After many years, Curran returned.
She served as the host of "Director Asks Advice". Intellectual and gentle.
One of the parties is that after Han Xue's short film was screened, he recalled the story of his family, and Han Xue burst into tears.
The mentor did not buy it, and was spraying her with affection, and would only move herself.
That's when Curran stepped forward.
"This is entirely my responsibility, it is my mistake as a manager, sorry Han Xue, I may have hurt you."
She came forward to block the knife, like a competent confidant sister.
When director ChanNing Huang's work was collectively criticized by the judges, she once again stood up.
She knew that Channing Huang was extremely socially fearful, introverted, and lacked self-confidence.
Just as he lowered his head and pursed his lips, almost unable to withstand the pressure, she reached out and caressed his back, giving silent support and comfort.
Many people say that this push is too heartwarming.
She always gives a caring, sleek feeling.
You can't help but stare at her and ask yourself, "Is Curran originally like this?" ”
After three seconds, he replied to himself, "Oh, no. ”
We all almost got cheated on by her.
The real Curran is sharp, distinct, and self-contained.
Like a handful of coarse salt that has not been sifted, the particles are clear and the flavor is original and real.
She is egotistical to an extreme.
Extreme to the point of not caring about the world.
She didn't care if people liked her or not.
Thus often shows a kind of desirelessness.
Once she asked a friend to go to a restaurant to eat, just sat down in a better position, she heard someone next to her yin and yang weird: "Being a star is good, sit where you want." ”
In other words, others will more or less take care of their public identity and calm things down.
But Curran doesn't.
A slap on the table: "Did I provoke you?" ”
Thus began a scolding war, forcing friends to be left aside for half an hour.
What star status, what decent or not, she didn't care.
Just say, "I don't like people who have a bad mindset." ”
There are too many people and things she is not used to.
Since 2006, she has partnered with Yang Lan to host "Women under the World". But after only two years of doing it, she couldn't hold on.
The reason is, those guests are so stupid.
False again.
It's boring again.
To tell lies with your eyes open, you must also hold them.
Curran asked himself countless times, "Everyone has to talk to him." Why do I love to talk to you so much? ”
Sometimes, when she couldn't stand it, she stopped talking.
How can an interviewer, but don't bother to take care of the interviewee?
Yang Lan made countless glances at her, but it was useless, she just couldn't raise her interest in talking.
"I don't want to chat with a brain that doesn't start up at all."
I can't get used to the interviewee, so I resign and leave.
Colleagues who are not accustomed to the same as "pig teammates" are also too lazy to take care of it.
Small fresh meat can not act, and the old drama bone does not make people worry.
When she encounters old drama bones who refuse to play against her, she often has to play seven passions and six desires against the stand-in.
And that's not all.
What's even more absurd is that the co-directors will only eat and drink and enjoy their names. I don't know photography, I don't understand lighting, I don't know editing, I don't even understand the script.
Once the main scene was filmed, Curran's emotions were brewing to a very high point.
Suddenly there was a "click", and the director said: "Hair is messed up, comb it." ”
Don't know how to pretend to understand, random command.
Curran looked in his eyes, like a joke.
"I don't clash with him, I do my job, I just turn around and leave."
A series of strange phenomena in the industry, she could not understand, and did not bother to participate.
She was even more lazy to step into the rules and regulations that others had set for her.
She said success was a false proposition.
"All success is blown up by others, and then a slap is pulled down by others." Everyone's spit stars add up to success. ”
There is no point in pursuing success.
She did.
In the 1990s, she joined Phoenix TV and became one of the first "Hong Kong drifters".
When hosting "Music Unlimited", she was a fledgling and interviewed many first-line celebrities.
Sitting next to Zhang Guorong, Ren Xianqi, Zhou Huajian, and Zheng Jun, they talked and talked, foreign and confident.
Because the program has good efficiency, the income has repeatedly reached new highs, and at the most, it has earned more than 400,000 yuan a month.
As a colleague, Dou Wentao often felt inferior when he saw her: this girl was too good.
But it was such a good prospect, she said to give up and give up.
At the age of 33, I turned around and ran to shoot a scene, everything cleared zero, and started from scratch.
She doesn't care about success in the worldly sense, but more about herself, about obeying her heart.
She always said, "I don't fight, I'm like this, you think I'm difficult, you just walk around." ”
As a public figure, it is not wise to always be so self-ego, and to jump out of such a high-minded statement.
In 2004, when filming "Thrilling Dragon Rack", the leaders of the local public security bureau in Shennongjia hosted a banquet for the crew.
The leader asked her, what is her impression of Shennongjia?
She said, not good.
I also asked, will you come to Shennongjia for tourism in the future?
She said, no.
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Later, when the film was released, at the press conference, others asked her to talk about the shooting experience.
She said unabashedly: "The film has a sensational name, but I don't know what I do in the film." ”
She was unhappy with the film because she felt that the film crew had destroyed the local nature reserve.
At the time, this triggered a verbal criticism from the media and a "lawsuit over environmental protection" was also caused.
She herself was sued by the China Film Group Corporation and the Hubei Provincial Department of Culture.
Curran's personality, far away, inevitably loses some passers-by.
If you look closer, you will definitely offend your peers in the circle.
In an interview in 2007, she directly exposed the current situation of her ban.
"In the past year, it should be said that I have the least income, because I have offended the big boss, China Film Company, some of the original film contracts that were talked about are also yellow, they dare not offend, at the lowest tide, they are using very cheap prices to take some dramas."
How many circles of friends around the bend to remind her of the convergence point.
Dou Wentao said: "Ke Lan's personality is a jerk and easy to offend people. ”
Li Jing also said: "Your directness will also make you offend some people." ”
She replied every time: That's it, there is no rut, only face it.
She didn't care if her peers put her shoes on her or what the audience said about her.
Confidently said: "The audience is not my food and clothing parents, they have not raised me, I am on my own to support myself." ”
But behind the confidence is a real sense of superiority.
There are always people who say that Ke Lan's waist plate is so straight, not thanks to her having a well-known family lineage.
People always think that such an identity, how to walk sideways, how to do whatever you want, are all reasonable.
The opposite is true.
In those days, there was no so-called gap between rich and poor, and a big pot of rice fed everyone.
The family did not give Ke Lan too much material supply, but brought her cumbersome rules and strict tutoring.
Bow when you see an elder.
Guests from the house are asked to sing and recite poems.
If you do something wrong, you have to line up and admit it.
Parenting is a word she often hangs on her lips.
What is parenting?
Suitable.
Don't bother people.
Be able to live on your own.
Don't be spoiled.
She did it all.
More than 20 years after her debut, she has been moving forward in a low profile.
Never hype people.
Never loved to be lively.
Do not disturb others with self-pursuit.
Nor will it please irrelevant people as relatives, because that would be undignified.
This self-consciousness is engraved in the bones because "birth cannot be an excuse for a person."
Her superior origins did not give her substantial privileges. On the contrary, she has always been alert to herself.
When interviewed, I always use the heavy words "selfish", "vicious", "hypocritical" to describe myself.
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When she was the host, she was wary of her right to speak.
What kind of values should be pursued, what kind of experience should be brought to the audience, is what she has been thinking about.
If you must be vain and snake, you must go against the truth, then it is better not to do it.
As an actress, she is also wary of whether her expression of the character is professional enough.
Before each shooting, it always takes months to do the character's homework.
When filming "1942", in order to play Song Meiling well, she went to visit the veterans who participated in the war that year.
Truly understand them and be genuinely moved.
Therefore, she does not please the audience, but she is repeatedly praised by the audience.
"The Right Way in the World is Vicissitudes", "The Name of the People", "School District Room", which is not a good work with good reputation.
It is not superiority that allows Curran to pursue himself recklessly.
It is because of self-concentration and the pursuit of truth and bravery that the sense of superiority is transported.
Therefore, she is not offensive.
Her ego is not selfish.
Selfish like Zhang Yuqi, she left the entire program group and took her little boyfriend to elope. I can only see myself, and I don't know how to respect others at all.
Curran is not.
She could see others.
During the filming of "The Right Way in the World is Vicissitudes", there was a scene of torture, she was tied to a wooden stake shelf, and she was splashed with nine buckets of water.
At that time, the weather was cold, and Li Jing asked: "Is it warm water?" ”
She waved her hand widely: "What's tepid?" Don't get in trouble! ”
At work, she tries not to cause trouble for others.
It's the same in life.
Every time she stayed out of the hotel, she made sure to restore the room to exactly the same as it had been when she checked in.
Because I want to reduce the burden on the cleaning people.
Once she went to live with a friend, and after leaving, because the home was too clean, the housekeeping aunt felt incredible, called and asked Ke Lan's friend: "Has anyone really come to the house to live?" ”
This love of cleanliness is almost like cleanliness, but she does not demand the people around her with the same degree.
She has her own set of value systems, and she tries not to let her own system disturb others.
Yi Lijing asked her: "Some people are good at showing weakness and taking advantage of this opportunity, will you look down on such people?" ”
She replied, "I'm going to have a little bit of disdain, and then I'm going to fix that disdain, and I'm going to respect every pattern of life." ”
She cares about different living individuals.
In 2016, she served as a producer for the first time, producing the public welfare documentary "Biang Biang De", focusing on more than 30 million children of migrant workers and speaking out for this group of people with difficult lives.
She pays attention to social issues and to vulnerable groups. It was because she wanted to see sentient beings.
Something happened in the process.
One of the parents in the documentary once slapped the table and scolded the director: "Why don't we give us money when filming?" ”
This is true for adults, and it is also true for children.
The staff took the kids to buy soda to quench their thirst. As soon as I entered the commissary, one of the smartest children shouted, "Pick the expensive one!" ”
She was a warm helper, and she was so open-toothed and clawed.
But these are real beings.
Not simply black, not simply white.
It is sad, obscure, and complex human.
Because I saw this, I also had a new perspective on the world.
12 years ago, she had left the stage of the host so resolutely that she could not contain any impurities.
Why is it back now?
The answer may have been that she had already said.
In Very Quiet Distance, she says:
"There is a large layered, dark and pale gray between black and white, and when you grow up, you will slowly appreciate the gray. I'm already big and I feel like I can appreciate the gray. ”
Half a life has passed, and I have read all the prosperity.
I have seen false hypocrisy and escaped the rain of bullets.
Black and white can never turn gray.
But learning to appreciate the gray KeLan must have grown into a better self.