Xiao Jun
Cao Xuequan, a famous poet of the Ming Dynasty, once had a famous sentence throughout the ages: "Every time there are more slaughtered dogs in righteousness, most of the negative hearts are readers."
Two lines of words, only a dozen words, but the emotional entanglements that have plagued the world for thousands of years are summed up vividly.
Throughout china's modern history, there are many unarmed peasants who dare to resist the enemy to the death, literati and inkers who are ideologically advanced and skillfully written, and a few who can stand alone emotionally.
Women and marriage have always stimulated the creative inspiration of some poets and writers, but they are mostly ruthless.
Xiao Jun and the literati
While shouting to abandon the old customs of feudal marriage, they refused to let go of their arrogant patriarchal ideas, so that they were named "abusive".
In ancient times, there was Yuan Shu and now there is Xiao Jun, but compared with the two, Xiao Jun's emotional and marital behavior is even worse.
In 1922, Xiao Jun was 15 years old, and in his youth and ignorance, Xiao Jun did not know what it meant to have an arranged marriage arranged for him by his parents.
Nevertheless, he calmly accepted all the arrangements, and also under the shroud of the old ideas, his wife Xu Shufan kept to himself, was virtuous and virtuous, and truly achieved the true meaning of the person as his name.
However, the growth rate of men is always amazingly fast, and women are willing to wear the hat of "three from four virtues" and let men roam freely in the outside world of flowers and flowers.
Spirited Xiao Jun
In 1917, a wave of new literature was set off throughout the country, which made Xiao Jun, who had been depressed since childhood, suddenly find a new direction in life.
Under the guidance of the impassioned words of literary leaders from all walks of life, he was full of ambition and wanted to step into the military camp to realize his dream of military service.
He did it, and he also woke up, but the road to serving the country was full of thorns and not empty of blood, unfortunately, the darkness of the Balhu army camp hindered Xiao Jun's belief in killing the enemy.
This time he put down the barrel of the gun, resolutely picked up the ink-stained pen shaft, and began to stir up the words, express emotions, and dung was ten thousand households.
Xiao Jun, who was new to the literary world, took poetry as the preface and prose as the basis, and vividly depicted the national conditions of warlords fighting each other and the people's lack of livelihood.
Xiao Jun's first wife, Xu Shufan
At this moment, he fully awakened that the barrel of the gun was not easy to hold, and he was determined to save China from the barrel of the pen, so he packed up his bags and went to Harbin and began to engage in literary creation.
"The world is big, warlords are fighting, barbarian invasions, we should continue to strengthen ourselves and contribute to the country, you don't have to wait, you can arrange your own life later."
Xiao Jun's one line is Xu Shufan's two lines of tears, a full ten years of marriage, but now it has been sent away by "a piece of paper to report the country".
Having a wife will affect a man's loyalty to the country?
In the final analysis, it is just not love, that Xiao Jun, who has lost his mother due to his father's violence since childhood, can have some sincerity about his feelings.
His desire to save the country is true, but it is also true that he abandoned his wife, and this double extreme dangerous personality not only achieved Xiao Jun's literature, but also frustrated Xiao Jun's emotional concept.
Xiao Jun was lecturing in the Martial Arts Hall
In 1932, Xiao Jun sought a job in the Harbin International Association Newspaper, and during his work, he was repeatedly entrusted by Pei Xinyuan, the editor of the supplementary magazine, to deliver newspapers and periodicals to Xiao Hong, who lived in the hotel.
When Xiao Jun first met Xiao Hong, he had just been with his wife at home and had not long been gone, and he did not have a good feeling for women in marriage, not to mention that Xiao Hong was abandoned by her lover and was pregnant.
In Xiao Jun's eyes, Xiao Hong is just a "love brain" without compromise, but she is rich and talented, and she writes good poetry, Xiao Jun can't help but have a deep friendship with her.
In this way, the two of them became fond of each other and began this unforgettable love-hate relationship, although Xiao Hong was about to be born at that time and owed a foreign debt.
Xiao Jun held out his hands to her without hesitation, that for Xiao Hong, it was undoubtedly the brightest light in the night and the warmest sun in the cold winter.
Xiao Jun and Xiao Hong
At this point, Xiao Hong fell in love with Xiao Jun in front of him uncontrollably, although Xiao Jun's life was not rich, and his weekdays were full of dry steamed bread dipped in salt water.
Seeing that Xiao Hong was about to be born, the life of the two became more difficult, and after the child was born, Xiao Hong gave it to others to feed without hesitation.
In the future, in Xiao Hong's expectations, in the gentle township where the two of them are like glue, the narrow cabin on the side, there is Xiao Jun, there is a desk, and the sun that still rises tomorrow.
All this is so beautiful that it is intoxicating, and every time Xiao Jun picks up the lights and fights at night, he strives to write a book for the manuscript to be published tomorrow.
Xiao Hong always lay on her side on the wooden bed, staring obsessively at Xiao Jun's tough silhouette and thoughtful lips.
Sometimes Xiao Hong stared at her and fell into a trance, even when Xiao Jun turned back to talk to her, she just smirked foolishly, but she couldn't hear anything about it.
Later, in order to develop better, the two went to Shanghai hand in hand, and Xiao Hong also began to try writing with the help of Xiao Jun.
The two also jointly published a collection of literary works, "Trek", at first when Xiao Hong tried to write, he signed his name as Zhang Xianying, and then changed his surname to Xiao Minghong in order to co-create with Xiao Jun.
This can also show the two people's commitment and determination to co-create, but the author has a deeper view, such as Xiao Jun's hidden "machismo" feelings.
This also laid the groundwork for the two's subsequent emotional crisis, but what prompted the marriage to split was in addition to personality differences, as well as Xiao Hong's growing fame.
Xiao Jun and Xiao Hong, whose cracks first appeared
When the "Trek" collection came out, Xiao Hong likened it to the "crystallization of love" between the two, and thus gained some attention in literature.
Subsequently, Xiao Hong successively published novels such as "Abandoned Child", "Field of Life and Death", "Lonely Life", "Grain of Sand" and so on.
Among them, "The Field of Life and Death" was even more prefaced by Mr. Lu Xun, and the afterword written by Mr. Hu Feng was even more set off in the history of the literary world.
Xiao Hong became famous in one fell swoop, and because of this, the feelings between the two were also shaky under Xiao Hong's growing fame.
In terms of Xiao Jun's pride, he could not accept that his wife's fame was higher than his own, nor could he accept that her wife was favored by many literati and scholars.
As a result, machismo mixed with men's self-esteem, prompting Xiao Jun to no longer objectively evaluate the works of his wife Xiao Hong.
Xiao Jun and Xiao Hong when the rift is deep
"Those are all women's casual writing and playing, not worth mentioning", Xiao Jun's slightly contemptuous tone deeply stung Xiao Hong's heart.
Along with this, there is also the alcoholism and night no return of her husband Xiao Jun, compared with her wife Xiao Hong, who is above her literary attainments, the flattery of the ignorant girls outside is even deeper than Xiao Jun's heart.
Since then, Xiao Jun's pen has not written a single poem written for Xiao Hong, nor has a single word of praise been said to Xiao Hong.
No matter how Xiao Hong struggled, she could never escape the prison of this emotional entanglement, in the final analysis, in this feeling, It was Xiao Hong's love that was better than Xiao Jun's.
It's just that this love has changed shape, and there is no longer the warmth of the past, only Xiao Jun's dismissive depreciation and uneasy fist remains.
Friends commemorate Xiao Hong
In 1936, Xiao Hong could not resist the pain of this love life, so she traveled to Japan with a broken heart and created the essay "Lonely Life".
Later, he published a series of popular masterpieces such as "Grain of Sand", but the source of all this creation came from the love wounds of her husband Xiao Jun.
After Xiao Hong crossed the ocean, Xiao Jun exposed the third party who could not see the light in ordinary days to the public's vision.
Completely ignoring his wife Xiao Hong's instructions before leaving: "Let's calm down for a while and see each other again", it is obvious that Xiao Hong's departure is just to avoid her husband's unscrupulous "stealing".
However, Xiao Jun used this blank time to unscrupulously tangle with Xu Yuehua, the wife of his friend Huang Yuan, and even created a scandal of "pearl tire dark knots".
No one in the literary circles is aware of Xiao Jun's scandal, and Xiao Jun also knows that the matter has been exposed and cannot be ended, so he can only ask Xiao Hong, who is far away in Japan, to return to China to "handle" the matter.
From a woman's point of view, the husband has cheated many times and kept changing people, and also caused the wife of a friend to become pregnant, and such an underhanded thing should be adjusted by the original partner.
This is not only absurd, but also contrary to human morality, what can Xiao Hong do?
She had already given Xiao Jun countless opportunities, and even lowered her body and pretended to be a young girl to please him.
However, everything Xiao Jun did pushed Xiao Hong into the abyss of emotion, she was painful and tortured, her heart was broken and unwilling, this time she had no room to force this relationship.
In 1938, Xiao Hong personally ended this 6-year relationship until his early death due to illness in 1942, and did not forget to leave the royalties of "The Field of Life and Death" to Xiao Jun.
Xiao Hong's Tomb
In the face of Xiao Hong's death, Xiao Jun only calmly confessed: "She is stubborn and simple and talented, I have loved her, but she is not suitable for being a wife, at least not for my wife."
I don't know how Xiao Jun felt when he took the royalties of the "Field of Life and Death" left by Xiao Hong before his death, but now such a cold and calm statement undoubtedly corroborates Xiao Jun's thin feelings and selfishness.
And Xiao Jun has always said something about his abusive feelings: "I just met some people who can produce special emotions in some special time."
Literati are not ordinary in speech, and they can always use some logic that is different from ordinary people to describe some unbearable things so grandly.
In fact, as early as xiao Hong decided to break up, Xiao Jun had already encountered a new "love" in Lanzhou.
Xiao Jun's wife, Wang Defen
The girl's name was Wang Defen, a dancer of the Lanzhou Art Troupe, and she not only had a light and graceful posture, but also a small and cute red lip.
That was exactly the appearance of the woman that Xiao Jun had always loved, just as he had originally been infatuated with Xiao Hong, and he was also attracted by his innocent girlish feelings.
As Xiao Hong said before his death: "He wrote poems to those new lovers, just as he originally wrote to me, and he will write to more lovers in the future."
It can be seen that Xiao Hong is the person who knows Xiao Jun best, and he not only writes poems to Wang Defen, but also writes love letters with unremitting pursuit.
Those writing that flooded in order to obtain the hearts of beauties are now full of "touching" love and affection when they are recalled.
"Whenever I approach you, there is always an inexplicable warmth around me, let me snuggle in your arms like a lamb, let you touch it, it will make me sleep more sweetly." 」
Xiao Jun and his wife and daughter
At this point, I can't help but feel that Xiao Jun is indeed a master who will capture the heart of a young girl, and the author can fully imagine how "happy" Wang Defen's expression should be when he read this letter.
One is a pure love and beautiful girl with 18-year-old youth, and the other is a young writer with a full belly and a big name.
If this man is not Xiao Jun, the author must feel that these two people are not only the perfect match, but also an impeccable match made in heaven.
It's just a pity that the person who wrote such a heart-stirring sentence is a prodigal disciple who is not out of the question, and it is false to say that he did not pinch the sweat for Wang Defen.
But the flower season girl could not withstand the 38 love letters after all, and the offensive was like a broken bamboo, she broke through the shackles of the family and boarded the thief ship of Xiao Jun.
One is the impulsive girl who "swore to be old with Xiao Jun's white head", and the other is the old fritters in the love field: "The neck of the knife holder must also love to the end".
Xiao Jun, an anti-Japanese writer
In this way, the two took the shallow "vows" that could not withstand the wind and waves, and published a newspaper to get married, which was also the first time that Xiao Jun announced their marriage in a bright and upright manner.
Perhaps Xiao Jun really fell in love with Wang Defen at that time, and he firmly believed that he would protect her for the rest of his life, and Wang Defen also firmly believed that Xiao Jun was the true love of his life.
Unfortunately, it backfired, and Wang Defen's inferiority ultimately determined that even if she suffered in this life, she could not give up Xiao Jun.
After Xiao Jun's brief freshness to Wang Defen, he transformed into the uncompromising playboy.
"I may not be suitable to be a husband, but to be a permanent lover," Xiao Jun said to himself.
This was Xiao Jun's most sincere evaluation of himself for many years, but this time Xiao Jun had to break free of the emotional shackles more than any previous one.
Xiao Jun and Wang Defen
After all, Wang Defen has already given birth to 5 children for him, and it is not easy for Xiao Jun to cut off the connection with a family of seven.
Even if it is an excuse: "Afraid of organizational censorship, which is not good for the family", his wife Wang Defen was not at all moved: "I am not afraid of being implicated, I want to face it with you."
No matter how soft and hard Xiao Jun is, it seems that he cannot shake the heart of his wife Wang Defen, so Xiao Jun simply leaves home and goes to Beijing to live alone.
It is said that hunters' sense of smell is always different from ordinary people, and they can always smell the smell of "prey" in the vast "forest".
Xiao Jun is like this, although he is nearly half a hundred years old and the father of five children, he once again talked about juvenile madness when facing young and beautiful women.
The girl's name was Zhang University, listening to this domineering name, you can guess the girl's life, and sure enough, Zhang University is the daughter of Zhang Gongdu, a former major general of the National Government.
Xiao Jun and Zhang University's daughter family
To say that Xiao Jun is indeed gifted in attracting women, otherwise why are the women who are "targeted" by him, there is no one who is crazy for him.
Zhang University naturally did not escape from the palm of Xiao Jun's hand, although in the social environment at that time, the combination with Xiao Jun was like acting on the tiger's head.
Even so, Zhang University still insisted on being with Xiao Jun, and also gave birth to a daughter for him, but people have clothes and branches, and Zhang University's daughter also needs a name.
Otherwise, how to survive in this chaotic world, Xiao Jun knows the stakes, but if he is not careful, the whole family will be implicated.
In this way, he still firmly divorced his wife and wanted to give Zhang University a name, but unfortunately, the method of demolishing the east wall to make up for the west wall would face the same "end" for Xiao Jun.
On the one hand, Wang Defen, the original match who is obsessed with five children, and on the other hand, Zhang Daxue, the daughter of Xiao Jun, who is desperate to put the door.
Xiao Jun is in Beijing
Both of them did everything for Xiao Jun, until later Xiao Jun's letter completely shattered Zhang University's heart.
"If the above examines your relationship with me, it will be pushed on your father, saying that he is the one who brokered you to corrupt me."
The father who wanted to come to Zhang University was a general of the old National Government, and the organization would not let go of the censorship, but after all, it was Zhang University's father.
In order to protect Mingzhe, Xiao Jun also wanted Zhang University to add an extra crime to his father, which Zhang University never expected.
Even so, she still loved Xiao Jun, even if he did not explain the reason for the matter according to Xiao Jun's wishes, Xiao Jun was imprisoned for 8 years.
In 1979, Xiao Jun returned to the literary world, accompanied by his wife Wang Defen, who never abandoned him.
Zhang University had already chosen to go to the south alone to live because of Xiao Jun's coldness, and would not see him until his death.
Just bitter that, at a young age, he was lost to his grandmother's adopted daughter Xiao Yi, and in the end, the child's misfortune came from the disharmony of the original family.
Throughout Xiao Jun's life, he was debauched and loved freedom, and never gave any woman a true heart, even his wife Wang Defen, who had accompanied him for 50 years.
As the initiator of this series of emotional tragedies, Xiao Jun still refuses to admit the location of his own problems.
He once said with great conceit: "Each of them is not what I want, they are all stupid people, they consume my energy and squeeze me without being aggressive".
Now that Xiao Jun was nearly old, his restless heart could no longer stir up a ripple, so he could only return to his wife Wang Defen, who was inseparable from him.
At this point, I can't help but feel admiration for Ms. Wang Defen, as a woman who, in order to complete the small family, will not hesitate to bear the burden of humiliation and exhaust her life waiting for the prodigal son to return.
Xiao Jun and Wang Defen family portraits
Just this time, Fang Hua passed away, but looking back, in that chaotic era, a woman with five children, where can she go?
Now Wang Defen would rather sacrifice himself, complete his ego, and achieve such a degree to achieve family consummation, which is Xiao Jun's creation.
If you love, please love deeply, if you don't love, please leave with a clear heart, the world is so big, you don't have to miss the whole year because of the fault of one person.