She finally took her mother on the road. The car passed through a tunnel, passing through a blue sea, and the wind blew her long hair recklessly.
Suddenly with a new idea, she asked her uncle to pull over and carry her mother's body to the beach alone.
She had heard people say that the sea was the most inclusive and could be accepted no matter how much pain she had suffered.
That's where the story begins!
Next, I will take you into "Sad Milk" with words to feel the after-effects and lingering fear of the Foreign War, and how can girls get out of their fears and live again?
Farsta's mother could not forget the pain of being raped by terrorists until her death.
It was a time of civil strife in Peru, in Farsta's hometown of the Andes, when a group of soldiers under the banner of "glory" were running amok and committing adultery and plunder.
Farsta's mother suffered greatly and was pregnant with her daughter, Fasta, when she was raped.
After Fasta was born, the milk infected her, fear penetrated her heart, she was not only often ghostly, but also afraid at every turn, and then began to bleed nose and faint.
Under the influence of her mother, she was full of resistance to men, and out of protection for herself, she followed the method of her neighbors and stuffed potatoes into her body.
When Farsta grew up, he left his hometown for Lima, peru, to help out at a wedding company owned by his uncle.
Lima has no terrible past, and Farta's work is often joyful, but inner uneasiness is still her norm.
When she was upset, she would sing to her mother in her hospital bed. This is the tacit understanding between her and her mother from childhood to adulthood.
When singing, the mother and daughter will temporarily forget the fear and get a moment of peace in their hearts.
But soon after, the mother in the hospital bed also died and left this painful world.
Farsta's uncle helped his mother clean and wrap the body. Her uncle planned to be buried at the time, but Farsta disagreed, insisting that she send her mother back to her hometown for burial. This is the mother's last wish, and she is buried with her father who died in the war.
The uncle compromised, offering only one condition: after some time, his daughter would be married, and Fasta would have to remove the body before the wedding.
In order to raise the cost of the funeral, Farsta found a part-time job and worked as a maid at a local mansion.
The mansion belonged to the descendants of the Spanish colonists, and the owner was a female pianist named Aida.
On the first day of Farsta's visit, he was afraid to face the luxurious mansion. When I saw the pictures of Spanish colonists hanging in the living room, I was even more frightened by the military uniform.
She rushed to the bathroom, singing to comfort herself while washing. Aida heard that she could sing and that her singing voice was different, so she left her.
In addition to Aida, there was also a gardener in the mansion. The gardener came every night at seven o'clock to work with Farsta. The departing maid instructed her at the time of handover work that the security had been very poor recently, and when someone came to call for the door, she needed to confirm the identity of the visitor before opening the door.
That night, after Fasta heard the call for the door, he deliberately asked the other party to reach out and see the thick cocoon of his palm before letting the man in, and then quickly left.
The gardener was a kind man, and he saw Farsta's fear. The next day, before Farsta could speak, he took the initiative to extend his hand for Farsta to examine it carefully.
On that day, the hostess did not create well, and threw the piano out of the window in one breath. Fasta looked at the broken glass on the ground and said, "It's like colored candy." ”
The gardener came over, stared at the piano seriously, and said, "Even if it is fragmented, it is still singing, can't you hear it?" ”
After listening to the gardener's words, Farsta's heart was touched. Fragmented, isn't that what your heart is?
After that, she no longer rejected the gardener as she had been, but her fear of men in general did not disappear. Even when she met a man on the road, Fasta had to be careful to avoid it, as if at every moment, the potatoes in her body reminded her that it was dangerous.
But potatoes were reminding her and hurting her, and once her uncle saw her fainting with a nosebleed and took her to the hospital.
Doctors said Falstad's blood vessels were thin, which was the direct cause of the nosebleed, but it was no big deal.
The worst thing is that the potatoes have sprouted in her body, causing inflammation in the uterus, and surgery is needed to remove the potatoes as soon as possible, otherwise Fasta's health will get worse and worse.
The uncle was stunned when he heard this, he had never heard of potatoes.
Only if Fasta's abnormality is due to the sequelae of "sad milk".
"Broken milk" is a local saying that means that children born of rape by women will be taken away by fear, just like Fasta.
The uncle tried to convince the doctor of this. He moved to Lima from an early age, which was peaceful, and he had never felt the chaos of war, so he could not appreciate the fear of Fasta and his mother passing by.
The uncle gave Fasta the right to do the operation. But as soon as Falstà got home, he threw the follow-up list into the basin. For her, the whole world was a spear, and only the potatoes in her body were shields.
When her mother was gone, she could only protect her virginity with potatoes.
At her cousin's engagement ceremony, a young lad wanted to pursue her, so he launched a love offensive against her, and Fasta ignored him: . The young man actually chased her to the front of the mansion, wanted to pick her up from work, and said that he had said hello to the woman who usually picked her up from work.
Fasta resolutely refused, and it was unimaginable to go with a strange man.
The gardener just came to work, saw this scene, and offered to send her home. Fasta hesitated for a moment, but agreed.
On the way home, Farsta talked about his village, and people had to stick to the wall when they walked, otherwise they would be caught by the wandering spirits on the street.
Farsta's words flickered, the gardener listened confusedly, he did not speak, but walked quietly behind her, quietly feeling her fear, so that the gardener sent Farsta home and watched her enter the house.
It was the first time Farsta had been sent home by a non-relative male, and she climbed to the top of the building and watched from a distance as the gardener left, and at this moment her heart fluctuated.
The next day, she actually learned the wedding practice, and greeted him with safflowers, but at the moment of opening the door, she shyly spit out the safflowers. This time, she and the gardener walked shoulder to shoulder into the mansion.
The gardener gave her a handful of colored candy, and she reached out to pick it up, but at the moment when she accidentally touched the gardener's hand, she flinched, and the candy was scattered on the ground. She was a woman with heavy memories, and she felt that no one would like a potato.
Afterwards, unwillingly, she ran to the gardener and asked, you have raised so many flowers, why didn't you grow potatoes? The gardener asked her, "Why don't you dare to go out on the street alone, is it too timid?" Except that death is impossible to avoid, everything else is something I have come up with, don't worry too much, potatoes are everywhere..."
Aida's music creation encountered a bottleneck again, she overheard Fasta humming songs, it was very beautiful, and she wanted to find inspiration from Fasta's songs.
She promised Fasta that if Farsta sang a song, she would give her a necklace with pearls on it, and when Farsta had finished singing all the songs, she would give her the whole necklace.
Fasta did not want to agree, because these songs were her personal memories with her mother and could not be sung to others.
But she was too anxious to raise her mother's funeral expenses, so she agreed to the deal.
She sang one song after another to Aida, and as she sang, Farsta's tears flowed.
The pearls that Aida promised to her also increased one by one, but they were only held and not handed over to her.
Aida changed her piano, composed the music as Farsta's ballad, and brought it to her concert.
Fasta also came to the scene, she heard Aida playing her ballad, smelled it backstage, it was her and her mother's ballad, she felt that something was wrong, but she did not say.
On the way back to the car, she still couldn't help but say that the audience seemed to like the song, she didn't expect that her and her mother's ballad would be liked by others, and she felt happy in her heart.
She didn't want to emphasize that it was her song, or that she didn't understand that it was wrong.
But Aida understood that she was angry with shame and felt that Fasta was poking at her, and even drove Fasta out of the car halfway through and then flew away.
Aida dismissed Fasta without giving her a penny or the pearl necklace she had promised.
Her cousin's wedding arrived as scheduled, but Farsta was still unable to send her mother's body away, and she cried and begged her uncle for forgiveness. The uncle naturally felt sorry for Farsta and could only sigh and give up.
On the day of the wedding, the cousin happily adjusted her wedding dress, the crowd happily took pictures, happily ate and drank, and they addressed the wedding, "This family has been troubled, but life will not stop, and new happiness will sweep away the old displeasure." Life is always full of surprises and full of joy. ”
When everyone was immersed in happiness, only Fasta was sullen, and she felt that happiness was far away from her, so she was more than usual.
The uncle could not bear Farsta's collapse, and while Farsta was asleep, he covered her nose and mouth to arouse her desire to survive.
Fasta woke up from his dream and ran out in fright. Her desire to survive was stronger than she had imagined, and she remembered her unfinished business in the dying realm—burying her mother.
She ran toward the mansion, the first time she had taken the initiative to walk alone in the crowd.
This time, she could not be afraid, and she reached into Aida's bedroom, and under the photo of the military uniform she had been afraid of, she picked up the pearls that belonged to her one by one.
But her strong composure came to an abrupt end when she reached the door.
She fainted again, and the doctor's warning was fulfilled, and if she didn't dispose of the potatoes in her body as soon as possible, her body would only get worse.
The gardener found her and sorted her out. She begged the gardener to take her to the hospital and take out the potatoes from her body.
The operation went well. When she woke up, she felt the same tranquility as a new life, the potato was gone, and she would start a new life again.
Later, the uncle used his own car to send his mother's body back.
Crossing a tunnel and passing through a sea, Fasta changed her mind, asking her uncle to stop and carrying her mother's body to the sea alone.
She had heard that the sea was the most inclusive and could be accepted no matter how much pain it was.
After burying his mother, Farsta returned to a normal life. On this day, there was a sudden knock at the door, and she opened the door but did not see anyone, only a pot of flowers on the ground.
She remembered asking the gardener why she didn't raise potato flowers? Now, the gardener had sent her.
The little, white, potato flower, even if people never noticed it, it still swung strongly in the wind.
"I've always wanted to make a film about how violence arises, not to find the criminals, but to go deeper and deeper into how violence exists invisibly between us." - Claudia
The movie "Sad Milk" is a Peruvian women's drama film released in 2009. The film tells the story of the hidden pain and resentment that remained among the people after the end of the horrific totalitarianism in Peru in those years, as well as the process of women healing their inner wounds and women's self-salvation.
In the world's impression, milk has always been sweet, closely related to reproduction, motherhood, feeding and even growth. But in this film, the milk becomes the conduit for the transmission of the disease, the source of Farsta's illness.
For Peru, I believe that everyone is very unfamiliar, and there is little understanding of the local customs and customs. Perhaps this movie is a window that God secretly opens, allowing people of different regions and cultures to communicate. Seeing Fasta walk home from the long staircase, from the bustling land to the barren and crowded, is like a once ignorant human being going to heaven in search of true knowledge.
As Tilda put it, "A man looks at the screen in a dark place and sees the rest of the world playing the same story in sync." It turns out that people in other countries and regions think the same way, and the difficulties they encounter and the problems of life are the same as ours. We are not alone in this world, and although some people say that life is the most important thing, this kind of encounter is more important to me than life. ”