01
Since Sister Qing agreed to my mother's request, she would come to my house every day to help.
She first wrapped the doll carefully around her chest with a large cotton cloth, then simply cleaned it, and finally cooked a meal and put it next to my father's bedside.
In the face of her appearance, my eyes were sluggish and unfocused...
She was kind enough to persuade me at first, but I responded with numbness. The porridge she prepared for me often formed a hard lump from morning to evening and did not eat a bite.
One afternoon, Sister Qing slapped me hard.
The little doll, who had been sleeping quietly on her chest, was disturbed by the sudden sound and let out a loud howl.
I still don't understand why such a small person can make such a loud noise. It was like the radio in front of me was suddenly twisted to the highest volume, and the sound sharply broke through my eardrums.
Sister Qing carefully took the little doll out of the cloth belt on her chest, put it directly in my hand, and turned away.
The cry of the little doll successfully revived a feeling as warm as blood in my body, and perhaps this is the magic of flesh and blood affection.
By the time my mother appeared with the so-called fairy powder wrapped in yellow paper, I was able to eat normally.
When my mother saw that I had recovered, she couldn't help but shed two lines of clear tears. Days of running and fear had overwhelmed her body to the limit, so she slowly fell asleep and passed out.
My mother slept day and night, and on several occasions I carefully placed my finger on her nose to feel the faint sound of breathing.
When the old couple can walk normally, they begin to nag their little granddaughter.
So we packed up and went to Sister Qing's house to pick up the children.
02
Before I could enter the door, I heard a noisy and noisy human voice coming from inside.
There were both men and women, and from time to time there were the cries of babies.
My parents and I glanced at each other and realized that something was not going well.
The door was not closed, and with a gentle push, you could see several distant uncles of Xiao Cui's father's family surrounding Sister Qing in the middle.
One of the elders was condescending to say in the tone of an elder, "It is reasonable to say that this little doll is the rightful heir of this family, but she is a female doll who does not resist." ”
"And she's a foreigner, spilling water."
"Since Xiao Cui and her father are gone, this house and this house full of things have nothing to do with you last time."
"I want you to pack up early and empty the house."
"We don't leave no room, the money left by Little Cui Dad and your own things can be taken away by you."
"You guys..."
Sister Qing raised her head, and her eyes shot out full of anger.
Blood rushed into my heart, and I stepped up with an arrow.
"Don't deceive people too much, even if Xiao Cui's father leaves Sister Qing, he is also the wife he is marrying." It is said that the sky is broken and she has not been thrown out of the house, not to mention that my daughter is also the third generation heir of this family. ”
"Are you bullying other orphans and widows?"
"A bunch of bastards..."
At this time, my mother's loud voice sounded majestically, not to mention that the way she launched a fierce attack was really a bit spicy. Those who were busy moving things out were all intimidated.
They all stopped and looked at the elder in unison.
I walked up to the elder and took Sister Qing and my daughter behind me. When my parents saw this, they quickly walked up and protected the sides of my body.
"Tell you not to take advantage of the opportunity to eat and bully people from other places." Our ancestors are here, and I am not a vegetarian. ”
"Old man, you called all the relatives in the family..."
A bunch of, can't die.
The older man narrowed his eyes and led the crowd away grinning before my mother burst out a thicker mouth.
03
It wasn't until the crowd gradually dispersed that we breathed a great sigh of relief.
Don't look at my mother just now is very strong, at this time fell on the chair and my father could not stand up no matter how to help.
Her legs softened!!!
I was a little crying and laughing and couldn't look at my mother, And Sister Qing put the little doll in her arms in my mother's arms and said, "You miss your granddaughter, right?" ”
"Look at how handsome the children are, learn to call Grandma quickly."
The little doll babbled and made a child's voice that we couldn't understand, and the old two were suddenly as excited as if they heard the foreign sounds of the sky, and surrounded the little dolls in the middle.
You said a word, I said a word, and in the end, I rushed to hold the child.
"Old lady, you let me hold it."
"Come on, your hands are dirty and dead, don't touch my precious granddaughter."
I dragged my dad over, and the two of them slowly put the furniture debris that had just been pushed by the crowd into place. Sister Qing was busy boiling water to make us tea, and after a while she was busy preparing rice paste.
Because the little doll's lips began to purse, Sister Qing said very experienceably, "The child is estimated to be hungry, I will go and get something for her to eat." ”
"Thanks, this time is really troubling you."
This time, our family of three said words of thanks in unison, and the tacit understanding was surprisingly consistent.
After a hectic meal, the little doll ate and went to sleep. My dad and I were pretty much done, and my mom hesitated and said, "Or I'll..."
"Take it back today, I'll collect the child's things."
"Well, you're in trouble."
Sister Qing reluctantly glanced at the little doll in my mother's arms, sighed and turned into the room inside.
After a while, I quickly packed up a large bag, as well as a few small bags, and opened them one by one to explain to my mother carefully.
When she was about to go out, Qingjie's eyes were red.
The atmosphere was a little depressing, and no one took the initiative to speak.
04
By the time we got home, it was late at night.
After a brief wash, my mom was ready to take the baby to bed. I don't know if it was a new environment, or some other reason, anyway, the child's crying suddenly became higher than a burst.
My mother hugged and coaxed, lying down, I followed around to learn cat barking, dog barking, and even lying on the ground to ride her horse, and did not coax the crying little ancestor well.
Finally, the tortured lost her temper and my mother said, "Or you should hurry up and invite Sister Qing over, this child is estimated to recognize someone." ”
"Mom, it's so late, it's not good."
When the little ancestor broke out into another earth-shaking cry, I didn't need my mother to urge me at all, and I automatically put on my coat and ran out of the house.
When I rushed to Sister Jing's apartment sweating profusely, I noticed that there were not only lights on in the room not far away, but also one or two loud and screaming sounds.
In the silence of the night, it was particularly striking, and feeling strongly uneasy, I pulled out my legs and rushed in, and saw a very unbearable scene.
The door was hidden, and I rushed in to find Qingjie crushed to the ground by a black shadow. She was struggling to resist, and the clothes on her chest were torn open in a large opening, revealing her snow-white skin.
I lifted my foot and kicked at Shadow's head, and the man rolled over in pain and rolled to the ground. I let out a loud roar and saw the beast's face clearly.
It was the scoundrel who had died of his wife, Zhang Wu.
On weekdays, this house loves to bully people, and stealing chickens and dogs is the best.
He saw me in a menacing manner, and he struggled to get up from the ground and ran. I was about to catch up when I was stopped by Sister Qing.
She was flushed and panicked to tidy up her messy clothes, and I turned my head to the side in embarrassment.
After half a ring, I turned my head back.
05
"My mother wants to trouble you to go over, and the child always cries."
"Then you wait, I guess this child recognizes people."
Sister Qing entered the house and took her coat and immediately followed me out the door, along the way because what just happened was too embarrassing and no one took the initiative to speak.
Before I got to my door, the little doll's cries had already drifted over. Sister Qing couldn't care less about greeting me, and trotted all the way in.
My mom was about to cry when she saw us come in.
Sister Qing first went into the kitchen to wash her hands, and then quickly took the night crying baby from my mother's hand and gently coaxed it up.
While gently patting her back and humming a soft little tune, it didn't take long for the whole world to finally quiet.
At this time, my mother noticed that There were several piercing scratches on Qingjie's white face, and one of them had already formed a crimson blood scab.
My mom looked at me and asked me what was going on?
I leaned over to her ear and whispered something about what had just happened.
"The king is a bastard, he will bully women!"
Just when my mother still wanted to continue, the little doll in Sister Qing's arms muttered two times in protest, and my mother closed her mouth.
After a while, wait for the little doll to sleep steadily.
My mom whispered, "You stay here and sleep with me these days." One is to help me with my children, and the other is to save those people from worrying. ”
A young and beautiful foreign woman without a husband is tantamount to a piece of fat meat that can attract countless flies at any time.
Later, I heard my mother say that Sister Qing told her that this kind of thing had happened once a few days ago. Fortunately, the man was timid and only dared to make a mockery outside the door.
Sister Qing was probably also afraid and agreed to my mother's suggestion.
06
I slept in a house with my dad in those days, and the house suddenly became much livelier with the arrival of a small life.
Everyone had a smile on their faces, I didn't have a chance to be alone with Sister Qing before, but this time because of the child, there were a lot of topics.
We will talk about the future of the child, and even the name Zhang Xiaolan or I and Qingjie turned the dictionary for a long time to officially take it.
Once, because the child suddenly peed on Qingjie's body, I accidentally shook Qingjie's hand while busy handing out diapers.
Her hands were soft and a little fragrant.
She blushed, and naturally I wasn't going to get any better...
After changing the diapers, Sister Qing left the room under the pretext of washing clothes, and I took a deep breath against the open window.
I saw Qingjie, who was bending down to wash her clothes in the yard not far away, and her small blouse was accidentally rolled up, revealing a small section of white and tender skin.
When I looked up again, I found that a pair of eyes were quietly glancing at me not far away, and when the four eyes were facing each other, they immediately separated in a panic.
The atmosphere has undergone subtle changes invisibly!
After a few days, Sister Qing saw that the child was familiar with the environment at home, and said that she wanted to go back to her home. My mother thought that she was not embarrassed to trouble people for a long time, and asked me to send her back.
The familiar road became long, and we walked slowly one after the other.
Unfortunately, even if you deliberately slow down, the road will always come to an end.
After Sister Qing resigned and entered the door, I did not want to leave at the door for a long time.
Seeing the orange lights in the house, I wandered around the house.
Suddenly the door opened, and Sister Qing walked out of it with a pile of sorted out debris in her hand. Leng Buding saw me outside the door and asked in surprise, "Why haven't you left yet?" ”
"I..."
It's really not easy for people to keep a little secret.
I was like a child who had been seen through my heart, unable to speak.
07
When I was six gods and no master, Sister Qing took the initiative to open her mouth, "We are not suitable, I am older than you." And I'm still your titular mother-in-law. ”
My knee-jerk reaction was to take the pile of debris in her hand like a gamble, and then exhale and say, "I don't care about this." ”
"You don't care, I care, you should find a better woman than me."
"I think you're pretty good, you have a good personality, and you're a beautiful person."
"Pure blindness says gossip, hello go back."
Sister Qing came over to pick up the clutter in my hand, and between pushes and shoves I took the opportunity to hold her hand firmly in the palm of her hand and refused to let go, and she did not struggle so that I let me hold it quietly.
It wasn't until footsteps came from afar that I reluctantly let go of my hand.
We have no commitment and no courage to go further.
We didn't see each other for a long time after we were apart that day, until my childhood friend came knocking on my door.
My friend's house is not far from Sister Qing's house, and I once privately asked him to take care of it. My friend said to me urgently, "You should hurry up and go to see it, there is a lot of movement over there." ”
I pulled out my leg and ran, my friend panting and following behind.
By the time I arrived, there were already several people around in front of Sister Qing's house.
Some of the good people also whistled, and when I approached, I found two middle-aged women pulling and pulling with Sister Qing. The obviously thin Qingjie was not their opponent, and her hair was torn and scattered on her shoulders.
One of the women, this one I know. Her husband was a wine and meat friend of Xiao Cui's father, and it is said that he had a small relationship in the government department.
The woman pointed at Sister Qing and said in a loud voice, "I told you not to hook up with my husband, or I will give you a good look." ”
Sister Qing arrogantly returned, "Don't spew blood, obviously your husband borrowed something to send here and refused to leave." ”
Unfortunately, Sven's sister Qing was defeated before she could say two sentences.
"You little hoof, who doesn't know you like to hook men."
Middle-aged women shrews generally pour out all the vicious words on the street, and I really can't watch it.
An arrow stepped forward to push away the two shouting people and said, "You are all women, talk well." “
"Oh my God, who is this hero to save the United States?"
"Isn't this your good son-in-law?"
"Come and come, everyone come to see, the good son-in-law has come to save his faceless mother-in-law."
The crowd of onlookers boiled over at once, and the bored people finally found the best pastime. No one cares what the truth of the matter is, anyway, a helpless young woman from a foreign country is a bully!
Rumors about me and Sister Qing immediately spread, and in that closed era, nothing could satisfy people's gossip curiosity more than messing with the relationship between men and women.
08
At first, my mother scolded the people who chewed on the root of her tongue in front of me, but my silence made her slowly realize that something was wrong.
But she didn't tell me that the matter was too sensitive in that environment at the time.
During this period, I also talked to me as a mediator, and I refused to do so.
Fortunately, my mother was reasonable and did not urge me.
It wasn't until after a drink that I cried out the original grievances in my heart through the strength of the wine. My mom didn't say a word for half a day, but just told my dad to get me to bed and go to bed.
At this time, the child can already walk shakily on the chair, the shaking little look is very much like a cute penguin, and Qingjie will occasionally take advantage of my absence to come to see her.
My mother said that the two people had a very good relationship, and my mother was jealous.
Because as long as Sister Qing comes, the child will definitely her mouth and say, Grandma walk away, I don't want to play with you. ”
Sometimes I still make a fuss about going to Sister Qing's house for a day, and every time my mother goes to pick up, she cries.
At this time, the news came that Zhiqing could be transferred back to the city, and the wind of reform and opening up was also quietly blowing, and some of my childhood friends successively went to the city to work.
I thought about leaving this place with mostly sad memories and living a new life.
After a meal, I told my parents what I thought, and my father didn't care. My mom sighed and said, "You go alone?" ”
"Well, I'll go alone."
"Or you go to someone and tell me that your mother is old and can't help you with a lifetime of children."
"You always have to marry your daughter-in-law again, and it is not easy to find someone who knows the roots and is good to my eldest granddaughter."
"If I can take my eldest granddaughter out to meet the world, my mother will not want to."
"Mom, what do you mean?"
"What do you mean?"
"I don't understand this, you shouldn't be able to marry your daughter-in-law."
"Ah..."
My mother looked like she hated iron not steel, and she took chopsticks and knocked on my head.
So I was finally driven out of the door by my mother and knocked on Qingjie's door. After listening to my intentions, Sister Qing did not refuse.
She was tired of life here, and even if the current policy did not allow her to leave.
She had contacted her siblings on her mother's side, and they had helped her find a job in the city as a temporary worker at a kindergarten. If my mother is willing, she is willing to take the child with her.
09
"This child has been around me since he was a child, no different from my own. I don't have any nostalgia for this place, the only thing I think about is her. ”
So we shifted the direction of life in the change of the times, and the initial days did not go well.
We have suffered a lot along the way, but fortunately we will not give up.
No one in this strange city traces our past, and every day is spent in a busy and fulfilling way. Our feelings have also slowly sublimated, putting aside one concern after another.
In the end we don't want to waste our lives anymore and come together.
I have done a lot of work in the crowded city, and Sister Qing does not care about working with me at all. Our only goal is to give our children the best education no matter what!
This is the most practical thing the city has taught me.
In order to say goodbye to the past once and for all, I rarely returned to my hometown in recent years.
The last few years of my parents' lives were spent in the city with us in small houses. I was worried about their frustration, and my mother always said cheerfully, "It's better for a family to be able to stay together than anything else." ”
I once thought about having another child, but Sister Qing refused to do so.
First, she really had no energy, and second, she felt that Zhang Xiaolan was no different from her own child.
Just when I was still trapped in the memory and could not extricate myself, Zhang Xiaolan was already holding my hand and crying bitterly, and the voice was irrepressibly higher than the wave.
No way, this kid loves to cry since he was a kid!
Sister Qing and I on the hospital bed smiled casually at each other, and the memories of thousands of mountains and rivers flashed in our eyes.
Along the way, not missing each other is already The best attachment of Heaven to us. As for the future path of life, no matter who leaves first, the other will live well with love!
(Final)
Hello friends, I am a middle-aged mother after 70 who lives in the magic capital. Thank you for coming to see my nagging thoughts, the picture comes from the internet. Like please @ Yiran Heart Paint in Shanghai