Marriage is an illusion

The day before they got married, they stumbled upon chats between him and his former brother.

"I've never seen such a deceitful person."

"She's a single parent, you know, lack of love."

"So even if I was a little nicer to her, she would rush up and lick me."

……

Really, I used to think he saved me from the mire, but he turned me around.

I thought I had met love, but all the sincerity had long since been fed to the dog.

1.

Su Yuan didn't find me in the living room when he came home, and sure enough, he went upstairs.

The bedroom light I only turned on the warm light in front of the bed, shrank into the flickering light shadow, and I just held my arms and waited for him.

I was afraid he would find out that I had just cried.

That would be out of steam.

He took me up from behind and kissed me on the neck, and he smelled of lemon candy on his body, and I began to wonder if he was playing outside the day before he got married, or why was it so sweet.

I jerked him away.

The unclear light reflected in his eyes was indistinct, and he just raised his eyebrows slightly.

"Wife?"

The fingers rubbed against the corners of my eyes, burning through my skin.

"Ever cried?"

I don't like it when he's so perky, like he uses this skill to turn the young me around.

"Su Yuan, let's not get married."

When I finished, he looked at me stunned for a few seconds.

Then when I couldn't react, he covered my mouth and pressed me to the couch, turning off the light in one fell swoop, and I fell into the darkness with him, his hair rubbing against my neck socket and tickling.

I started whimpering and kicking him, and his legs clamped between my knees.

"Shhh, don't say it, wife."

In the darkness of the night I found that his voice had long been rolled up into a hoarse, low and trembling voice.

"You've seen that chat."

He was really smart and guessed why.

A stranger sent me a chat history of his former friend, which was as disgusting as how a hunter could stare at a prey.

He said he had been with me for so long because I was so good at cheating.

He said I was much better than the other girls, and I couldn't stop giving me the discounted roses on Valentine's Day.

He said he hadn't brought the hand-knitted scarf I gave him once, it was too earthy.

He also said he was just playing, and the way I looked really really made him laugh.

"Those are all P's."

His breath sprayed over my collarbone, wrapped around my hair, and he bit me suddenly, not heavily, but violently tugging at my thoughts.

There are many screenshots, the time of the mobile phone screen is also there, and many of the things that happened at that time are on the right, and the ghost believes that it is p.

My hand reached the back of his neck, trying to lift his messy head.

"Have you always thought I was a good liar, Su Yuan?"

"Play me with such a sense of accomplishment?"

In the darkness, he held me stubbornly and silently.

In fact, think about it, when we were first together, the circle of friends he sent was only one like for me.

Our mutual friends also have one, but no one else has ever ordered it.

I also foolishly thought how important I was in his heart.

Ridiculous, that's just a means for him to deal with his girlfriend, not smart, enough to lie to me.

2.

Last night we slept in separate rooms, and after two months and three days, we divided rooms for the first time.

I had a bad dream, and my long,dusty memories awakened me.

It was like I had just established a relationship with him.

We made an appointment to go to the amusement park night show that was only opened, and met in front of the library.

I started dressing myself up in the morning, changing into one piece of clothing after another, and my roommates were amazed that I could make such a big move today, and I arrived an hour early.

On my first date, my heart beat like a drum.

But I waited until the street lights on the side of the road came on one after another, but I still didn't wait for him.

I waited for more than two hours in the cool autumn wind when he called me.

On the phone, he was full of apologies and told me that I had forgotten the time to do the experiment.

Later, his brother said that he had leaked his mouth, and that day he actually opened an all-night black in the Internet café.

At that time, I was not sad?

I don't remember, in fact, I was always abandoned, should not say it, I have long been used to it.

Then he gave me a bouquet of flowers, and I followed him again.

In that chat, he said I was "stupid."

Silly and coaxing.

3.

Every day I got up early to make breakfast for him, and for the first time, I only made my own portion.

He looked at me with his chin propped up across the table in his loose short sleeves.

A pair of peach blossom eyes always has a deep affection.

"Don't have my share?"

I nodded and lowered my eyes to stir the coffee in front of me.

"Anyway, you hate that what I made is not delicious."

In fact, I have often brought him breakfast since I was with him, and in that chat record, either I casually pulled two bites, or turned around and gave the bento I had carefully prepared for a long time to his brother who did not have time to buy breakfast.

He sat across from me and laughed.

I looked up at him.

"I was wrong wife."

The early morning light slipped leisurely into his eyes, and I always felt that he treated this relationship more easily than I did, and I did not know how many appointments he had talked about before me, and how many of his skills were born under the tempering of how many ex-girlfriends.

He was my first love, and until now, we were going to get a license today.

In fact, I have met each other's parents, and the two caravans have also been negotiated, I said that if I don't tie the knot, I can think of what people around me will say about me.

Willful, pretentious, how long ago was that, is it worth caring about so much?

I got up and walked to the entrance, today I was supposed to take a day off, because it was a good day and auspicious day calculated by the master that my mother was looking for, which was suitable for getting a license, but I was now ready to go to work again.

Before I opened the door and left, I was grabbed by the wrist of someone behind me.

He neither asked me if we were not going to get a permit today, nor did he tell me not to come back when I left, he just looked at me with a pair of calm eyes, even a little helpless.

It was so calm that I felt like I was a child fooling around.

"Buckle up."

He raised his hand and buttoned the neckline button that I had not had time to fasten in a hurry.

We looked at each other quietly for half a moment.

The emotion in his eyes looked like I would melt when I touched it.

I took a step back and he grabbed my wrist, and then he put his arm around my waist and kissed me.

Unlike the good morning kiss in the past, this time it was like trying to eat me.

4.

I was a little confused, sitting at my desk still not knowing how I had escaped from his shackles.

My colleague saw me coming and paddled over to me.

"Don't you go in the afternoon to get your permit?" I read that right, you love your work to this extent? ”

I rubbed my eyebrows and shrugged at her, not having much energy to explain to her.

Another email lay in the mailbox.

And that chat history is the same sender.

The content is simple, it seems to be a candid photo of a woman in a white dress pulling a suitcase through the airport.

A string of messages is attached:

"Do you know her? Her name is Bai Kexin, and she is Su Yuan's first love. ”

"Su Yuan's dialogue is different from other women, she came back..."

"Now, do you still think you can keep him?"

I don't think this kind of provocative behavior like a schoolboy is enough for me, an adult, to waste a minute and a second.

I closed the window, refocused my gaze on the report, stared at the butterfly clip on the page, but my mind could not concentrate.

Bai Kexin ah...

I know her.

It should be said that everyone who once knew Su Yuan knew her, Su Yuan's ex Bai Kexin, obviously they had broken up for a long time, but they still existed in the words of others.

It was also my nightmare at that time.

People around me are guessing how long I will be dumped by Su Yuan, and Bai Kexin will come back to Su Yuan, a proud person, whether he will turn back.

But Su Yuan and I arrived together now, and Bai Kexin did not come back.

Now, that strange balance has been upset again.

I frowned, and when it was time for lunch, I should have asked Su Yuan what he had eaten at noon.

This is our habit, share what the daily life is, always by the girlfriend to get married how to be as sweet as the hot love period.

But after reading that chat, I really didn't want to send him even one punctuation mark.

I don't know what Su Yuan really did to me, a fool who is very good at cheating and coaxing?

When he toyed with me between my legs, I actually liked him so always, all the time.

When I think of this, I feel like my heart is a dull pain that has been grinded down by someone.

At this time, the phone shook, and Su Yuan sent me a photo.

Three dishes and one soup.

He asked me again if I had eaten.

I stared at the picture for two seconds, then deleted his WeChat.

5.

"At this point, aren't you going to get a license with Su Yuan, so what's coming... Your mother counts as a good day and auspicious day? ”

My girlfriend and I sat in the bar, in fact, the bar was not open at all in the afternoon, but she was the hostess herself.

"It's not over."

I filled myself up and drank it all.

The fiery alcohol burned my throat, and I didn't hold back for a moment, and I was in a trance.

"Yo, so rebellious..."

What is rebellious is not rebellious.

"I looked at the chat history of him and his former brother."

I looked down at the ice cubes in my glass, the lights in the shop were not all turned on, and the warm light of the bar reflected the red-brown liquor, flowing out of a river of pure amber.

"He didn't really mean it to me, you know, he told his friend I was funny, he said I was stupid, he said I was so coaxed..."

"He said that just a little surprise can make me happy for half a day, do you remember the scarf I knitted for a long time, he never wore it..."

"He also..."

I choked and my girlfriend reached out and patted me on the back.

"Oh, isn't it obvious to everyone that he was bad to you before?"

Ha?

"Xiao Yu, Su Yuan is right in one point, once you were, even if you give you a little warmth, you will be grateful."

I'm an easy drinker, so the face of the person in front of me is still vague, and my girlfriend is looking into my eyes very seriously.

"How many times have we told you before that Su Yuan is not a good person?" But you just don't listen. ”

“……”

"However, in the past few years, I am quite grateful to Su Yuan, he can't even look at what he spoils you now, and you have finally raised a little temper by him."

"You used to be afraid of causing trouble for others, and you didn't know how to reject others."

"Now, if you think about it, did you do this kind of thing before you ran away from marriage?"

My brain couldn't handle her words right now, but I just thought ben's quiet bar was a little noisy, and I skimmed my lips.

"That was his fault."

The person on the other side seemed to be smiling, and it seemed that there was no laughter, and my messy head could not understand her words, but just instinctively swallowed the wine one by one.

The fact that wine really dispelled this was something I knew one day in my sophomore year.

I almost forgot what I was like, it was like a long memory, I was always depressed, always afraid that others would not like me, always wanted to shrink myself in a dark corner.

From the day Su Yuan knew him, he was a warm and open person.

It was he who chased me, and at that time I couldn't understand where he looked at me.

I could only passively accept his sugar-coated shells, gentle romance in every sense, and then I fell into it without any concentration, and I couldn't help but have my girlfriend remind me in my ear that he was not a "good man" again and again.

I thought that no matter how bad he was, the motivation for chasing me should be which point I attracted to him.

The result was no, it was a worst joke, he and his brother bet lost, to randomly draw a student number to chase, regardless of gender, regardless of personality.

That person is me, otherwise my life and his life are probably two parallel lines, and there will be no intersection in a lifetime.

He once took me to a party of his friends, and for the first time I found that I was so incompatible with those people, they all glowed, as if they were familiar with each other, and I curled up in the corner, and my eyes could only be firmly glued to Su Yuan.

At this time, there was a girl next to Su Yuan.

She and Su Yuan seem to be very acquainted, the girl wears a ponytail, has a bright smile that I have never had before, she patted Su Yuan's shoulder, laughed and teased me.

"Yo, why didn't your little girlfriend talk this time?"

Su Yuan just looked at me, and at that time he just glanced at me disapprovingly.

Later, the whole party of them didn't talk to me again, in fact, I had long been used to it, I just had to shrink in the corner, but I didn't understand what was the growing discomfort in my heart.

The girl and Su Yuan are very familiar, it seems to be small, she always claims to be Su Yuan's brother, it is natural to ask him to go to the Internet café to play games.

Her eyes had light when she saw Su Yuan, and I thought I was too narrow at that time, and I thought she liked him.

I told myself not to be so jealous of others, they just played well, they just...

Later, I ran out by myself, I don't know if Su Yuan found me halfway away, he just texted me the next morning after a long time to ask if I had returned to the dormitory.

That night, I stopped at the small outside counter and bought a bottle of wine to go back.

Because there was no one in the dormitory during the holidays, I sat there alone and drank all the bottles of wine, and then I cried on the quilt and cried for a long time.

"When I called you to pick her up, didn't you say there was going to be a party?"

"Why are you here now?"

"Don't worry about her."

The conversation between the two men tugged at my misty thoughts.

The man in the suit leaned over and rubbed my head, and I dodged it.

"Don't touch me."

The sight flickered and overlapped, but I could still see his face at a glance.

He looked at me quietly with his eyes down in his pockets, his voice soft and hoarse.

"Have you had enough?"

I stared at him and shook my head.

He crouched down in front of me.

"How many are these, Ah Yu?"

Of course, I could see the raised fingers, but they were just dangling, and he treated me like a child, and I squinted my eyes to count more realistically.

But he was caught off guard by his neck and wrapped around his arms.

The nasal cavity suddenly poured into the breath that did not belong to the bar, and Su Yuan's body always had a long-suppressed cedar fragrance, mixed with a cold and thin tobacco gas, spear contradictory shield.

He just hugged me.

My eyes suddenly couldn't move into half a point of brilliance, and my mind was still stuck on how many times he had bullied me in college.

"If you don't like me, why are you chasing me?"

"The bet is yes, chasing you and breaking up, why are you torturing me?"

I stumbled upon him and he didn't answer anything.

The hand that was holding my wrist was a little tight, and as I was pulled by him to the door of the bar, the evening breeze blew, and he took off his suit jacket and draped it over me before that.

A little big, isn't it funny the way I look now, he chuckled softly.

I looked straight into his eyes, the light of the street lamp was there, it was just beautiful, but I couldn't see what was there.

"Hypocrisy."

I whispered taunts.

He walked a bit of self-care, and he chased me behind me.

"The car is in the back, where are you going?"

"Who's going to ride in your broken car?"

I was vicious.

"Ready to walk home? Do you know how far away home is, eh? ”

He sighed and walked beside me.

"You're too far away, you're driving away."

"Lin Yu."

He called my name, and the melodious tone of the evening breeze seemed to have been swept through a thousand times, entangled in the strings.

"What I have is patience, and you can do nothing to me."

And frank, and understandable.

I stood still, and the demonic horn in my heart that was flaunting and mighty was lifted again.

"Then carry me back."

"Okay."

He bent his eyebrows, and the crescent moon was scattered and soft.

The evening wind was not cold, it seemed to be alcohol, and I slept on his back for a while, and when I opened my eyes he was still walking, under the viaduct, the overturned traffic lights concealed the dappled light.

It's really quite far.

It usually takes ten or twenty minutes to drive to my girlfriend's shop, and I was going to take a taxi halfway through the show.

"Awake?"

He seemed to be sweating a little, and his voice was still stable.

"Bai Kexin is back."

"Huh?"

It was as if he had just heard the news.

"Did you carry her like this before?"

The red light flashed green, and the pedestrians were flowing around, and his voice was so steady that he could not hear a single flaw.

"I haven't memorized it."

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