Text: Sad past 2012
Figure: From the network
I grew up in the countryside of the child, in 2006 college graduates, when I learned landscape architecture, many people said that this is a popular major, but after graduation found that qu high and widowed, has not been able to find the right enterprise, helpless, I went to a company as an administrative commissioner.
In May 2007, considering the limited future of administrative development, I quit my job as an assistant factory director, hoping to learn management skills and get more paid in the future, but after doing it for half a year, I found that doing management is not as simple as imagined, in addition to requiring a lot of experience precipitation, I am proficient in all aspects of management such as technology, quality and safety, I feel that my personality is not suitable, and after 8 months, I left this post.
In April 2008, after thinking about it again, I decided to get involved in sales, doing reception work in a car 4S store, but after a few months, I understood that in the 4S store, there were very few people with high salaries, most of them were on par with me, three or four thousand a month, if you want to change your fate, be a small salesman, it is impossible, before the Spring Festival in 2009, I chose to leave.
In the days to come, I worked as a quality manager, warehouse manager, on-site 6S administrator, project declaration commissioner, self-media editor and other types of work, but most of them did it for a year or two and ended.
In 2016, I finally ended my single life, and after my wife gave birth to a child, I took the child alone in the county.
In March 2020, a department in my hometown county was recruiting contract workers, and I had the honor to pass the interview and written test and return to my hometown to work. This allows you to spend time with your family every day.
But today's income is 3200 yuan per month, the unit is inclusive, five insurances and one gold, 8 hours and two days off, the work is also very relaxed, but the monthly income is only enough to maintain the family's expenses.
Nowadays, the children are getting older and older, and they will have to attend various interest classes in the future, and if this continues, my future is really unimaginable.
At the age of 36, where do I go from here? I once fell into a deep confusion, sometimes I feel like a waste snack with nothing, what to do, what not to do, what not to do, learning not to work, interpersonal relationships can not work, simply useless, I have been engaged in 9 professions, but in the end I do not even have a specialty, what should I do, sometimes I really want to kill myself.
At that time, my classmates, monthly salaries of more than 10,000 abounded, I have obviously lagged behind others, sometimes when I meet familiar people asking about my income, I do not have the courage to answer. For this reason, in the past few years, many of my classmates and friends have lost contact.
Nowadays, the family's human etiquette is supported by my parents, my father is a retired teacher, and the house in my county town is also bought by my parents.
Without a skill, it is more difficult to start from scratch, and I also engaged in two side jobs in the middle, which resulted in poor luck and ultimately failed. In the past, I have repeatedly complained about why I didn't stick to a post, otherwise I wouldn't be like this. For example, if you have been doing quality control, you are at least a supervisor now, let alone a monthly salary of seven or eight thousand. However, time will not go back, and no amount of regret will help.
On Friday night, a high school classmate in the county town who mixed well invited a few of us to dinner and said from the bottom of my heart that I did not want to go, I was worried that others would ask about my salary, but I could not stand the other party's hospitality, so I still went.
There were a total of seven students at the party, four of whom were already very well mixed, they all went to middle-level posts, watching them talk and laugh, pointing out the pride of the country, I had an unspeakable sense of frustration in my heart, borrowing wine to pour sorrow and sorrow, that night I came home drunk and cried alone in the study for more than two hours.
Nowadays, when I go home at night, in addition to watching videos on the Internet, especially seeing those who have no culture, I can make a fortune, and as a college student, I also take the probationary salary of many young people, and that kind of negative emotion will come to my mind for a while.
When a contract worker, like a lying salted fish, if you want to turn over, the opportunity is very small, recently I have been searching for entrepreneurship related content on the Internet, but there is no clue, people to middle age, has not allowed me to live in mud.
I would love to change the status quo, but I don't know where to start, can you give me some advice?