Yesterday we talked about the "decade" that has been suffering.
So today, let's talk about what kind of experience it is to be accompanied by depression for a long time.
Every friend who suffers from long-term depression actually experiences a different emotional intensity.
Some people's emotions are very intense, and inexplicably begin a short period of depression.
Some people have a very mild mood and will continue to be depressed for a long time.
The mood swings are relatively large, such as my own.
Sometimes depressed, sometimes high-spirited, and these are two very extreme emotions.
When you are in a good state, there is no feeling of depression at all, and everything is fine because of your treatment and work efficiency!
When you are in a bad state, you will feel a strong sense of nothingness, no goal, lying flat and not wanting to move, and not being able to raise any interest.
And it is an infinite transformation, even I don't know when I will "change my face" in an instant.
Mood swings are milder, as in the case of me in the early days.
Life is like a struggle for me. Everything in front of you is like a mirror, a moon, a dream bubble.
Whether it's family affection, friendship with friends, or even love! All this will feel very unreal in your own mind.
You can communicate with anyone very soberly, but there will always be depression, inferiority and evasion in your heart, and you will never take the initiative.
There was even a time when, in order not to live up to the expectations of others, I painfully cut off various emotional ties.
Later, I also realized that I was in a period of depression, in order not to cause trouble for others.
In order not to let the people around you worry too much about themselves, pretend to be smiling and pretend that they are already fine.
In fact, I was very tired and tired, and I literally became an "actor".
"Actors" who live within the lie of "normal"!
Of course, I used to be one of the "actors", although I am still not cured.
But what I want to say is to throw away the heavy mask, open your heart to accept yourself, and let go of the baggage to be your true self.
You will discover the sky in this world that is your own!