Write to dear you

I don't know how your health is, every time the hearsay information is not very good, I want to see you, but there are too many concerns, I can only bury this grateful thought deep in my heart.

　　Time is so fast, in the blink of an eye you have almost retired for a year, in the past year, whenever I walk into the "deep palace compound" where I once worked, under the shade of lush trees, I will always involuntarily emerge with your amiable appearance, and I will always can't help but echo your teachings of following the temptations, and I will always involuntarily think of your endless doting along the way.

　　The year before, I went from the countryside to the provincial city to work, which is the dream of countless people, of course, I am also endlessly happy with a grateful heart, but the pressure of life that follows almost makes me breathless, the superficial joy hides the sadness in my heart, and the hard work erases the sadness in the soul. In this place where there are no relatives, the vast city can not find a trace of warmth, let alone a sense of home, feel like a duckweed drifting with the waves, more like a floating cloud in the sky moving with the wind.

　　Here, the unit is my place of labor, the bedroom is my home, and the trajectory of life at two points and one line is as depressed as winter.

　　I remember that winter was particularly cold, the cold rain was almost a winter, the biting cold wind blew on the face like a knife, and the thick fog covered the whole cold winter. In this miserable winter, I work hard with air conditioning during the day and curl up in a cramped bedroom at night. My bedroom was a strange one, except for the long wires hanging from the ceiling and two electric tubes, only a few elderly cabinets and two thin beds remained. The sheets were washed white, as if they were about to shatter; the mattress was even more pitiful, and it was half-cut at some point; the quilt was better, except for its shortness, it was still intact, but as light as a leaf, as if the cold wind could move freely. In this place of doubly satisfied, at night I can only fall asleep by putting all my clothes and some musty and messy blankets left in the bedroom at some point, and pressing them on the quilt, probably because of the weak wind, I have rarely caught a cold, and I don't know why, this winter has been fighting with colds.

　　Suddenly one day, you called me and called me to your office, I thought there was something urgent, with a nervous heart hurried to your office, when the door opened, the hanging heart let go, I saw the mother's kindness, instantly warmed through the winter. You told me to sit down, asked this and asked that, the most is not work but life, so that my cold heart feels the warmth of the sun. After a while, you took a warm water bag from the drawer and handed it to me, saying: "It's cold in winter, at night you can decorate yourself with boiling water in it, and put it at your feet to warm up." I took the warm water bag, repeated thank you with my mouth disobediently, forcibly suppressed the mighty surge in my eyes, and left your office awkwardly and unnaturally. Since then, this winter is not in the cold!

　　The white colt crosses the gap, and time flies. Unconsciously, I have gone through a winter in this strange place, winter to spring, grass warblers flying, in this season full of vitality, everything is so happy.

　　I remember that it was a spring breeze and a sunny day, you called me to the office, and said to me kindly: "Xiao Zuo, since you have come, you must settle down, do not be half-hearted, let alone look forward to the future, whether it is life or work, do not be afraid of your hands and feet, work diligently and do your best; you must know how to cherish and be content in life." I also know that there are many difficulties in your life, there are elderly parents in the family who cannot serve around, there are wives and children who have been separated for more than ten years in the two places cannot accompany you, I see everything about you and remember in my heart, I will do my best to help you solve the difficulties of separating the two places." We talked for a long time that day, there was no distinction between superior and inferior subordinates, and there was no sense of perfunctory reproach, and every sentence was so sincere and so heartfelt. When I was about to leave your office, you took a plastic bag from under your desk and handed it to me, saying, "Here are a few dresses you bought for your child, and asked me to try them on for your children, to see if she likes them or not, and if you don't like them, you can take them back and change them." At that moment, I was about to collapse, and I didn't know what I said, but I remember that when I walked out of your office, the tears couldn't help but roll out.

　　That night, I went back to my bedroom and lay in bed, turning over and over and unable to sleep, always haunted by your kind smile and understanding words. I kept asking myself, my situation has never been told to anyone, how do you know; my pain has never been confided in anyone, how do you understand. Suddenly, I felt the breeze soothe and refreshed, felt the warm sun bathing, soaked through the heart and spleen, felt the sky high and the sea was wide, and the heart was relaxed.

　　I haven't thought about this for a long time, but I remember that in the following days, you broke your heart for my separation. In this matter, you have never asked me to do anything, only to let me work with peace of mind, and you will deal with other things. Later, I heard my colleagues say that for my sake, you are painstaking and racking your brains, as long as there is a glimmer of hope, you will work hard a hundred times, even if you are low-voiced, even if you look at people's faces, you will swallow your breath, you will be cheeky, put down your noble value, ask for mercy, ask for help. Colleagues said: "Many times, he can't look at it anymore." Although this matter was not resolved until you retired, I also know that because of this matter, you have always felt guilty and feel sorry for me. In fact, I know that you have tried your best, and I can only be grateful to you. Your kindness to me has been unforgettable, deep into the bone marrow, and will not be forgotten for a lifetime.

　　I remember that before you retired, one day, a colleague called me and said that you know that I was alone with my children to study here, and I was a father and a mother, saying that I was very hard and wanted to come to see the children, but due to physical reasons, I could not come in person. A colleague brought a lot of delicious things to the child and told me to come and get it tomorrow. When I got the thing and opened it, there was roast chicken, marinated beef, and marinated tofu, all of which girls like to eat, and my tears came again. At night, my child and I ate these things, the child liked it, wolfed down, but I chewed slowly, ate and ate, the tears fell involuntarily, the child asked me in surprise: "Daddy, what's wrong with you", I said: "The eyes are uncomfortable". Time is so fast, in the blink of an eye you have almost retired for a year, you to me bit by bit, I will remember, as a guide to me to do things as a textbook, I will take you as an example, as a beacon for my life.