In the famous writer Sanmao's novel "The Story of the Sahara", she wrote a romantic and touching love story based on her husband Jose.
A year after the death of her husband Jose, Sanmao followed close behind, and in the eyes of the world, the couple should be loving, sweet and happy as in the novel.
But Sanmao's neighbor said that the relationship between the two was not so beautiful, and it was all Sanmao's wishful thinking. Why is this bias?
Restless childhood and that he
Sanmao grew up in a war when she was a child, and in her memory, except for avoiding war, she was hiding from artillery fire, and there was no place that was happy and worth remembering.
In that memory, wailing was her only understanding of life.
Growing up a little longer, the Sanmao family moved to Taiwan. In Taiwan, she began to study and go to school, but suffered discrimination from her teachers.
She is seriously partial in her studies, the subjects of the liberal arts are very high, but the mathematics and other subjects can only get the failure, she is a little girl with a high heart, looking at the mathematics that has been failing, she worked hard to learn and improve.
In several small examinations, Sanmao got good results, but this score was questioned by the teacher.
In order to confirm what he thought, the teacher deliberately produced a very difficult paper, Sanmao could not make it, so he was judged to be plagiarism, and punished her, and was ridiculed by his classmates.
Since then, Sanmao has become more and more withdrawn, and even suspended from school.
Even in literature, her achievements are getting higher and higher, but in Sanmao's heart, loneliness and sadness have always surrounded her, and it is difficult for her to feel happy.
In 1967, Sanmao met Jose in Spain.
At this time, Jose was still only a sixteen-year-old high school student, he fell in love with Sanmao at first sight, and launched a passionate pursuit, although Sanmao had long been moved, but still had to take into account Jose's age and her own psychological defects, she did not accept Jose's show of love.
Jose was a stubborn man who understood Sanmao's concerns, so he agreed that after six years, when he grew up, he would formally pursue Sanmao.
This fruitless love affair, Sanmao wrote it "The Rainy Season Will Not Come Again", perhaps her pessimistic mood told her that Jose would not look for her, so the book was like saying goodbye, but also like missing, but did not hold expectations of Jose.
See you again for a lifetime
After returning home from Spain, Sanmao began working, where she met a German man.
This German man is a little older than Sanmao, he is not enthusiastic, but considerate, compared with Jose, this man is more like a good husband in the traditional sense, under the man's considerate care bit by bit, Sanmao decided to give up his feelings for Jose and become a partner.
In 1972, Sanmao agreed to the man's marriage proposal, and the two immediately began to discuss the wedding related matters, but the accident came one step ahead of happiness.
The man suffered from a heart attack and died suddenly on the eve of the wedding because of a heart attack.
This distinction was too sudden and sad for Sanmao to accept for a while, and her life was once again haunted by sadness.
Jose, who heard this news, did not even wait for six years, when he was 21 years old, he came to see Sanmao, Jose's arrival was a surprise, but also a relief for Sanmao, it turned out that there was still happiness and happiness in life.
The two said goodbye this time, Sanmao no longer had any scruples, she agreed to Jose's overtures, and began this love.
Jose's enthusiasm infected Sanmao little by little, and she became a woman who knew how to love.
Although Jose is very young and still a little naïve, Sanmao is still willing and accepts everything about this love.
Love is sweet and life.
In 1973, two people in love began the journey of the Sahara, which was also the inspiration for the later "Story of the Sahara", Sanmao and Jose walked hand in hand through the desert, married in the desert town, everything was beautiful and sweet, this sweetness was magnified by Sanmao into the book, and reached the extreme in the reader's word of mouth.
But everyone forgets that real love is not only sweet, but also the chicken feathers of life.
After Sanmao and Jose got married, living together is like a soul mate, the two of them have no baggage in front of each other, often they are unkempt, doing things with a big grin, and in the photo of the two, whether it is Sanmao or Jose, it is not as bright and beautiful as the outside world. But that's life.
There is a difference between life and fiction, and this difference is further magnified after comparison, so in the eyes of the neighbors, the life of these two people is more like the wishful thinking of Sanmao.
Jose was a mature man, and Sanmao was a loveless woman.
Really live a life, both people have something to grind into, but also have quarrels and stumbles.
The neighbors have watched and talked about the quarrels and even fights between the two of them, but the ordinary life is also very harmonious, and the husband and wife are more like ordinary little couples, living a normal and real life.
Sometimes, neighbors look at the book and wonder, these two people are not the same as in the book, is there no love between them?
Real love is not perfect, but it is indispensable.
After Jose's unexpected departure, Sanmao fell into grief, the love between them was too strong, and Jose's figure was everywhere in life, so that Sanmao could not even bear the departure of the other half.
After Jose's death, Sanmao's life was rarely happy, because of excessive thoughts and sadness, her body gradually went into decline.
In 1991, on an ordinary day, Sanmao chose to end his life with his own hands. The reason for this is only the speculation circulating in the mouths of readers.
brief summary:
Books and reality must not be exactly the same, and the love between Sanmao and Jose begins with Jose's enthusiasm and persistence, and also from Sanmao's romance and talent. She wrote the story of the two into a book, which is not only a memorial, but also a joy in writing, Jose gave Sanmao the greatest happiness, and Sanmao was also happy to indulge in it.
Perhaps to outsiders, their lives are not beautiful, not as sweet as stories. But isn't there no love in a real marriage, everything is just speculation by others? If it is really three cents of wishful thinking, Presumably there will be no such beautiful two-way rush in the story.