I have more than once had the opportunity to save my life, but the madness and impulse in my heart made me lose the last hope, I want to die but I can't die, because my debts can't be left to my parents and family, born as a person, not gambling to win, I advise friends who have not yet started gambling or are gambling, immediately close their hearts, the sea of suffering is endless, and turn back to the shore.
Heart
I was originally a well-behaved man in the eyes of my parents, colleagues, and leaders, who did not smoke, drink or play blindly. Moreover, many of my friends and colleagues have lost a lot of money because of gambling, and I have also heard a lot of things because of the death of gamblers. I should have taken it as a warning, but the obsession with money caused me to fall into the abyss.
Graduated in July 17 to join the work, just earned the first month's salary on the drift, first love to play cards with colleagues, there is a way to play called dry eyes, according to the remaining cards in the hand to calculate money, a five yuan, bomb doubled, play a big one can have a thousand and eight hundred wins and losses, then a lot of wages on hand, also did not buy a house to buy a car, in addition to the life cost of the rest of the whole Ho Ho, work for five years without a point left, count down to lose seven or eight thousand.
I am also keen to buy lottery tickets, two-color balls, big lotto, 3D, etc. every day without interruption, counting down to lose seven or eight. Originally, I was thinking of quitting gambling, because the house I bought for eight years, four or five thousand mortgages per month, I planned to work hard to earn money and pay it off as soon as possible. But the biggest nightmare crept in, I thought I would have a plain and smooth life, not seeking great wealth but small happiness, but...
I was so whimsical that I wanted to win back my mortgage of more than six hundred thousand yuan in two months, and I was so excited that I didn't sleep all night. The next day just finished breakfast and continued to play, the result was all lost and lost twelve thousand, I was so scared that I didn't want to play, originally to this I could still pay back the bill, and this is my second chance to save my life, but the head is hot who can't stop it, I want to recharge the money back, I played all night that day, the fast loan full loan out, into the eighty thousand, even before the twelve thousand a total of one hundred thousand.
When I saw the bank text message I received, I was really confused, and I completely understood, it was the dog village pinching me, giving me a small head out of the big head, I did not dare to tell my family, afraid that they would be sad. Don't dare to tell your girlfriend, afraid to break up with me. If I didn't have that crooked heart, I could have had a good year, in the first ten days of the first month of 2022, I poured my heart into ten thousand, and even won more than twenty thousand, fortunately I have not completely gone crazy, quickly withdraw to delete the App, and calculate a total of more than 80,000 losses.
From the beginning to today I lost almost 100,000 because of gambling, lost two years of mortgage, twenty years of mortgage hard let me make it into twenty-two years, really want to die, do not know how to continue life, I pay off the mortgage a month, car loan and gambling debt, I really did not expect that my life will have such a big detour, I really want to die a hundred now. I really don't have the confidence to live, now I can't sleep every day, seeing my parents' white hair, my remorse suddenly rises, secretly crying only afraid that my parents are sad for me, I haven't even bought a piece of clothing or even a mobile phone for my parents, and the money in my hands has been floated.
Because of this matter, I did not even buy a bouquet of flowers for my girlfriend on Valentine's Day, and at that time I only had more than a hundred meal money in my hand, and I did not dare to tell anyone about it at that time, only thinking that I would save money and try to pay off my debts for two years, and never touch such a life-threatening thing again.
Finally, I advise everyone not to let yourself lose a lot for the sake of small profits, the temptation of gambling is too great, do not try, because if you gamble, you have already lost from the beginning. A friend said that even if I went to prostitution, 100,000 people could get rid of prostitution. Gambling destroys not only themselves, but also their parents and family, because even if they are finally relieved, the debt will not disappear, and they will have to pay off the debt for us.
I confessed to my parents at this year's Lantern Festival, my mother did not say anything to me Kari transferred eighty thousand, originally this was for me to prepare to marry my daughter-in-law, I was really sad, but there is no regret medicine under the sky, I only have to completely quit gambling, work hard, and do my best to repay them later.
I'm now quitting all the stuff about gambling, lottery, mahjong, poker, online gambling and the like and never playing again in my life. I want to work hard to make money, honor my parents, take care of my girlfriend, and give myself a happy and beautiful life, and don't ruin myself because of gambling.