Author: Insight South Wind
In 1969, 17-year-old Wang Xiaobo resolutely went to Yunnan to join the team despite the opposition of his family.
However, he vowed to break into the world, and as soon as he arrived at the farm, he found that everything around him was trapped in a unified mold.
People need to do farm work seriously during the day, read quotations in the morning and evening, and not be left behind once.
Pigs and cattle, on the other hand, must honestly breed offspring and desperately eat chaff to the table.
Among the many sentient beings who are submissive, there is only one pig that is different, just do what it wants to do, go where it loves, and look free.
Wang Xiaobo was surprised to see it, so he rarely used animals as the protagonists and wrote the essay "A Maverick Pig".
Between the lines, there is four or two pounds of humor, there is irony that penetrates into it, and there is compassion for you and me trapped in the prison of fate.
When people reach middle age, mud and sand fall.
Who can escape the mallet of life, who is not crushed and beaten to the point that even pigs are inferior.
1
Life is a pig-killing knife
Kill all the sharpness in you and me
"A Maverick Pig" records what Wang Xiaobo thought when he lived in the countryside.
When he first arrived in the countryside, Wang Xiaobo was curious about everything around him.
Before he was assigned to feed the pigs, he thought that the life of the pigs should be free.
Hungry to eat, thirsty to drink, have nothing to talk about love.
But he soon realized that each pig was saddled with its own "mission."
Some pigs have to mate and give birth to become fertility machines, and some pigs are responsible for growing meat for table food.
Although the human arrangement caused the pigs pain, most of them eventually accepted.
Only the black and thin pig with bright eyes was particularly dishonest, so unique that Wang Xiaobo could not forget it for decades, and even respectfully called him "Brother Pig".
In terms of name, it is a meat pig, and it should be nested in the pen to eat, drink, and feed its fat, waiting to be slaughtered in the future.
But it doesn't listen to the arrangement.
Wandering around all day long, either jumping over the pigsty like a goat or jumping onto the roof like a wild cat.
It also refuses to be castrated, and if anyone dares to approach with a knife, it will scare people away with a loud yell.
Its pickiness about food is also eye-catching, and the porridge cooked with non-fine rice bran is not eaten, which often causes the eyes of its companions to be red and jealous.
What's even more amazing is that it does not lie in the circle after eating, but has to jump on the roof to bask in the sun, and enthusiastically imitates the sound of car horns.
Because it was so vividly imitated, it misled the young people who usually listened to the whistle to finish work, and they ended work an hour early.
For a long time, the farm leaders have long been deeply troubled by this pig that does not listen to everything and is different everywhere.
They met and unanimously decided to hunt it down.
In this regard, Wang Xiaobo felt incredible, when there are uncontrollable "aliens" in life, must they be "driven to death"?
If you think about it, that's always the harsh reality.
Once you and me, also like the maverick pig, with an angular heart, a long spike, a rigid setting of refusing life, and wanting to jump out of the shackles of rules.
However, once you get out of the worldly track and act a little out of line, you will suffer all kinds of trials and beatings from society.
Just like Wang Xiaobo, who loves writing, in that era of pure literature, he was unruly, using straightforward and rude language to express his chest, and penetrating human nature with absurd and playful stories.
As a result, after writing novels for 8 years, he not only did not earn manuscript fees, but also was constantly criticized by the outside world for unhealthy content.
Just like a girlfriend who is nearly 30 years old and has not married, she is dedicated to achieving success in her career.
However, he couldn't stand the tears of the seven aunts and eight aunts: "What's the use of doing a good job?" A woman's destination is, after all, marriage. ”
There are also male staff in the office building, who can't stand boring work, difficult customers, and are ready to shoot cases.
However, a sentence from relatives and friends made him stop: "Men have to support their families and children, can they do without a stable job?" ”
When we are young, we always want to change our lives.
Helpless people only realized in middle age that they were clinging to the door by it, pressing on the cutting board with a knife and chopping and chopping.
You have been stripped of your self-respect, I have been stripped of your pride, and each of you has been left with scars.
But this is life, not tossed to the point of pain and not wanting to live, the body is incomplete, what is called life!
2
Seek life in the face of fate
No one is easy
Heard a quote:
"There are two souls living in the body of every middle-aged person: one who swears to death is a teenager, forever jealous as hatred; A ctenophore, low to the dust. ”
A person can have such two sides of the separation, why not because of life.
If it is not for survival, who is willing to ignore the hot heart and clamp his tail to be a man?
Wang Xiaobo was deeply touched by this.
In the past, people have rounded up Brother Pig several times.
But Wang Xiaobo is not worried, because the pig brother runs like a torpedo, which can knock the dog out of the way, even a hundred people can't catch it.
But this time is different, Brother Pig is facing a musket dangling.
Wang Xiaobo fell into a huge conflict, according to his friendship with Brother Pig, he should wave two pig-killing knives and rush out and fight side by side with Brother Pig.
But he backed down.
He felt that it was too shocking to stand out for a pig.
More importantly, he had a very real reason: he did not dare to confront the leadership.
Wang Xiaobo remembers very well that for a while, he was seriously ill, coupled with hunger, and he was very ill.
So he cried and applied to the leader to return to the city to recuperate.
As a result, the leadership did not approve.
The reason is that the situation was very good at that time, and Wang Xiaobo actually did not follow Lehe, but cried and had emotional problems.
In the end, Wang Xiaobo had to cheer up and show a positive and optimistic attitude according to what the leader said.
Yishu said: "Forcing people has always been life. ”
Under all the difficulties of life, the maverick pig still has the courage to express his anger and refuse to be incised and bound.
But people lost their joy, anger and sorrow, and did not even dare to say "no".
You see, Lao Zhang is groveling, obviously scolded by the leading customer, but he swallowed the phrase "don't do it", bowed his head and smiled "good received".
Look again, Lao Li is working hard to support himself, obviously bent over by the burden on his shoulders, but he gritted his teeth with red eyes, and encouraged himself to "endure again".
When people reach middle age, they really don't live as well as pigs.
Not only must he do his best to appease Gao Tang's white hair, but also strive to lift up his children under his knees, and even more so he must please his boss and boss...
Today whispered, tomorrow nodded and bowed, bothered to please everywhere, but forgot to take care of the bitter self.
Even if their hearts are already bitter, they still have to knock out their teeth and swallow blood, and they are aggrieved and tired to carry alone.
After all, if you want to live in the cold rice bowl of fate, there is no one in this world who is not bitter.
3
In a step-by-step life
Might as well be a maverick pig
Some people say that the appearance of middle-aged people being detained by life is too humble.
It's really not as brave and happy as Wang Xiaobo's pig brother.
Indeed, in the face of the siege of muskets and the bite of hunting dogs, Brother Pig never surrendered and calmly dealt with him.
After a few laps, Brother Pig broke through the encirclement and ran forward, swimming freely in the world ever since.
People are different, living in the world, always unable to help themselves, subject to various frameworks.
But writer Roland believes: "Sometimes people can't leave the box because of environmental conditions, but the heart can." ”
The former Wang Xiaobo was once at ease in the face of life settings.
But since meeting Brother Pig, he has discovered that there is another way to live life.
So, after a busy day of farm work, he read a book, did a few geometry problems, or scribbled on the mirror by moonlight, looking for another poetic world.
Slowly, Wang Xiaobo began to create on paper.
But like the maverick pig, he was not recognized by others at first, and often received abusive rejection letters.
At that time, he always comforted himself: the person who wrote the letter was probably scolded by the leader and found himself angry.
At the age of 37, Wang Xiaobo finally had the opportunity to publish his first collection of novels.
It can be edited to blow the eyeballs, manipulate the title, and change the novel with profound meaning into a vulgar stall literature.
Wang Xiaobo smiled and didn't care.
As long as he can share the ideas in the book with the reader, he can endure it.
He obeyed the arrangement of the magazine and endured the pain of compressing the painstakingly condensed "Red Whisk Night Run" from 180,000 words to 30,000 words.
Although the compressed work was still tragically killed due to content, Wang Xiaobo looked indifferent.
He waved his hand at the responsible editor who came to apologize, took out the truck driver's license he had just tested, and said with a smile, "I really can't get mixed up, I'll do it." ”
At this time, Wang Xiaobo was 45 years old.
He has no circle and no school, every work has been exhausted, and each one cannot be released, but he has never thought of giving up his admiration for the starry sky and the pursuit of writing.
In the long cold night, he walked alone, like an invincible ranger knight, straight to the sword and shadow of life, all the way to his golden age.
I am reminded of the words of the poet Mu Xin: "I must not waste my life in a conventional life, I want to overcome the whole era in me." ”
When a person reaches middle age, it is like climbing a halfway up a hill.
Before he had time to catch his breath, he was grabbed by life and pressed down his scalp.
But you and I cannot let life be humiliated because we have been pawns across the river; Let alone be slapped by fate, and smash the altar full of ideals one by one in fear.
No matter how turbulent the torrent of fate is, soldiers will come to block, water will come to cover the soil, as long as you do not take half a step back, sooner or later you will be able to cross the other side.
No matter how tough the realistic wrist is, as long as the face does not change color, there is no fear and fearlessness, and it can be fought against it to the end.
The heroism of middle-aged people is that after recognizing the cruelty of life, they still have their ideals and mavericks.
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I have read a paragraph of evaluation of Wang Xiaobo and deeply agree.
It is said that Wang Xiaobo is characterized by fun, but in fact, Wang Xiaobo is characterized by confrontation.
He is against time, against mediocrity, against life, and he completely instinctively resists something, defends something, so that the slightest dust has its own weight.
Yes, in this still absurd era, every middle-aged person who has reached the half-slope cannot escape the shackles of life and the hammer of real fate.
When you are confused and decadent, you may wish to watch "A Maverick Pig" to open up a way out of vulgarity and rebuild a heart that is not hammered.
You know, life has always bullied the soft and afraid of the hard, and those who are not comfortable with it will never be frustrated by it, and they will be able to live forever.
Give it a thumbs up and join you and me.