She and I were classmates, and I fell in love at first sight as soon as college started.
There are very few girls in science and engineering, she is the one with the highest appearance, and it is logical to serve as the host of various literary and art evenings in the college, and there are many people who chase her.
We were each other's only fellow countrymen in the class, and we took the train together during the summer vacation, and I chased her when I came and went.
She is the type that looks high and cold, in fact cute, and her personality is actually very inferior, and the deeper our relationship, the more I feel that she is a person who cannot be changed.
She was not close to her mother, grew up with her grandmother when she was a child, did not get any sense of security from the original family, needed to be pampered, and often lost her temper because of some inexplicable small things.
We went out to dinner together and needed to wait for a seat and she got angry and scolded me for not booking a table in advance.
We went to the attractions and were very happy, but it rained and she got angry and blamed me for not bringing an umbrella.
I went to pick her up late, and she would argue with me.
She always seemed to be attributing outwards, blaming me for everything, thinking that these were manifestations that I didn't love her enough.
During our five-year relationship, almost all of her was coaxing me, and you may think that I am very mean, and even more mean is still behind.
After graduation, I gave up the opportunity to protect research for her and returned to my hometown together.
After living together, the quarrels between us became more frequent. She was treated like a princess at home, never cooked and did housework, tacitly accepting that this is what a man should do for his girlfriend.
Before she proposed to break up, we could argue from poetry and songs to life ideals for who to wash the dishes, and finally she scolded me for being selfish and ran away from home, saying that she wanted to break up with me.
It's not the first time she's broken up, I feel like she's a bottomless pit filled with discontent, she doesn't care about my feelings at all, and this time I don't want to coax.
After a month of cold war, we didn't say a word between us, and I could see from the dynamics of her circle of friends that she was showing weakness.
She will send a circle of friends of late-night emo, blame herself for not being good, no one hurts no one loves, delete it immediately the next day, and will also send photos of herself sick and hanging alone to hang water, in order to win my sympathy, but it is useless, I am tired.
Near the end of the year, my parents prepared New Year goods for me, let me go to her house to give New Year gifts, by the way, reconciled, I looked at the bucket of raw pulp inside, remembered the last time we went to buy this brand of raw pulp, at that time it was very happy, memories came to mind.
I calmly told my parents that I had broken up, but I couldn't look directly at the bucket of raw pulp, and for a month, I couldn't put it down.
In the first month, she finally couldn't stop, sent a message to ask me what I was doing, I didn't return for a day, in the evening, she called me, saying that the family had arranged a blind date, more than one, saying that she cried, saying how uncomfortable and wronged she had been this month.
I chuckled in my heart, subconsciously wanted to hold her, realized that I was on the phone, and I didn't say anything.
She told me about the breakup, just to force me to say that I was reunited.
Hanging up the phone without being salty, I dreamed that night that she was dating other men, holding hands, hugging, kissing... I knew I couldn't let go of her, but I didn't want to continue those days of licking the dog, I didn't have so much energy to love someone endlessly, and the thought of getting married, we would quarrel day after day over washing dishes, I lost faith in the relationship.
I want to get rid of this relationship, for her I have been hurt deep enough, why do she move my fingers and I have to fart to serve her?
I also went to the blind date, bubble girls, drink...
A few buddies dragged me out to play, and during the period, they also called a few girls, hoping that I would not hang on a tree.
Half drunk and half awake, I still want to call her, I think these girls, not as good as her.
You ask me will I like my ex-girlfriend again?
All I can say is that instead of re-liking my ex-girlfriend, I never forgot her. I think those who re-like, rather never let go, no matter how much time, this person has always occupied a corner of your heart.
The next day she called me again, I was like a person in the desert seeing water, she said something in bits and pieces I didn't pay attention at all, before hanging up the phone, I couldn't wait to say "and okay".
I wash the dishes, I wash the dishes, whoever called me still misses you.
At that time, I would not have thought that half a year later, it would be me who broke up.
When we are compounded, we say that we will change, and we must become tolerant in the future, but where is the habit of a person from small to large so easy to change?
She also had contact with the guy she was dating, and when I pointed out her problem, she blamed me for interfering with her freedom of dating. She wore bare-waisted clothes and I said I didn't like it, and she said I interfered with her freedom of dress.
When we talked about practical problems, she was also reluctant to make compromises, such as saying that she didn't like children, saying that she wanted to go back to each family after the New Year after marriage, saying that her family members would always be more important than me, saying that she would not put love first, and if she had an appointment with a friend, she would leave me to find a friend... But I put her in the most important position, I know I shouldn't think about this, but every time I hear this, my heart is cold.
I don't know when she apologized to me, I can't tell if she's telling the truth or not, it seems that we don't want to repeat the same mistakes, so we bow to each other and go down the steps, so that we don't dare to poke each other at those previous pain points.
Later, I reflected, thought about it for a long time, and found that our personalities are indeed inappropriate, she likes to escape when she encounters problems, and she slams the door and leaves without a word, and I am grumpy and possessive, I have been in a state of being led by her emotions for a long time, and I also want a sense of security.
A girlfriend who loses her temper and says that she wants to break up, and does not know how to reject other girlfriends of the opposite sex, what I am afraid of is that I love her more than she loves me, and I will pay my own efforts endlessly in my life.
I mind that there are other people of the opposite sex around her, I mind that she is dependent on her own nature in everything, and once there is a disagreement with my opinion, she will throw her face cold and never compromise, I mind that she is lazy and procrastinating, I mind that she does not trim the edges, I admit that my patience is much less than last time.
The Internet says that when a boy doesn't like a girl, he will see that she is not good anywhere.
But why did I look at her whispering and begging for peace when we broke up, and my heart ached?
However, when the boy became rational, it was really desperate, and my heart ached, but she did more to save it and I rejected it, and breaking up was my decision after careful consideration.
I really, very, very much like her, with the whole adolescence in liking her, we grew up with each other, saw each other's unbearable, graduated together, traveled together, stepped into society together, faced the strangeness of the world together, had too many memories, but we couldn't go on, we couldn't get married.
All the breakups in the past were mentioned by her, and she was always arrogant, but the last time I mentioned the breakup, I saw her completely broken for the first time, and she cried downstairs at my house and said that she would change, and I would become what I liked later.
It's late, and we can't go back after all.
She thought of many ways to get back together, apologized many times, she asked me out to come out is always late, after the breakup actually arrived early, completely accommodating my time and ideas, speaking carefully, at that time I was thinking, why didn't you do this earlier? I don't want to like you anymore, do people cherish it after they lose it?
I did licking the dog for a few years, and finally I was saved, laughing at myself and crying and blacking her out.
Later I made a new girlfriend, the girlfriend has a good personality, gentle and considerate, know how to respect my feelings, but I admit that I prefer the ex-girlfriend, no matter how many shortcomings she has, my emotional contribution to her, is real.
In the few years since the breakup, I rarely think of her, only once accidentally flipped out the previous photos, couple photos, remembered the time together, had some waves in my heart, and then tore the photos and threw them in the trash.
Real men, divided, will be divided, will not be guilty of sluts again.
Eating back grass requires courage and psychological preparation, two people can't change anything, and they can't be together no matter how much they like it.
From a man's point of view, you can't forget it, and you can't turn back without looking back. Just like I like to drink Coke, but when I'm older, I can't indulge myself in doing everything according to what I like.
Like things, maybe harmful. For men, like can be cultivated, now I feel that although ice Coke is cool, but the warm boiled water in the morning is more suitable for my stomach, and gradually, I can also taste a touch of sweetness in the warmth.
Last year, I heard my college classmates say that my ex-girlfriend got married, and there was no wave in my heart, and those fierce feelings would eventually be dusted with the passage of time, and I now cherish the present, and I have never regretted liking to pay.
However, even if we are both single now and have each other in our hearts, I will no longer like her, I will only bless her and thank her for accompanying me to grow up and let me become my current self.
Psychological test: Test the sentence your ex most wants to say to you
1. Do you argue over small things when you're together?
Yes, I often feel tired —2
Rarely quarrel over small things—2
Occasionally, but soon reconciled —3
2. Do you think you are a person who likes to self-reflect and is willing to correct mistakes?
Yes —3
Not —4
3. Will he or she take the initiative to tell you his troubles?
It is often said that -5
Not much to say —4
4. Would you tell your parents about the process of your relationship?
Everything is too big or small, and I often complain to my parents -6
Occasionally they ask and say —5
Hardly to say, nothing to say —5
5. Faced with what you want, how much energy are you willing to put into acquiring it?
Everything follows fate, and it is mine in the end--7
Try hard, maybe you can succeed - 6
Do my best, I want to get --B
6. Did you break up because of a third party?
Yes—A
No —7
7. Did the other party take the initiative to contact you after the breakup?
Yes—D
No—C