I am forty years old, a civil servant, and have a relationship with a thirty-three-year-old beautiful woman

My name is Qin Feng, I live in Shanghai, I am forty years old this year, I am a civil servant by profession, and I have never been married.

I think it's all because the social circle is relatively small, so it's difficult to find a partner. I am the only son in the family, and my parents have prepared a seventy-square-meter house for me to make a marriage room.

Although the location is not a bustling city center, commuting is still convenient, because I am more introverted, less able to talk, and less pleasing to girls, so I am not very conspicuous in the crowd.

In fact, my appearance is not bad, the size is also one meter seven three, colleagues have commented that I am more Sven, because my marriage can not solve the parents are anxious. I often mobilize relatives and friends around me to introduce blind dates.

Half a year ago, I met a girl through blind dates. Her name is Li Xia, she does financial work in a unit, she is also 33 years old, but her appearance is still very good. She is one meter six six tall, and her skin is very white and a little lost.

After that blind date, we dated for a month, but the two of us lived far away, and we could only come out together on weekends to watch movies and eat. Usually I talk about WeChat every day, but I always feel that she is not very enthusiastic, sometimes sending her WeChat, he replied for a long time. I think she's the kind of girl who is very cold.

Just like this a month later, Li Xia suddenly ignored me, WeChat did not reply, and then asked her out, she also refused, saying that it was inappropriate for the two of us to communicate. When I heard Li Xia say this, I gave up the pursuit.

After a few months, by chance, Li Xia asked me about work, and we exchanged ideas online again.

A few days later, she asked me to meet for dinner, and we talked that day, about two or three hours, and still felt good. But then she got angry again at the WeChat I sent her. Because I said on WeChat at the time, we always seem to be very awkward to chat, because always you ask me questions, and then I answer you, and as soon as I ask you questions, you are silent.

Li Xia was very angry when she saw this WeChat, but the reality is indeed like this, every time she talks about WeChat, it is the way she asked me to answer, then the next time we meet, her attitude towards me is not good.

I always said that I was not out of work, just an ordinary clerk, and my classmates had already been promoted.

Because I liked her at that time, I only promised and did not refute it.

Later, Li Xia proposed that we should be ordinary friends first, and I did not object to me asking someone to inquire about her past to see if he had a psychological disorder, but it was self-defeating. This matter was known to Li Xia, and she became angry, proposed to break up, and never came back again.

In fact, I really like her, and I would like to get married right away, because we are not young. Girls over the age of 35 have problems giving birth to children.

But now she doesn't answer my phone, and her WeChat is blocked, I have no way to contact her, I am now also very remorseful, I may be more narrow-minded, hurt her feelings.

I heard that she is now every day in marriage and blind dates, asking as long as she is an ordinary person, but I am also an ordinary person, do not smoke and alcohol, do not like to eat, drink and have fun, only like sports on the Internet, listen to music and travel.

Can you help me analyze it and see if we can still reconcile?