What kind of soul, what kind of nourishment. Wang Xiaobo, who is born in science and engineering, has sharp speech and meticulous logic. In the hearts of many people, Wang Xiaobo is not only a writer, but also a kind awakener.
There are many stars in the sky, and there is only one Wang Xiaobo on the ground.
In "The Silent Majority", Wang Xiaobo told about this incident that happened in his family during the difficult period of life:
One day, when dinner was served, Wang Xiaobo's brother found that everyone had a small piece of bacon at the bottom of the bowl, so he rushed to the balcony with ecstasy in his heart and shouted to the world: Our family has eaten big fish and big meat! As a result, Le Jisheng was dragged back by his father and beat him up fiercely.
After his father was so educated, when Wang Xiaobo heard others say, "How happy and sacred we are, others are suffering, we are not suffering," and so on, he always thought in his heart, if we really encountered so many beautiful things, would it be better not to say it?
Wang Xiaobo is the second oldest in the Wang family, and his personality has always been relatively deep. Because he was weak and sick and overly supplemented with calcium since he was a child, he did not change after the beginning of puberty, and he actually became more and more "ugly" and more personality.
Fortunately, people have always tolerated talents a lot, and they are not required to spend the same amount of money as talented women to pass, plus the love of literary and artistic young people at that time did not need to talk about savings and hardware conditions such as houses and cars.
Only then did Wang Xiaobo, who was "highly poor and ugly", have the opportunity to learn from Shen Congwen's strength in chasing Zhang Zhaohe, relying on a classic Wang's love letter (everyone is very familiar with it), and finally chased Li Yinhe, who was a street worker in a small factory, and became one of the most worthy achievements in his lifetime.
So much so that readers often think that the "Wang Er" Figure of the hanging Er Lang Dang in the novel "Golden Age" should be his tall and thin "ghost appearance".
"The Golden Age" is undoubtedly regarded by Wang Xiaobo as an elegy to youth.
The 21-year-old Wang Er was supposed to make a difference in the golden age to which he belonged, but in a certain era he was reduced to a cattle herding youth, unable to display his ambitions and talents. In this way, it is not difficult to understand that "Golden Age" is the story of human nature distorted under the special era environment, and it is difficult to survive by the trend to the point of youth and desolation.
In the eyes of the majority of readers, the era trilogy includes the hanging child Lang Dang in "The Golden Age", and the slightly naïve Wang Er obviously cannot erase the shadow of Wang Xiaobo's young years.
Although Fan Yusu said that when she was in elementary school, the most popular literary publications were Zhiqing Literature, which was full of tricks to teach people to escape train tickets, steal vegetables from their hometowns and pick fruits from their hometowns, and stew dog meat in large rural areas...
Wang Xiaobo said that if he wanted to cite the kindest time in his life, it must be when he was 17 years old when he first went to the south to join the team: he wanted to liberate all mankind and did not think of himself at all. He never bargains for the things he buys from his hometown, and he never gives less money.
Wang Xiaobo once heroically ran to the Nongba Farm in Yunnan to join the queue, who knew that two years later, he would abandon his armor and return to his hometown.
When he reached the top of the pineapple and stepped on the sugarcane on the top of his head, and wrestled yunnan, where he reached out and reached out with a large number of thumbs and thick peanuts, he found that Zhiqing's life was actually very hard. Many people have fallen ill due to the water and soil, including Wang Xiaobo.
In fact, that was his greatest pain, but there were no books to read.
For Wang Xiaobo, a young man of literature who likes to pry open his father's cabinet to find books, this is simply an unbearable torture for Wang Xiaobo, a young man of literature and art who likes to read like meat.
The Roman poet Odvi's "Metamorphometer" that he brought with him was estimated to be borrowed and borrowed from the university library, and the books that were rarely appreciated and understood were constantly borrowed, and finally the bones were tragically gone.
Eighty percent of the chess that Wang Xiaobo has played in his life is in the queue. This turned him from a pretty good chess player into a hopeless mediocre man—just pulling together the words chess and interstitial would cause disgust.
Therefore, Wang Xiaobo will never write such a boring thing as playing chess without doing anything into the "Golden Age". Although he was famous in the essay world during his lifetime, he considered the level of fiction to be far higher than that of essays, and once said, "'The Golden Age' is my darling." "It shows that he loves it."
Not everyone can be indifferent to the life that is set up, and live a slowly hammered life with peace of mind.
Wang Xiaobo packaged Wang Er, who did not want to be silent, as a bastard, while Chen Qingyang, who was implicated by her husband and was innocently sent to labor, was a lady known as a "broken shoe" in front of the crowd.
The term "broken shoes" is derived from the old days of prostitutes or prostitutes. Because they often hang an embroidered shoe outside the gate of the house as a pretext to attract guests to the door. When the sun and rain come down, the new shoes become "broken shoes".
Everyone unanimously identified Chen Qingyang as a "broken shoe" reason, which was beautiful. Beautiful women are often thrown dirty water - special periods, so that people with ulterior motives can justifiably criticize her and enjoy it.
As Jia Pingwa said in his speech at Fudan University, in response to a question from a female college student:
"For people of our time, the hardships of life were beyond your way of imagining. The more difficult the days, the more things are suppressed, and women become the vents of the times. ”
Therefore, Chen Qingyang, a young and beautiful female doctor, naturally became the object of the collective imagination of the farm men.
Wang Er, who originally had no friendship with Dr. Chen, had to rely on injections to relieve the pain after he was injured by heavy agricultural work. It is hated that the female doctors of this team are not gentle at all, and every time they pull out the needle, they always have to bring a piece of meat.
When he was miserable, he thought of Chen Qingyang, thinking that the beautiful female doctor, perhaps the medical skills and appearance are more trustworthy, so he did not want to go far away to find her for injections.
At that time, Chen Qingyang, who was arrogant and arrogant, refused to go along with the "broken shoes" and was at a time when she was oppressed by external public opinion, so wang Er, who appeared in time, gave her longing for sympathy and comfort, which became a life-saving straw for her.
A ridiculous affair that destroys oneself in order to survive and one who carries the pot to prove existence occurs.
Wang Er and Chen Qingyang, a young man and woman who are suffering from the same disease, naturally came together from simple friendship, and life has changed its mood: we love each other, that is, to eliminate harm for the people.
After all, treating shamelessness with more shamelessness is a good way to resist absurdity.
The "sister-brother friendship" of the two people in the same boat is constantly practiced in the combination of the body. Only under great pressure did the two become an ally, and after each fight they would mend the devastation of their hearts with a secret.
In the gray years of their lives, male and female love is nothing more than an unusual act of resistance. Therefore, break the rumors with actions, secretly run to the mountains to spend the "honeymoon", actively cooperate with the criticism and onlookers of the crowd, and use literary and aesthetic freehand words to paint and color the writing style inspection.
This, on the contrary, makes the bored crowd, who are extremely poor in spirit, and who use the lantern of criticism to satisfy their reverie of the wind and moon, stop seriously torturing them.
Wang Xiaobo said: The more sad I am, the more hippie I am.
He wrote the most intimate sex in traditional culture in an incomparably absurd and frank manner, giving a spicy mockery - only because of the original natural feelings between men and women, it was once regarded as the beast of the flood of adultery.
"The Golden Age" focuses on depicting the struggles of the spiritual world, and the ups and downs of the individual's fate are less important. Wang Xiaobo borrowed the cloak of love to find an outlet for human nature that could not see the light of day under heavy repression--to resist with the catharsis of the body.
From beginning to end, Chen Qingyang never had soul love for Wang Er. The seemingly sister-brother love between them is just a story of men and women struggling in hardships and hardships, with sex and love to warm each other.
They are not the same people after all. Once the river of history crossed the canyon to the plains and returned to normal, Chen Qingyang immediately abandoned Wang Er and left, and many years later the old song was repeated, but it was only a fruitless sadness.
The Golden Age tells us that no one can die as a teenager.
Man has his name, and literature has his luck. Wang Xiaobo, who died young, may have missed his golden age, but he wrote his youth in his own way.
When I first read this passage from The Golden Age, many people couldn't get back to God for half a day. Especially the uncles and aunts whose youth is drifting away, their chests seem to have suddenly been hammered:
I was twenty-one years old that day, and in the golden age of my life, I had a lot of extravagance... I felt like I was going to be fierce forever and couldn't hammer me with anything. "
They lament that they once looked back in their golden age, but it was only a time of infancy. The sun slowly left the midday sky and fell from the youthful backbone that was bent a little by the hammer of life, and the eyes were desolate—no one could fight forever.
Once regarded as an enlightenment reading "Golden Age", many people only read the deep pity under Wang Xiaobo's hippie as they grew older; they understood why the ancients always sighed that Lin Hua thanked Chunhong, too hurried; popular songs had to keep singing that young people were all red...
Although Feng Tang said that in addition to Wang Xiaobo's interesting, the text of the science and engineering man was not literary enough, and it was not so advanced as his fans evaluated it. But he also said:
You can encounter unattainable things, including the courtyard with trees in the back sea, the jade with workers in xia dai, the clouds at this moment, and you in your twenties.
Feng Tang
As well as the comparison between this sentence and Wang Xiaobo's, whose literary style is good for the time being, the forty-year-old middle-aged uncle and the young man Wang Er are undoubtedly a nostril outlet.
When Wang Shuo, a disciple of the courtyard, was sixty years old, he also remembered "Sunny Days", and once said the following words compared with what Wang Xiaobo said, and he couldn't help but marvel at how similar they were:
"I used to think that life was endless, and the future was completely different. Now, I'm stuck in my own future, I haven't found myself with any real change, my dreams are as distant as when I was a child, the only difference is that I don't intend to achieve it anymore. ”
Although not everyone can be comfortable with the life that is set, it is not an easy task for mavericks like Wang Xiaobo to leave a place for the mind to grow wildly.
Although generations will eventually grow old, fortunately, there are always people who are young.
April 11, 2022, is the 25th anniversary of Wang Xiaobo's death, and I would like to remember him with this article.