"Dear You" series: 6 Some love is so deep that it is difficult to find

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Dear You,

Zhan Xin'an.

I was going to write this letter on your way home to pick me up. Unfortunately, the incident was sudden, and the temporary notice disrupted all of our plans. So the letter was dragged to the present.

I always feel that from childhood to adulthood, you have very little love for me. For example, every time I go to the hospital when I am sick, you accompany me a few times, and sometimes I even need my mother to take a taxi to take me to the hospital. For example, you never care about my studies, but you have to say here and there to my grades every time.

Later I learned that some love was so deep that it was difficult to find. As the pillar of the family, how can you be all-encompassing? You didn't bring those troubles home, and I really thought you had nothing to do. You'll also remember coming home from a busy day and apologizing to me with a super big balloon.

I will never forget the fever I had in my freshman year of high school, and you took me to the hospital for injections and took out all the medicine for a few days in order to facilitate it. When I went to get an injection the next day, my sister nurse said that the medicine was too cold to be given, and you didn't hesitate to put the medicine into your clothes. That's when I realized that you're just not very expressive.

In order not to let me transfer schools, you quietly buy a house, watching you bored every night but nowhere to play, I suddenly found that in order to let me have a good learning environment, you did more than buy a house, you were far away from the place where you lived for nearly forty years, to a place where there were no acquaintances and no friends.

You are always silently supporting my studies. You once said that you don't know how to study, you don't tutor, you just look at the results on the report card, you just say study well.

I'm a little tired of hearing that. But why are you telling me differently than what my mother said? You tell your mother, don't let her push me so hard. You always love to be a bad person in front of me.

After college, maybe because every chat ended unhappily. So we didn't take the initiative to play videos to each other. Every time you video with your mother, you look at your phone, as if you want to say a lot, and finally you only say a good meal and take care of yourself. Listen to my mother, you sometimes ask my mother if I have a phone call.

I work part-time during the holidays, and you support me but you also secretly regret why you agreed. You don't know, what you said to your mother, my mother told me. If you say that you have been wronged, you must say that I will pick you up even later.

Let's talk about something recent. When I received the notice, it was morning, and I booked my own tickets and did not tell you. It wasn't until the afternoon that I told my mother that I was going to take the high-speed train back. Your reaction actually surprised me. You told my mother that I would refund my ticket and that you would come and pick me up. In the end, because the time has dragged on for too long, you can only helplessly say "then you can come back in the car yourself.". You are so worried about me, but I also feel sorry for you.

I thought that was the end, half an hour after I got in the car, you called me a video, and after the video, you let me turn on the location sharing, I sat in the car for three hours, you stared for three hours.

Little things, think I don't remember? I remember it all.

I most likely followed you, so I only dare to say these words where I know you can't see them.

There is no end to the topic of fatherly love, so let's start today. Love you forever.