A confession from a 40-year-old man: Falling in love with a woman I shouldn't love made my wife break up

3 years ago, I was 37 years old, this year, there was a "wild flower" outside the hair, he described to me that feeling is really wonderful, accustomed to seeing a face, occasionally trying it, it is really good, and also suggested that I try it. I asked him, how to try? He said that if you have a tall man and a good look, you will not dress up after marriage, and you will be blessed, if... Haha, surely the school flowers of that year will be pasted upside down on you.

Speaking of school flowers, my brain flashed with the face of Yu Qing, and it was as if it could be plucked out of the water. I went back in time and pulled my memories back to 15 years ago, when I was 22 years old, my junior year, and we met at a school dance, and then I fell in love with her like a demon, pursuing her, but she never took a stand. Later, my daughter-in-law kept pestering me, holding the idea of angering her, and my daughter-in-law and I pretended to come together, but later, all kinds of yin and yang mistakes actually came true. After getting married, although the life is very happy, the children are complete, but I still occasionally think of The Sun, a little unwilling, more is the position of the chest cavity, making me feel uneasy all night.

Fa Xiao told me that Yan Qing married the president of the student union at that time, and only found out that the other party was an alcoholic after getting married, and after a drunken drink, she beat someone up and was sentenced, and she naturally divorced. Now she is alone with her 6-year-old son, and the orphans and widows are quite pitiful. I said, is there any contact information for her? Send a novel, I only have her WeChat, you add the next try.

To get The WeChat signal of TheRava, I did not add it at the first time, but after a day and a night of internal struggle, I carefully opened WeChat, entered her number, clicked to find, and then popped out of the avatar of Qingqing, confirming that it was indeed her. I have to say that after becoming a mother, she is more beautiful and charming. If the student days were a plump green orange, now it is a seductive kiwi fruit that makes people want to eat it across the screen. I looked at her picture, my heart pounding, almost jumping out of my throat, trembling as I sent the application through. Every second of the next second, the heart rhythm has not been stable, even the dreams are intermittent, several times to wake up, you have to open the phone to take a look.

Finally, at five o'clock in the morning, She passed my friend, and she said to me, Hey, I haven't seen her for a long time, I played with my son all day last night, I was too tired, I went to bed early. I looked at it, and then I looked at it, how to reply, held my breath for half a day, and only typed two words: Hello; after 1 minute of "Hello" was sent, I said, another day, come out for coffee, okay? She replied very quickly, okay, old classmate? I miss it, don't forget to call someone else. I said, good!

For two months after this chat, we didn't say a word, but I changed, I started to work out, tried to lose my little belly in 60 days, and even cut a handsome hairstyle, and put on my daughter-in-law's mask, my skin was too dry, always dead skin... My daughter-in-law asked me, what's wrong? You, no fever! I said, I'm so good, I just think I'm less than 40 years old, still young. The daughter-in-law said, this is the right ah... She also accompanied me to the gym and found a fitness instructor. Watching her work for me like this, I was really sorry for her, because I was only doing this for the date that was far away from Yu Qing.

In the blink of an eye, it was two months, my small belly went down a little bit, the muscles were more, the white shirt I used to wear had a taste of wanting to burst, my daughter-in-law touched my abdomen that gradually showed mountain dew, a face of envy, but I was not happy at all, did I forget? I'm going to invite her for coffee. Just when I was depressed about this, Yu Qing said to me, I have traveled to your city, do you do the East, right? I was overjoyed, immediately said yes, and then began all kinds of preparations, I contacted a few good buddies, and good relationship female classmates, the reason why I invited them, is also the meaning of Yan Qing, afraid that the two of us alone will be misunderstood by others.

This day, finally came, the daughter-in-law asked me, is she going? I said, no one else has a family, you still stay at home, just a few confidants, reminisce about the past. My daughter-in-law was reluctant, but she still chose a suit and tie for me for the night. When I appeared in the eyes of my classmates in full dress, I could feel the surprise in their eyes, especially Yan Qing, her eyes were all small stars, I was very sure, she was moved. Because I found that when I looked at her, the flush on her face flashed.

The classmates were very interesting, and they all left one by one, and when there was only me and Yu Qing left in the private room, with the strength of the wine, I hugged her and told her about my longing for her for so many years. Yu Qing was also drunk, and did not push my hands up and down, but also smiled and said, Have you ever loved me? I said, I can swear to Heaven that I love you as much as I did back then. Yu Qing said, you lied to me, you know what? I wanted to wait for my birthday, and I promised you when you begged me to be your girlfriend, but I didn't expect you to give up early... I said, let me think about it, that night I saw you and our student council president on the playground of the school, I thought I had failed, so I went to drink alcohol, and finally my wife threw me in. Yu Qing said, you are mistaken, he confessed to me, I was rejecting him, and then I saw that you and her (my wife) were okay, I gambled and agreed to his courtship... After knowing these stories, I didn't hold back my tears, or grunted and fell one by one.

This night, we rolled the sheets, and I had fantasized about her body for many years, which still made me have a kind of freshness and excitement that I had not seen for a long time, and we cried with headaches while resisting death, and this tear was mostly sacrificing my dead love. After dawn, I got dressed and got up, and Qingqing hugged me, begging you, we don't see each other again, I'm afraid I can't help falling in love with you. I turned and lifted her chin, then don't control ah, I'm divorced, I don't want anything, I just want you. Wu Qing said, don't ah, you do this, I will be very guilty, I don't want to destroy your family, she is so good, how can you be willing to make her sad, to live up to it? I said, then I can watch you sad and cry? At this point, we were both silent. When I got home, my daughter-in-law didn't ask much, because I let Fa Xiao make a cover for me in advance, and I slept in his house last night.

Ever since I had this level of relationship with Yu Qing, I began to become six gods and no master, I ran crazy, sweated, and I even wished that if I died, how good it would be... But everything was in vain, the most terrifying time, when I was intimate with my daughter-in-law, my mind was full of yuqing, and my wandering mind made my daughter-in-law have a little hindsight, but it was dispelled by my kindness and comfort. I secretly met with Yan Qing, I bought her a lot of things that could not satisfy her when she was in financial difficulty, just the 399 yuan lipstick, I did not hesitate to brush the order, send her a small surprise.

I thought it would be good, I could cope with it, I could enjoy the blessings of the people. But Yu Qing told me that she was pregnant and went to the hospital to check on her son. Yu Qing said, our son must inherit a little bit of your and my appearance in the future, he must be super handsome, and he inherits the IQ of both of us, and he can also study at Tsinghua University, so do you want to give up on him? I scratch my head in pain, what should I do... Yu Qing grabbed my hysterical hands and begged you, this child he came not at the right time, let me do him! Hearing this, I turned around and told him with hatred, I don't, I don't promise, I want you to be healthy and healthy to give birth to him, and I want to watch him become a talent. Yu Qing threw me away and ran out... I caught up with her in the back and wrapped my arms in my arms, honey, I want you, I choose you, I want you.

After this incident, my wife and I confessed, and my wife just cried, but she was a strong woman, I believe. Sure enough, after a short period of depression, she began to negotiate with me in a new way, mainly the ownership of the children in the garage, because I was cheating first, so I chose to get out of the house, and my son and daughter belonged to her. But what I never expected was that my wife would be so cruel, my net out of the house still could not relieve the hatred, he wrote a report, sued my unit, I was suspended from the case for investigation...

I got along with Yu Qing as I wished, but I had nothing, I started looking for a job in the talent market, and asked me a lot about what my specialty was... Specialty? It seems that I don't know anything, these years in the unit I in addition to knocking, making decisions, the rest is really no different from the waste, so I can only do the most basic work of the company, the monthly salary is pitiful. Fortunately, though, I have a little private money and can barely make ends meet! After the birth of my son, because Ofahaha insisted on giving birth smoothly, resulting in heavy bleeding, in order to save her, I even went out of the old book and borrowed a lot of foreign debt.

Although raising children is hard, being a father again fills my heart with joy and motivation. Just when I was ready to live a good life, Yu Qing gave me a sunny thunderbolt again, because she chose to run away from home late at night, leaving a short sentence, both of us are difficult to survive, plus my son, I don't want you to work so hard, I am gone... Forget me!

At this point, my world is completely destroyed, I don't have a wife and a clear wife, I am now going to find my son and daughter, I want to remarry my ex-wife, but my son threw me out, my daughter cursed me with vicious words how not to die... I am now a street rat everyone shouting and beating, but I know that this is all my own doing, and I deserve it, but what about me and Yu Qing's son? What a mistake he made, now I am a father and a mother, it is better to live than to die...

If there is an afterlife, I will definitely live a good life and never want to meet Yu Qing again, which is both my regret and my repentance.