Ten years ago, like many netizens, I felt that An Lingrong was a completely bad person. She used Shu trace glue to harm Zhen Huan's slippery tire, instigated the palace maid to report the messenger Mei Zhuang to die in childbirth, and Wen Shichu also took herself to the palace because of her rumors.
But now watching this drama, while I am lamenting for her, I have a little more understanding.
An Lingrong was born in a small county town, his appearance is very general, he has not read a few books, and he does not know a few big characters. Her family is neither a gentry clan nor an official eunuch.
His father was a spice merchant and his mother was an embroiderer. Even her father's official position in the county was donated by her mother's money from selling embroidery. However, she still relied on her own efforts to promote all the way from the last-rate promise to the concubine.
This is equivalent to taking a PHS and hitting the king from bronze. I don't mean to whitewash her, I can't agree with her behavior of killing Meizhuang, poisoning Zhen Huan, and beating up the dragon fetus of Fucha Guiren.
Most people lamented that she had lost her original intention and slid into the abyss, but from another point of view, An Lingrong did not have the blessing of the aura of the great heroine, and she struggled and mediated all the way in the harem with the spirit of not admitting her fate and not accepting defeat.
I am writing this article not to whitewash her, but I have seen too much from her, and I am deeply touched by the figure of the unwilling people struggling at the bottom.
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Denial of fate
An Lingrong's mother was the main chamber, but who knew that after her father became an official, he began to dislike his mother, and even married many aunts. Not only did she not enjoy the attention brought by her identity, but she was bullied with her mother.
Despite this, she did not succumb to reality, but wanted to seize the opportunity to change the fate of herself and her mother.
Even if she knew that her qualifications were mediocre and the probability of being selected into the palace was slim, she still plucked up the courage to fight for it.
As a result, at the time of the palace election, Xia Dongchun, who was born in the noble house of Gaomen, ridiculed her from a poor and remote village, from a small family, and wanted to enter the palace was simply delusional.
In the face of humiliation, although An Lingrong was inferior to his family lineage and origin, he still retained his arrogant spirit.
It wasn't until after entering the palace that An Lingrong discovered that summer, winter, and spring were actually nothing. The real white and rich beauty of Mei Zhuang and Zhen Huan is the insurmountable mountain that lies in front of her.
Fate arranged for her to stand in front of the two of them, just like engraving "wishful thinking" on her face, which was not bad, and the differential treatment of Concubine Hua and the empress was a deep blow to her self-esteem.
The Empress and Concubine Hua gave Zhen Huan and Mei Zhuang many rewards, in order to show favor and take advantage of the opportunity to win over, and the eunuch palace women who went to the palace of the two people to deliver things wave after wave, while An Lingrong was there.
There is a detail in the play, Xia Dongchun passed by her residence and laughed loudly: Just take such a little reward, look at it is really shabby, you are from a lowly background, don't blame others and don't want to see you.
The fact is indeed heartfelt, entering the palace for half a year, others have already served and accepted grace, and they have soared, and An Lingrong has not even seen the emperor. Later, not only did the concubines who lived with her sneer and bully her in every way, but even the palace maid dared to give her a look.
Fate assigned a small transparent, soy sauce-playing role to An Lingrong, but An Lingrong preferred to be the protagonist.
Although An Lingrong is attached to Zhen Huan, she does not want to live forever in Zhen Huan's protection, but wants to have a place through her own efforts, and no longer be a transparent person.
There is a detail in the play, An Lingrong once said to Baojuan that she hopes that one day, she herself can become a person valued by the emperor.
Therefore, when Zhen Huan lost her son and was estranged from the emperor, and Concubine Hua was also snubbed by the emperor, she seized the opportunity to practice singing hard, got the favor of the emperor, and was promoted to changzai.
An Lingrong desperately bloomed his behavior, as described in Yuan Ming's poem: The day is not everywhere, and youth comes from just now. Moss flowers are as small as rice, and also learn to bloom peonies.
In reality, fate may arrange for us to be born ordinary, look ordinary, and be the background board of others, but we still try to learn, improve our temperament, and strive to tear off the tights of fate and walk in front of people.
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No internal friction
Although An Lingrong's heart was higher than the sky, fate pressed her to the ground and rubbed her, and she could not wait for the opportunity to sleep, but because of nervousness, she was sent out of the Yangxin Hall unchanged.
This matter was ridiculed and ridiculed by the concubines of the palace, and even discussed and muttered by the eunuch palace, which on the surface seemed particularly faceless, but in the worst case, her harem road had ended before it began.
In the face of this kind of blow and psychological torture, the average person has long been discouraged, and even depressed in serious cases!
However, An Lingrong regained the emperor's pick with a graceful singing voice and was promoted to a nobleman.
If nothing else, because she did not wither, did not sink into the mental friction of denying herself because of the ridicule and ridicule of others, but practiced singing hard while other concubines listened to music and played.
Just like in reality, although some people are denied to hell by leaders and everyone else, they still do not fall into self-doubt and passive decadence because of the ridicule and discussion of others, but work hard to learn and improve their own level.
However, a few days later, Zhen Huan won the C position in the emperor's heart again because she had a "big change butterfly" in Yimei Garden, and An Lingrong was snubbed again.
How to describe this feeling, it is like you staying up late, working overtime, preparing a project for several months, and wanting to show off in front of your boss.
But suddenly a colleague came out, holding the plan of watching the drama the day before and rushing out, and easily PK you off.
An Lingrong not only once again became a joke of others, but also lost the good sister Zhen Huan, if the psychological endurance is a little worse, this time may directly pick the pick and not do it.
But An Lingrong was still able to adjust his mood, be respectful and humble to Zhen Huan, and patiently wait for the opportunity to turn over.
When our leader commented on An Lingrong, he said: This child is too tough and too shouldered. Successive blows could not weaken her will.
An Lingrong is not the protagonist, she has neither the emperor's favorite, nor the family to support herself, her father is also a demon, a criminal, she alone in the harem like a thin ice, from time to time to bear the disaster of innocence.
An Lingrong is actually very frustrated, but she does not have internal friction, but focuses on improving herself and actively breaking the predicament.
Because we do not consume internally, we have more time to analyze the situation, have more sober cognitive thinking countermeasures, and have more energy to focus on improving ourselves.
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There is no limit
Finally, after Zhen Huan left the palace, An Lingrong also achieved exclusive favor because he did not consume internally and focused on improving himself.
However, Zhen Huan's glorious return to the palace was destined not to let her go, at the same time, "Angela" took sides and seriously infighting, and An Lingrong's voice was also poisoned and muted by Qi Concubine.
This was the deadliest blow, because the thing she could handle best was the singing voice, and now it's like a dancer has no legs and a talk show actor has no mouth.
Ordinary people who experience this kind of thing may be devastated and looking for death, but An Lingrong did not, although she quit the music scene, but twisted her face into the ice altar.
This skill, An LingRong has not been unlocked in the early stage, but it does not matter, you can learn!
However, the difficulty coefficient of this skill is extremely high, and even Zhen Huan said after learning about it: She is seeking her own death, and if Bing Fei does not have the foundation of the Child Skill, it will not be successful.
But even if An Lingrong didn't have Tong Zi Gong, she didn't conclude that she couldn't do it, but constantly expanded the boundaries of her ability.
In order to perform as soon as possible, An Lingrong practiced day and night, and even dieted to lose weight.
It is precisely because she does not set limits for herself, and finally won the favor again with ice play. Not only did he not fall into a desperate situation because of the poisonous mute of his throat, but he earned a place for himself.
When An Lingrong came off the line, a barrage made me burst into tears: in the harem, she was really trying to live.
It is true that the people who entered the palace with her can dump her ten streets in the family lineage. Others can spell daddy in the harem, but she has to fight for daddy.
Whether it is Zhen Huan, Concubine Hua or Empress, they compete for favors in the hope of getting the favor of the emperor, but only the purpose of An Lingrong's competition for favor is only for herself and her family to be able to get a little better.
And her family lineage also determines that the gap between her talent and insight and others, and her efforts to compete for favors are unimaginable to others.
Because whether it is embroidery, incense making, singing, ice play, An Lingrong is one of the best in the Forbidden City.
She has done a lot of bad things, hurt a lot of people, and is certainly not a good person, but looking back on her life, it is difficult to summarize it by two words: good or bad.
More often, she is actually the epitome of the general public, thinking that if she gets an admission ticket, she can change her life against the sky, but then she finds that she has not yet reached the starting point of others.
When we went to school, there were famous teachers at the same table who taught one-on-one tutors, and we only had one textbook; after work, our colleagues had cars and houses, and we also lived in rental houses in the suburbs.
Others took their parents abroad for vacation every three to five minutes, and we stayed up late to work overtime to change the plan, desperately rating to catch up with performance. Just to buy a new dress for your parents, take your parents to a mid-range restaurant.
After working hard for many years, still unable to take root in the city, a small red book will have to empty the savings of his parents' life.
Face people around us whose family conditions are much better than ours, and face people who can dump us ten streets without hard work. Our efforts seem to have no meaning. Even after failure, we have collapsed, doubted, denied, and decadent.
I am also a child from the countryside, and I have also been submerged under the aura of others, and I have also had the inferiority of An Lingrong, and even denied myself for a while, and I lived in the gray and dark every day.
During that time, I shut myself in my room and watched "The Biography of Zhen Huan" every day. The person who fantasizes that he is the heroine will eventually return in glory, but reality has given us An Lingrong's script.
Ordinary family lineage, ordinary appearance, even ordinary work and life. You may be inferior, but don't be attrition; you may be weak, but don't be vulnerable, you may back down, but don't set limits for yourself.
Tomorrow, you and I will still embark on a journey to face various setbacks on the road of life. If you really can't stand it, go and see An Lingrong.
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Author: Zi Tong, a student of Tang Xiaoxiao's writing class, 985 master's degree, a little fairy who is good at eloquence routines and insight into the workplace!