"Her eyes are also talking, and the light of her eyes is swinging, the secret of the fountain of the heart."
--Xu Zhimo
On April 3, 1965, 62-year-old Lu Xiaoman was dying in a hospital bed at Huadong Hospital in Shanghai, waving her hands, as if trying to grasp something, and finally smiling and leaving... Next to the hospital bed, there was no one to guard, she had no children under her knees, her lover died early, and her relatives and friends did not recognize her. Originally, she was also a generation of celebrities, Miss Qianjin in high society, but the fate was tricky, and in the end it was still a desolate ending, and even the ashes were never claimed, but, after 23 years, she was erected by the descendants.
She was a famous socialite in the Republic of China period, with a noble status and a beautiful and versatile, but she was born in such an era, and in a powerful family, and the marriage had long been arranged by the orders of her parents. In 1922, but the 19-year-old Lu Xiaoman married Wang Geng under the arrangement of his family, but this marriage did not make her feel love, it was just a simple marriage, no romance, no love. She likes romance, but Wang Geng seems to be only concerned about her career. Later, they had a dispute, and Wang Geng insulted her in public, which also made her heart completely wither.
The appearance of Xu Zhimo, like a dead wood in spring, brings hope to her world. He understands romance and is willing to accompany her to go crazy, in her opinion, Xu Zhimo is the best man for him in the world. She divorced Wang Geng in 1925, although she was pregnant with Wang Geng's child at that time, but she still did not want to continue, in order to break the marriage she did not like, she chose to have an abortion, which also led to the rest of her life without pregnancy. In 1926, she and Xu Zhimo entered the palace of marriage, although the blessings received were not so much, but she still felt very happy. Xu Zhimo loved her very much, and in order to be with her, he did not hesitate to make a decision with his family, and in order to meet her huge expenses after marriage, he even did not hesitate to take several jobs at the same time.
However, the happy life did not last long, on November 19, 1931, Xu Zhimo was killed in an airplane accident, and the light in her world has since disappeared.
Another man who broke into her life was called Weng Duanwu, and after Xu Zhimo's death, Lu Xiaoman almost stopped going out, but she was not in good health, and even had fainting, but with the help of Weng Duanwu, it was much better. In order to make herself feel better, she began to smoke opium under the introduction of Weng Duanwu. Lu Xiaoman and Weng Duanwu are dependent on each other, Weng Duanwu has a wife and children, but he still lives with Lu Xiaoman for 20 years. This is a difficult thing to evaluate, but Lu Xiaoman said that Weng Duanwu treated her very well, and there was indeed affection between them, but it was not love, more like a kind of mutual dependence, indistinguishable emotion, and even she herself could not say what it was.
However, the ultimate life, in the end, still belongs to the loess. Weng Duanwu died before her, and finally, there was no one around her. She had made a will, hoping that she could be buried with Xu Zhimo after she died, but this request was not agreed by the Xu family. Her bones were uncollected and her ashes unclaimed, and it was not until 1988, when her cousin and cousin built a crown tomb for her, that she was buried. "The memorial tomb of the first aunt Lu Xiaoman", this is the word on Lu Xiaoman's tombstone, throughout his life, he was still not buried as "Xu Zhimo's wife" as he wished, which is sighing.