Alicia and her husband were in love, but she killed him and shot him in the face 5 times.
What made Alicia, who had been in love with her husband, knock the trigger without a hint of hesitation.
This is a question that has been circling in the reader's mind when reading the suspense novel "The Silent Patient".
The Silent Patient is the famous work of British suspense best-selling author Alex, and once it came out, it was on the New York Times best-seller list for 392 days.
Alicia is the heroine of it, she is beautiful, talented, and a talented painter.
With the author's words, the mystery was slowly unveiled.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="16" >1. Alicia's parents "killed" her as a child</h1>
Alicia's childhood was lonely, her mother was killed in a car accident, and she was in the car at the time.
Her mother tied her to the seat of a mini yellow car and then drove toward a brick-red wall.
She often wondered why her mother did this.
Previously, she felt that her mother was trying to commit suicide;
Now, Alicia thought that her mother was deliberately murdering, and that the person her mother wanted to kill was not herself, but her young girl.
Alicia, who was the rest of her life at that time, was still in the grief of losing her mother, in the fear of the car accident;
She needs comfort too much, needs attention too much, and needs love too much.
Then her father was only immersed in the sadness of losing his wife, never thinking about caring about her as a child.
What's more, her father would drink a lot of wine and then yell,
Say how much he loves his wife, without her, he can't live,
Then he said something even more terrifying:
"My poor beloved wife... Why did she have to die? Why did she die? Why not let Alicia die for her? ”
This sentence is equivalent to the death sentence of Alicia.
Her father, the loved one she depended on for her survival, wanted her to die.
How much harm it can cause to the child.
The pain it caused was too great to feel, so Alicia had to swallow it and bury it.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="44" >2. Alicia's aunt made her "die" more thoroughly with indifference and abuse</h1>
After Alicia's mother died, her aunt came to take care of her.
Her aunt was by no means a gentle and kind woman, she was irritable and uninteresting, except for being angry and abusive.
Alicia, in this indifferent home, thought of fleeing.
She painted her aunt in her painting, which was the image of her aunt in her heart:
Her aunt was lying naked on a small bed, bent by her.
She was fat and fat—like a pile of flesh that had bloomed open, hanging over the edge of the bed and dragging it to the floor, like a wave of gray custard, with swirls and folds.
It can be seen how much Alicia dislikes her aunt.
In Alicia's loveless childhood, whenever her aunt gave her a modest amount of love, she would be melted.
But her aunt didn't, and is still cursing Alicia:
"It's a little bitch, from a young age... And not worthy to be in a hospital, should be in prison. ”
Her aunt's eccentricity and indifference made Alicia have a deeper despair for her loved ones,
So once she became an adult, she left home and hardly went back.
There is no love, only hurt, and fear,
And she needs love so much.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="47" >3. Alicia's husband gives her love and hurt</h1>
Alicia undoubtedly loved her husband, so much so that in her heart he was a God-like being, and even when she painted Jesus, he painted his face.
She had never received love since childhood, and her husband was almost all of her.
She accepted his advice to keep a diary just to reassure him;
She couldn't bear to disobey his request, no matter how reluctant, she hid her personality to cater to him;
She listened to him, went to the psychiatrist, went and pretended to take those nasty pills, even though she knew she wasn't sick;
She loved him so much that she never wanted him to feel frustrated, unhappy, or miserable.
And she also felt the love from her husband:
Her husband spoiled her, cooked for her, and was a master of cooking;
Her husband would pay attention to her mood changes and give her advice;
Her husband would go with her to a frequent Italian restaurant, drink some white wine, and then go home and make it. Love, in her ear said, "I love you." ”
On the morning of her birthday, her husband would wake her up with a kiss and offer her thirty-three bright red roses, while his hand was dripping red blood because of the prick.
They went to the country park for breakfast, drinking champagne and eating sweet tomatoes, salmon and slices of bread, the breeze was cool, and the air had the aroma of grass.
Her husband even discussed with her about having a child.
Imagine how intense Alicia' reaction would be once betrayed.
There is nothing hurtful in the world than to hold her high and then release her hand and let her fall directly into the dust.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="78" >4. Therapists Theo triggered her</h1>
In Alicia's sixth year of silence, the counselor Theo, almost self-destructed, came to her aid.
Theo wanted to cure her illness, but he wanted to cure himself more.
Theo's experience is quite similar to Alicia's:
In his childhood, there was no love, only fear and sadness, and his father's emotions were extremely unstable, while his mother was only cowardly and did not give him any emotional comfort.
He became an adult financially independent, ran away from his family, and actively healed his psychological wounds.
He fell in love with a girl, got married, and he found a sense of security.
Emotionally, he needs stability, he strives to cater to her, and she is all he is.
Then, by chance, Theo discovered his wife's betrayal.
He was angry and self-abandoned, but he could not leave his wife after all.
So he tracks the enemy, the family of the enemy.
On a fortuitous summer day, he broke into his lover's home and told the woman that her husband had betrayed her.
That woman, it was Alicia.
Theo tied Alicia and her husband to chairs and forced her husband to make a choice, and the two had to die.
Her husband said, "I don't want to die. ”
In that moment, Alicia relived the scene of her childhood: she was the one her father wanted to die.
Alicia's psyche is broken, and although she is physically alive, she has been mentally sentenced to death.
So after Theo untied them, she knocked the trigger on her husband...
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="108" > concluding remarks: Some people spend their whole lives curing childhood;</h1>
And some people are healed by childhood all their lives.
Childhood misfortunes erupt like codes engraved in people's brains, in their bodies, at certain times, in specific circumstances.
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