I can't choose
How to be born, how to die
But I can decide
How to love, how to live.
This is the freedom I want
It's mine
golden age
The film "Golden Age" is a literary and artistic biographical film directed by Xu Anhua, set in the Republic of China period, depicting the bumpy life and heart-wrenching love of female writer Xiao Hong.
Most of the participants in this movie are medium solid force faction, Tang Wei plays the writer Xiao Hong, Feng Shaofeng plays Xiao Jun, Wang Zhiwen plays Lu Xun, and Zhu Yawen, Huang Xuan, Hao Lei, Yuan Quan and others participate.
Although the narrative method of this film is different from the general conventional form, it restores Xiao Hong's real life in the context of a special era through the memories and narrations of people familiar with Xiao Hong.
The gray style and a period of heartache experience attract people to enter the so-called golden age to explore the inner emotional world of a generation of talented women Xiao Hong.
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In the 1930s, in order to oppose arranged marriages, Xiao Hong and her cousin fled the feudal family to Beiping, and her cousin was forced by family pressure to cowardly abandon her. Poor and helpless, Xiao Hong put down her self-esteem and lived with her fiancé Wang Enjia, owed a huge amount of rent, and was betrayed after becoming pregnant. When Xiao Jun was entrusted by the newspaper to find a way to rescue Xiao Hong in a simple and messy warehouse, the two appreciated each other, fell in love with each other, and soon became lovers.
Someone on the Internet commented that a poor and destitute woman, pregnant with someone else's child, locked up in a moldy broken house, why would Xiao Jun fall in love with her?
This is also my question, even in the current open society, there may not be a few people who can be so careless to love each other.
Xiao Jun later wrote in his memoirs: "I seem to feel that the world is changing, the seasons are changing, people are changing, and at that time I think my thoughts and feelings are also changing... What appeared in front of me was the most beautiful of the women I have ever known! Probably the most beautiful person in the world! All the images and impressions she gave me at first were gone, all gone... There is only a bright, beautiful, lovely, shining soul left in front of me! ...... I immediately secretly decided and swore to myself: I must sacrifice and cost at all costs - to save her! Save this beautiful soul".
From Xiao Jun's memoirs, it seems to tell us that people who truly love each other are like moths to a fire, there is no worldly foresight, and some are just surprises and happiness after finding a highly compatible object with the soul.
If there is no debt in the past life, how can we meet in this life?
In those years of poverty and hardship, ShuangXiao's love life was so envious of us in front of the screen. In today's society, even if the material is so abundant, the romantic love that is sweet to the heart is indeed rare to see.
There are a few scenes in the movie that are particularly memorable!
In the wind and snow, the two people said laughing and walking on the street, Xiao Hong found that the shoelaces were lost, Xiao Jun cut the shoelaces on his feet, and helped Xiao Hong tie the shoelaces.
Poor two people, living in a hotel with no money to rent a quilt, the waiter angrily took it, and the two were like naughty mischievous children, wrapped in coats, laughing and rolling together.
There is no cup of water to drink, holding a large basin, you take a sip, she is also extremely happy to take a sip. When you are hungry, you have to get a loaf of bread, you share a piece, she shares a piece, and eat it so sweetly.
Later, Xiao Jun earned money as a tutor, the two people went to the night market to relieve their hunger, Xiao Hong wanted to eat meatballs, Xiao Jun arrogantly agreed, and the two were so tacit and happy.
Gortai said, "Love is a full life, like a glass of wine." ”
Browning once said, "I am happy because I love, because I have love." ”
I think that at that time, although Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun lived a bitter and sweet life, it was precisely because their hearts were full of love that they were able to support each other, encourage each other, and achieve each other.
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Lin Huiyin once wrote: "The years are like water, too hurried, some stories are written as yesterday before they can really start; some people have not yet fallen in love with each other, they have become passers-by." ”
The better things in the world always seem to be so short-lived. The love of Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun cannot withstand the flow of water.
Seeing Xiao Hong sitting in the courtyard of Lu Xun's house for half a day, smoking a cigarette, not talking to people, and suppressing unspeakable pain in his heart, it really made people very sad.
The two went to participate in literary activities, no longer laughing and laughing, no longer harmonious, Xiao Hong refused to admit that the scars on his forehead were hit by Xiao Jun, but Xiao Jun angrily told everyone that he had hit it, and at that moment the atmosphere was fragmented, and people's hearts were also cool.
Despite this, Xiao Hong still loves Xiao Jun, reluctant to let go, in order to alleviate the contradiction, but also to heal the wounds, Xiao Hong traveled to Japan, where she wrote works such as "Lonely Life", which was during that time, which Xiao Hong called her golden age.
After returning to China, the feelings of the two people were repaired for a while, but the people who loved too hard, the wounded heart was difficult to heal.
I remember in the film, in the base area of the War of Resistance, Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun communicated fruitlessly, Xiao Jun resolutely decided to stay and realize his personal ideals, and Xiao Hong wanted to live a peaceful life and write quietly, decided to move with the troops, Xiao Hong on the train, looking at Xiao Jun who was sending off the window, his heart must be full of parting reluctance, but I think it is more the pain of heartbreak into tens of millions of pieces.
Xiao Jun's arrogance and arrogance, macho behavior makes Xiao Hong gradually intolerable, the most unacceptable thing is that Xiao Jun is not dedicated, this pain is like a thorn in the heart, making Xiao Hong sad and unbearable, the person who once loved her the most is also the person who hurt her the most. In desperation, Xiao Hong chose to leave.
Xiao Hong did not seem to be happy or happy for the rest of her life since then. The wounded heart has not yet been healed, and xiao Jun's child is pregnant in his belly, and he hastily marries Duanmu again.
A weak woman with a serious lack of love, in that special era of war and precariousness, is like duckweed urgently needing to find attachment and dependence.
When she married Duanmu, Xiao Hong said: "I don't have any excessive expectations for him, but I just want to live a normal ordinary couple life." There was no quarrel, no fighting, no infidelity, no ridicule, just mutual understanding, love, and consideration. ”
However, the ideal is plump, but the reality is very cruel, Duanmu took away Xiao Hong's only ticket, abandoned Xiao Hong, and saw Xiao Hong with a big belly and fell alone on the dock and could not get up, I could not help but burst into tears. Such sadness and loneliness and helplessness, how to be strong people to survive.
Xiao Hong said: "My separation from Xiao Jun is the end of one problem, and Duanmu is the beginning of another problem. Perhaps, everyone is an anonymous person, and their true face is not known. ”
Later, in order to escape the war, Xiao Hong went to Hong Kong, unfortunately fell ill, and finally could not withstand the pain of illness, and died at the age of 31.
A shining star in the literary world, like an isolated snow lotus, walked on the road of finding love and pursuing love all his life, and finally died tragically. What is left to future generations is the heartache that penetrates the back of the paper, the strength of life, the struggle and helplessness of death.
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Looking back on Xiao Hong's life, the reason why she has been looking for love and chasing love is that her original family has not been able to give her warmth, so that she can't forget the happy times when she and her grandfather lived briefly. When a person lacks the warmth of love, she will try her best to get closer to the sun, even if she is crushed to pieces, even if she is like a moth to a fire, she will try her best to pursue.
Xiao Hong once interpreted herself this way: "The greatest pain and misfortune of my life is because I am a woman. ”
In the context of that era, I think this is one aspect of the reason, more should be that she is on the road to freedom and love, did not learn to be independent, did not learn not to cling to men to live bravely.
Xiao Jun later commented on Xiao Hong: "It can also be said that in the literary career, she is a victor! In terms of her will to live, she is a weak, a loser, a tragedy! ”
The pursuit of freedom requires extraordinary courage, but there must also be capital for independent survival, and without this condition to support oneself to live well, it is like asking for a fish in the wood, which is destined to be hit by reality and bleed, and let yourself be scaled all over the body. This is also the fundamental reason why she has been abandoned by men again and again.
Make a living and then make love, have the ability to survive, have the ability to heal themselves, and women can really get the freedom and love you want.
The love of Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun is warm and sincere, and finding a partner with a high degree of soul fit is the happiest thing in life. This is one of the reasons why after Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun parted ways in contradictions, Xiao Hong was in deep pain and could not extricate herself, and her body and mind were seriously injured.
If Xiao Hong is not in a hurry to drag the pregnant body, marry the next man again, learn to heal herself, learn to give up, learn to survive independently, and learn to be a strong woman with high self-confidence and autonomy in spiritual will, maybe she will not let her body and soul be so deeply destroyed, then maybe she will not die young.
Snow is afraid of the sun grass is afraid of frost, and being a human being is afraid of hurting the heart.
Xiao Hong said: "He is my lover, my benefactor, the one who really makes my soul tremble." "I love Xiao Jun, and I still love today." He was a good novelist, an intellectual comrade, who struggled with it, but it was too painful to be his wife. ”
One is sentimental, the other is frank and bold; one is a girl who does not grow up, and the other is a bloody man. The chaotic love affair between Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun is destined to be incomparable to old age and carry each other forever.
Thinking of Xiao Hong's brilliant writing: "I will be with the blue sky and clear water forever, leaving half of the 'Red Chamber' for others to write... Half of his life was met with white eyes and cold treatment, and he died first, unwilling and unwilling! "It's sad and painful!
epilogue:
Xiao Hong's tragedy is not only caused by the times, life can not be independent, too eager for love, too dependent on love character, should be her fatal culprit!
Nowadays, social stability, economic development, this is also the golden age that belongs to each of us, in order to pursue the true sense of freedom and love we want, then try to ride the wind and waves, independent, understand love will also love, fate in their own hands, in order to live the perfect life we want!
Text/A Curtain of Dreams WQ
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