even be done.
But when I woke up the next day, I said something as resolute as "Let's break up."
Xiao Qiu did not suspect that I had been planning for a long time, he just accepted it calmly.
It wasn't until that moment that I realized that it wasn't just me, he was also suffering from this emotional journey.
It turned out that not only me, but also his body did not have the strength of seventeen years old.
The last sentence he said I love you, the last sentence we will always be together, the last sentence is really happy with you.
It seems like yesterday, and it seems like a long time ago.
I was surprised to find that we had lost each other a long time ago.
When did you lose it?
Was it when I first noticed an ambiguous text message on his phone?
Is it when I leave work in the rain and he doesn't reply to my messages?
Was it when his family was sick and I was going to join the company team building and he threw a tantrum at me?
Or was it when he proposed to me and I hesitated?
At those times,
Love is like a pair of almighty hands, which freeze all the unpleasantness yesterday.
I never saw ambiguous text messages again.
He would drive me to and from work, and I would nod my head and say yes on my second proposal.
But the mighty hand will always disappear one day.
Hidden under all unpleasantness is doubt, jealousy, complaining, hesitation.
One day it will crawl all over our tired bodies.
It ended up being the last straw that crushed the camel.
Maybe the breakups that were said on all previous occasions were more appropriate than they are now.
But in the end, we all chose to accept it calmly.
For us, we didn't lose to a third party, companionship, family or love.
We just walked and walked, really tired, and then we forgot.
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