Finally, we are standing at the time node divided by year. Whether it is to lament the unhappiness of this year, or to imagine the wonderful events of the next year, it is inevitable to fall into a state of "blind optimism", and then may cycle year after year.
In the first season of "Summer of the Band", after Penicillin sang Park Shu's New Boy, Zhang Yadong on the big music fan seat could not help wiping tears, and he remembered when he first helped Park Shu produce the album "I Went to 2000" as a producer.
"At that time, we were all children, and we always felt that there were many good things in the future after 2000, but the result? The result is that we all get older. ”
People are like this, and it's because they can't go well that they need the best blessings, don't they?
In the previous push, I solicited some messages from you, hoping to see everyone's summary of the past year and the outlook for the next year, below, let's take a look at some of the selected messages.
01
Study summary, work summary, annual summary, summary summary... On closer reflection, there is nothing worth summarizing. It is like a dull day, the same past, no different from the time repeated in the past. But it is the meaning we give, only to remind ourselves that in the past year, nothing has happened, nothing has been gained, nothing has been lost, and nothing has been overwhelmed.
The last stage of the teenage years, it seems that after passing, it is uncertain what will become. But it is still on the road, on the road of exploration, for the unknown, for knowledge, for thunder and lightning, for dark clouds, for wildflowers, for everything...
I hope to remain enthusiastic, keep bright and skeptical, be a calm observer, and don't stop thinking, even if it is still shallow. Pain may be the main theme, remember it, feel it, accept it, the path to happiness is not the way out. Give your heart a piece of land to keep, and occasionally escape.
"I no longer compare this world to the perfect world I have come to expect, but to accept it, to love it, to belong to it."
——Melete
02
This year a year into such, all rely on New Year's Day home to see the parents of the family, when Shen Dad Shen Mother male and female double urging, after all, the family is also 30+ people, we plan two people to play another year and 21 years to get married, 22 years to give birth to a small baby out to play, at that time and Shen Dad Shen Mom said that the vows are full of righteous indignation, do not urge us! We have our own plans! Who urges me to follow whom! At that time, I also drank two or two of his brewed liquor with Shen Dad, and I was almost called a brother, in short, don't urge me!
After seeing the parents for a month to find that they have signs of early pregnancy, the hospital examination, is already a gestational sac that can be seen by the naked eye, sitting on the chair in the hospital hall at that time, the heart is really mixed feelings, how resolute the refusal to urge marriage at that time, how confused it is now.
The next step is to quickly discuss the matter of marriage, buy things to take pictures, marriage registration, and methodical pregnancy tests, because of the low progesterone in the first trimester, go to the hospital every day to get progesterone, as a person who is afraid of injections, it is really a tingling of the ass. Morning sickness in the first trimester also made me almost cry, I wanted to vomit when I didn't eat, and I wanted to vomit when I ate. Sometimes after eating, I immediately go to the toilet and vomit, wipe my mouth clean and sit back at the table to eat. Fortunately, the time of morning sickness does not last too long, and the back is basically an orderly pregnancy test, and the children obediently pass the test every time. When the due date was delayed, 41+1 was incorporated into the hospital to spawn, the birth failed, and finally the big baby was born by caesarean section.
Because many people who have given birth to children tell me that contractions are very painful, I have put down a bold statement in the third trimester: I want to see how painful this contractions are, after personal experience, it is really painful to suffocate, some people on the Internet say that being crushed by several cars on your stomach at the same time, completely without using exaggerated techniques, although the pain wants to roll on the ground, but the thought of meeting children immediately, you can still maintain your sanity.
Two days of birth due to the fetal heart is not good to terminate, when I heard that the fetal heart is not good, the tight emotions suddenly like the Three Gorges Dam opened the gate, I cried in front of more than a dozen medical staff, the thought of me paying so much treasure is dangerous, the pain in front of me makes me unable to control the emotions, when admitted to the hospital, I made a request for a direct caesarean section, had to urge me to induce labor, and now let me bear so much is still pulled to the caesarean section, I almost scolded out, the misfortune of the luck is the safe and smooth birth of the child, due to the smooth turning of the section, Stayed in the hospital for 6 days. After being discharged from the hospital, the direct confinement center is seamlessly docked, and the next step is the unremarkable life with the baby.
Overall, 2021 is a big change in my life, like a sudden fast forward, or 64 times fast, so fast that I was caught off guard. Suddenly became a person's wife, became a person's mother. The magic of giving birth to a life, until now I look at the children will suddenly feel unreal, is this really born by me? Was he the one who was kicking and kicking me in the stomach? Because of him, I don't think I'm the guy who can walk away and do whatever he wants anymore.
22 years, hopefully I can find balance between the two roles of Tsunako and The Child's Mother!
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03
The summary is that the work in 2021 has fluctuated greatly, and the adjustment of mentality and the improvement of ability are very important. This year was also surprised to meet people who felt rare and suitable, this is this year's big Easter egg, haha!
The hope is that 2022 will have a better ability to regulate emotions and a clearer career direction. Be down-to-earth and do what you can.
Eh, said a lot of things that seem to be work!
Having something you like to do is the ultimate meaning of life!
The flowers are becoming more and more attractive to the eyes~
A smoke and rain ren pingsheng ~
——R
04
In 2021, I changed three jobs: film and television screenwriter, financial journalist, and now I am not a freelance writer. After some changes, I actually fell into a period of confusion for a long time: What can I do?
I remember when I was a financial journalist (a total of four days in the work), I would read some information that I was not interested in every day and write some articles that I was not interested in. On the way home from work one day, walking on the overpass, looking at the black pressed cars on the road, I can't help but think, what kind of life do I want to live?
I resigned from the company's personnel on WeChat that night, and although I felt that it was difficult to fill the gap between vision and reality at that time, I simply did not want to continue like this.
I've been a freelance writer for more than three months, and a while ago I wanted to take on some bookwriting and use the rest of my time. During the interview, I was asked a very sharp question: What is your life plan for the future?
I hesitated for a while, and I didn't want to admit that I was a person who didn't think about the future, but how to do it didn't seem to really polish the details too deeply.
I replied: Let's do this for a while, I know my general direction in the future, I like my current state, I want to think about some questions slowly in this state first.
We all know that sometimes plans can't keep up with changes. The changes in the education industry this year have also caused some of my classmates and friends to fall into the trouble of employment.
Some people do push-ups in the elevator, and then come out to see the scenery from above, and he blames these on his exercise, but he doesn't know that he just sat on the elevator. So, between future planning and present choices, I may prefer to believe in the present.
Oh yes, Blue Submarine also received its first commercial manuscript at the end of this year, and I can't help but want to share my joy with you. But rest assured, I will still remember the starting point of my departure
Finally, I wish you all a happy new year, peace and security, and the next year to go to more places, read more books, watch more movies, and write your favorite works.
- Twist the clockwork bird