Lingzi is a woman with low self-esteem, and her inferiority stems from her mother, because her mother is a madman.
She hadn't called out to her mother for as long as she could remember, "Mom."
Her mother had never cooked a meal for her, washed a single piece of clothing, never held her in her arms and kissed her intimately, nor had she tied a braid once. And all this, which should have been a mother's obligation, her grandmother undertook it.
During the day, Grandma had to work in the fields, and when Lingzi was about to leave school, Grandma rushed home to cook for her, washed her feet and face at night, and then took her in her arms to tell the story of the Seven Fairies.
And the crazy woman, the woman who gave birth to herself but never raised herself, nor did she give her maternal love, was her own mother.
Ling Zi dreams of having a normal mother. However, Lingzi's mother is still crazy and insane, causing trouble everywhere, bringing a lot of pain and discrimination to her family and her.
Lingzi will never forget that snowy winter. She was in the classroom. Suddenly her crazy mother braved the wind and snow to break into the classroom, and her mouth kept shouting, "Lingzi, Lingzi, what about my Lingzi?" ”
Lingzi sat in the middle of the fourth row, her face red and her head bowed, eager to find a hole in the ground. Watching her mother stand on the podium and point fingers, watching her dress up, Lingzi's heart was like it was poured with boiling water, and it burned.
Lingzi finally walked to the podium in full view of everyone and wanted to take her mother. Looking up, she saw her crazy mother with a dirty face, her hair tied with an elastic band behind her head, and a few rusty keys on the elastic band, looking like a funny clown. Even more ridiculous was that her mother wore black cotton shoes on one foot and ragged sneakers of indistinguishable colors on the other.
Lingzi couldn't bear to look at her mother anymore, disgusted, and impatiently pulled her mother outside the classroom.
Her mother saw Lingzi pulling her out and struggled to say, "Good boy, don't follow your milk, your mother will come home and cook eggs for you." ”
Lingzi did not say a word or pulled her mother, her mother saw Lingzi ignoring her, pushed violently, and pushed Lingzi to the snow outside the classroom. After Lingzi got up from the ground, she ran away crying. Since then, her classmates have called her "crazy girl" behind her back.
Lingzi grew up with the nickname "Crazy Girl", and she hated her mother, and even more hatefully, her mother quarreled with her grandmother on the night of Chinese New Year's Eve of the year she just graduated, and pushed her grandmother to the point of breaking her hip. Grandma lay in bed for six days and died.
After graduation, Lingzi worked at the town's hospital, which was a mile or two away from her home.
Lingzi was on duty that day, and her mother somehow found her. Lingzi explained the work at hand and dragged her mother out of the department. But her mother took her hand tightly and said, "Lingzi, today you have a baby, and your mother will boil you two eggs." You see I'm holding it in my arms, it's not cold at all, let's eat it. ”
After listening to her mother's words, Lingzi looked at the face that was gradually aging, and somehow, tears flowed involuntarily. At that moment, she suddenly understood a truth, no matter how bad her mother was, she had given birth to herself after all, and in her chaotic world, she still loved herself.
Later, Lingzi made a decision, she took all her savings and sent her mother to a psychiatric hospital in the city for treatment.
After being discharged from the hospital, my mother seemed very calm and no longer ran around. Lingzi took her to her home and began to take care of her life, and kept calling her "Mom".