One day in September 1998, a friend and I went to visit patients at the town hospital. At that time, I was still single, and my friend said, I will introduce you to a girlfriend. My friend pulled me out of a ward and pointed to a female nurse in the distance. Although it was a long distance away, the first time I saw Lily, her beauty forced me to almost breathe. Lily was very beautiful, standing out from a group of female nurses, with a melon face embedded in a pair of large watery eyes, a straight nose, and a nurse's uniform that outlined her body. Lily didn't know what pleasure she was talking about with her colleagues, and from time to time she laughed happily, like a flower, which made me almost stunned. It wasn't until my friend pulled the corner of my coat that he woke me up.
That day, I walked out of the hospital with a bit of a lost soul. When my friend asked me what I thought of Lily, I was speechless because I wasn't working officially at the time, and Lily made me feel incredibly inferior. I refused to be kind enough to introduce lily to me, but later, this beautiful girl often appeared in my mind.
Maybe fate predestined Lily and I to have an indissoluble relationship, and one day more than a month later, Lily and I met at a friend's wedding, she was a bridesmaid, and I was a groomsman. On that day, the wedding atmosphere was very warm, and the extroverted Lily was very easy to get close to, and I plucked up the courage to say so many words to her that by the end of the wedding, we were very familiar with each other. A few days later, my friend invited us to dinner to thank lily and me. Seeing each other again, in the flow of eyes, we saw each other's likes. That night, on the way home to take Lily home, I asked her to be my girlfriend, and she nodded shyly, and at that moment, I was ecstatic. And this day, October 28, 1998, will always be remembered in my heart.
Lily came into my life, and her beauty, her gentleness, her amorousness, all deeply touched me. Lily took possession of all my body and mind, I took care of her meticulously, loved her, and I lost myself. My infatuation can be seen by everyone, but one day a good friend told me after some desperate remarks that there were many gossip about Lily, and he wanted me to calm down. I don't take my friends' words for granted, I think everyone has their own past. I told Lily about it, and Lily confessed to me that I was her fifth boyfriend. I said to Lily, I don't mind her past, I only care about our present and future. Lily was moved to tears.
Lily's relationship with me grew more and more sticky, but the relationship was strongly opposed by her parents because I had no formal job and was a prisoner. Under the pressure of her parents, Lily still insisted on being with me, even to the death. Lily took medicine to kill herself and was taken to the hospital for rescue, and before she could decide, her parents finally gave in, and I could no longer express my feelings in words. In the hospital, I took Lily's hand, and I asked her why she was so stupid, and she said, "Lei, what does it mean to be alive without you?" "At that moment, my tears poured down.
On October 28, 2000, Lily and I married. After marriage, the two of us continued our pre-marital passion, loved each other deeply, and took full care of each other. In order to ease the relationship with Lily's parents, I often went to Lily's parents' house and did a lot of things for them. Thanks to my efforts, Lily's parents have changed their attitude towards me.
In August 2001, when Lily was about to give birth, she suffered heavy bleeding, and when the doctor asked me to sign the critical illness notice, my hands were shaking and I could hardly write. Lily was in the operating room, those two hours were as long as centuries, and when the doctor came out and told me that my mother and daughter were safe, I cried with joy. In the hospital room, Lily's hands and I held each other tightly, and after this test of life and death, my feelings for Lily deepened. That day, I secretly swore that no matter what I did in the future, I would be worthy of Lily and my daughter.
The birth of my daughter gave me more responsibility, in order to give Lily's mother and daughter a good life, I quit my original job and bought a car to rent. I go in and out of the wind and rain every day, very hard, but when I think of Lily and my daughter, all the suffering is no longer bitter. Every day when I return home and see Lily and my daughter, the exhaustion of the day is gone. Some of my male friends around me often go to some of the bright places and look for excitement, but I have always been very disciplined because I can't do anything to be sorry for Lily.
The calendar flips through the pages day by day, Lily and I live uneventfully, I run a taxi outside, Lily works in the hospital, my parents-in-law help us take care of our daughters, and our lives are calm, rich and stable. I have always kept my promise to Lily, loved her well, and in life, I loved her and accommodated her. Friends say I'm going to spoil Lily like this, but I always laugh and don't say anything, I love Lily, I'm willing to do anything for her.
Lily is a woman full of wisdom in life, she likes to create all kinds of small surprises, such as giving me a small card, or preparing a mysterious gift for my daughter, making me and my daughter happy, and always full of laughter in our small home. Lily once wrote in a letter: "Every day when I look at you and my daughter, my heart is hit by indescribable happiness, the two most important people in my life, with you, what else can I ask for?" "Yes, with beautiful Lily and a lovely daughter, I feel like my life is really fulfilling.
Lily and I echoed each other's love, and my heart was filled with happiness. At that time, I deeply thought that I would grow old with Lily, that we would always watch our daughter grow up, and that we could hold hands and watch the sunset together when we were white-haired. However, life always seems to be difficult to achieve, and when I prayed for the heavens and the sky, one day, fate played a big joke on me.
In July 2007, Lily was sent to a hospital in Zaozhuang City for further study. Because it wasn't very far away, at first, Lily always went every morning and came back in the evening, and whenever I advised her not to rush so hard, she always said that she missed home, that she missed me and my daughter. More than a month later, Lily began to come back once a few days, and she said that the study task was too intense, and I was convinced that I would send many text messages every day to remind her to take care of herself.
On October 28, 2007, Lily and I celebrated our wedding anniversary. In order to make Lily happy, I specially took her to Xuzhou to shop. But I don't know why, in the process of traveling to and from Xuzhou, Lily always seemed absent-minded, I thought she was too tired to care too much. However, a few days after returning to Taierzhuang, because of a small matter, we had an argument, and there were times when we had quarrels in the past, but this time I don't know why, Lily reacted very strongly, shouting "divorce". I was very sad, but I still apologized to Lily.
On November 3, 2007, Lily was going to travel with her unit, and I rushed home to drop her off. When I walked in the house, Lily was listening to a song called "Don't Say You Love Me When You're Lonely" and she had tear marks on her face. Seeing me, Lily panicked and quickly hid the phone in her hand under the cushion of the sofa. I was suspicious, and when she went to the bathroom, I pulled out the phone, which was reading, and an incomprehensible text message appeared in front of me. At that moment, this sudden blow made me almost stupid, because I never thought that Lily would betray me. When Lily saw that things had been revealed, she could only pretend to be calm to hide her panic and fear.
That day, I didn't argue with Lily, and I didn't make a fuss. I said to her, we're all adults, and now that the problem has arisen, we need to fix it. Lily told me that the man was a doctor at her advanced hospital, and they had started a few months ago, when the doctor's wife was studying in the provincial city, and perhaps they were both empty, and they had more contact, so that later, they finally surpassed the normal relationship between men and women. Hearing Lily recount how she and the man met and developed, my heart ached like a knife. Although Lily betrayed me, I still decided to forgive her because I couldn't bear to break up the home we had worked so hard to run. I told Lily that I could forgive her as long as she cut herself off with the man. Lily cried, and she wrote a pledge that she would never associate with the man again.
I gave Lily enough tolerance and trust. I bought clothes and jewelry for Lily, hoping to warm her heart. But all my efforts were not rewarded in the slightest, and Lily became increasingly cold to me. On November 18, 2007, the weather was extremely cold that day, and in the afternoon, there was a car to Zaozhuang City, and I decided to go to Zaozhuang to pick up Lily. But when I waited at the station where Lily was sitting, I saw the scene I didn't want to see, Lily and the man hurried to say goodbye at the station, the two of them were inseparable, Lily's car was driving so far, and the man was still waving behind. I was so angry that I rushed over, and when the man saw me, he fled into the wilderness.
That day, back in Taierzhuang, Lily and I had a fierce argument. Lily looked at me with a very cold and cold look, at that moment, I gave a cold gag, Lily made me feel an indescribable distance, I finally knew that Lily was no longer a simple "cheating", her body and mind had left me. I didn't want to embarrass Lily and myself anymore, so I decided to give up.
On January 29, 2008, Lily and I went through divorce procedures. That day, back at the empty home, I cried, remembering the joy of a family of three, and my heart was like a knife. I don't understand why ten years of love can be turned into emptiness, why the home that I have painstakingly managed is as fragile as a sand sculpture, the person I love the most gives the deepest pain, I don't know what else I can believe in the future, I am trapped in boundless pain, I can't extricate myself...