In China's modern history, there is such a group of people, full of tragic colors, in the dark, disguised themselves as bad people, waiting for the light, but when the real light comes. They could not prove themselves to be good people, and eventually died tragically on the road of light. In that era, there were too many such heroes, who used their persistence and faith to survive the darkness, but they were not known, even if they were well known to the world, they were criticized everywhere by the world.
During the Republic of China period, there was such a woman, who was dedicated to the light, she was Guan Lu. Guan Lu was originally named Hu Shoulin, she was born in a family of intellectuals in Shanxi, unfortunately in the year when she was nine years old, her father fell ill and died, since the family fell, at the age of sixteen, her mother finally could not bear the burden of life and was crushed, or guan Lu, a flower girl, became a helpless person at this time.
Desperate, Guan Lu's grandmother took Guan Lu and her sister to the second aunt's house in Nanjing. After living there for a few years, my grandmother and aunt went to find a mother-in-law for Guan Lu, who was already seventeen or eighteen years old at the time, and had reached the age of marriage. Now it seems that the family husband and son may be a different life for her, but she did not choose this stable and smooth path, because the pride and talent in her bones are destined to make her write a more different life.
So, Guan Lu ran away from marriage. She fled all the way to Shanghai with her sister, thinking that she could continue to study, fortunately, Guan Lu's luck was still good, and it was not long before she met the noble man in her life, and with the help of the nobleman, she and her sister were admitted to the law department of the Law University in Shanghai. With the help of nobles, coupled with her own talent and hard work, at the age of twenty-one, she was admitted to the philosophy department of Nanjing Central University, and then because she liked literature, she transferred to the literature department, and since then, Guan Lu has become a literary and artistic young woman who everyone admires. At the age of twenty-three, her debut novel "She Jun" was published, at this time she became a sharp edge in the literary world, and for a time, she became the most promising female writer in Shanghai.
During this time, it should be the happiest and most carefree time in her life, although she has also been hurt by scumbags like ordinary people, but in terms of her status as a female writer, how can life be less than this wind and snow, crowds of people?
After she turned twenty-three, the dark tide of blood in the background of the times continued to surge, and as a progressive youth in a new era, it was easy to be blinded by this hot blood. After the September 18 Incident, Guan Lu joined the anti-imperialist alliance in Shanghai and resolutely joined the Communist Party organization at the age of twenty-five. This was a turning point in her life, in fact, her nature was not suitable to participate in such a political struggle, but the enthusiasm for saving the country and saving the people had washed over her mind, and she could not allow her to think about it more. On the surface, she seems to be moving forward on the road of national rejuvenation, but in reality she is facing the dark and cruel political struggle behind the road of rejuvenation.
At the age of twenty-nine, Guan Lu successively wrote poetry collections and autobiographical novels, such as "Songs on the Pacific" and "New and Old Times", etc. At that time, she was one of the most talented women in Shanghai Beach, which can be compared with Zhang Ailing. But her fate was not as good as ordinary people expected.
When she was thirty-two years old, she suddenly received a mysterious mission from the organization: to find an opportunity to plot against Li Shiqun. Guan Lu's sister once had a favor for Li Shiqun's wife, Ye Jiqing, but her sister had no chance to complete this task when she had a job, so she had to send her to complete it, as the sister of the benefactor, Presumably li Shiqun would let down her guard.
In fact, this task is already quite dangerous for her, not only because she is a spy Xiaobai, but also Li Shiqun is an "old fox", it is more difficult to plot against him, which undoubtedly makes Guan Luce's anti-task worse. What is even more cruel is that once she goes deep into the enemy camp, she will not be charged with adultery by people, and she will not be able to defend herself, otherwise she will show her stuffing.
In order to get close to Li Shiqun, Guan Lu made enough efforts, did not hesitate to plastic surgery, during that time she accompanied Mrs. Li Shiqun in and out of various places all day, over time, people scolded her, even Guan Lu's friends also turned against her, she was very painful, fortunately, God treated Guan Lu well, not two years later, under her efforts, Li Shiqun finally got in touch with the organization, and Guan Lu was also transferred. After thinking that he could finally be a person in the right light, he did not want to receive another task from the organization.
Infiltrated japan as a female writer into Japan's "Female Voice" magazine, a magazine controlled by the Japanese Navy. At this moment, everyone was more convinced that she was a traitor to the Japanese, especially her own photos were published in magazines, Guan Lu was almost banned by the whole of Shanghai, and since then, Guan Lu has had mental problems...
Finally, when the light came, the war was finally won, but poor Guan Lu did not enjoy the treatment of victory, but because of people's vision and the inconvenience of the organization, he clarified the list of hoe traitors. Not only that, she couldn't create and publish under her own name, and even her former lover sent her a letter of renunciation. Later, because the organization's superiors made mistakes, Guan Lu was also taken to prison, so he repeated it over and over again, and when Guan Lu saw the light of day, he was already an old man with a broken candle.
In the end, the superiors of the organization were rehabilitated, Guan Lu was able to prove her innocence, and when that moment came, she did not know whether it was tragedy or liberation, and a woman's life was spent in injustice and scorn...
On December 5, 1982, Guan Lu committed suicide by taking drugs in the Burrow, dressed neatly, and was accompanied only by a plastic doll and a photo left by her lover.
Why should she live tenaciously? Presumably just to prove your faith.