"When the bleak day comes, and the world casts a cold and hostile look, your trust is astonished to find that you are the only one to rely on." --Hermann Hesse
Feelings are always the most obvious weapon. It seems to be weak and weak, but in fact it is strong and sharp, than the long gun and short cannon, it can penetrate deep into people's hearts, directly hit the depths of the soul of human nature, and resonate with thousands of people.
Emotions can recover lost land and plunder cities without bloodshed, or they can make people who should have been exiled through the ages be sent to hell. However, at this time, his feelings have been unable to save himself, and those who seize the world with friendship will eventually lose the sharp knife they rely on.
In 1927, Chen Boda boarded a train bound for the Soviet Union. The scenery outside the window is beautiful, and different scenery flashes back in front of the eyes, and the mind is still the warm harbor of the motherland. Although Moscow is good, Chen Boda has not forgotten his task, and he has been arranged by the organization to come to Moscow to study this time.
He thought that the Moscow that greeted him must be an endless list of knowledge and repeated and boring theories, but soon on this spring train, he met Zhu Youren, a Sichuan girl who was also an overseas Chinese.
Zhu Youren is undoubtedly a girl who is heartwarming enough—she is young, beautiful, cute, and eloquent. In this lonely study abroad trip, Chen Boda has always been self-enclosed, he thinks that he left the motherland, like a wanderer who left his mother's arms, and the unfamiliar environment made him unable to adapt. He had to stay in the darkest corner by himself, and the appearance of Zhu Youren was undoubtedly a beam of light that shone into Chen Boda's dark corner.
She was like a light fluttering feather, quietly falling into Chen Boda's heart, if there is none, it is hidden from time to time. The two talked happily on the train, and after getting off the train, they separated from each other, and Chen Boda still often thought of this smiling girl, he tried to distract himself, but found that it was just a boot tickle.
Chen Boda understood that he was in love with her. In Moscow, they fell in love for three full years, three years is not long, not short, but it is enough for them to know each other, from knowing each other to staying together.
But the good times are not always there, when they are about to enter the palace of marriage, the accident quietly happens, Chen Boda was arrested and imprisoned, love was temporarily shelved, and then waited until the beloved returned from prison, it was already 1933. They no longer waited, and finally walked together, and Zhu Youren gave birth to a child for Chen Boda, named Chen Xiaoda.
However, such a perfect fairy tale did not persist to the end, in 1942, because Chen Boda's position was promoted one after another, his career was busy, the two gathered less and left more, announced divorce, this relationship after several twists and turns, and finally ended without a problem.
After ending his marriage with Zhu Youren, Chen Boda was only depressed for a short time, and soon he was involved in a second marriage. The second wife, Yu Wenfei, was from Huang'an, Hubei Province, and came to Yan'an through Dong Biwu's introduction. She was exactly 15 years younger than Chen Boda, and her appearance was exactly like zhu Youren on the Moscow train that year, young and beautiful, and her temperament was elegant.
And Yu Wenfei also has a successful career, mature and steady Chen Boda is very good, after Dong Biwu's introduction, the two people quickly fell in love, a year later, gave birth to their second child Chen Xiaonong.
It's just that the age gap is huge after all, in life, two people are often contradicted because of their different concepts, Yu Wenfei is young, loves romance, loves the new wave, Chen Boda is conservative and unwilling to try too much. Quarrels often occur in this home.
Like a delicate but unsuitable shoe, Yu Wenfei seems to have all the advantages that women in the world should have, but it is not suitable for Chen Boda. After sweet snuggling for a while in the first days after marriage, the feelings of the two people began to fall apart.
If this shaky marriage is already a bomb, then Yu Wenfei's identification as a "secret agent suspect" is the fuse of the whole thing, she is full of false accusations, and what is even more chilling is that the pillow people are unwilling to believe themselves. In 1949, Chen Boda divorced, ran for seven years, and finally did not run to the end.
A year after Yu Wenfei left Yan'an, Chen Boda met his third wife, Liu Shuyan, in Beijing. Unlike the previous two former lovers, Liu Shuyan is not a typical of young and beautiful, she is an old revolutionary who has been divorced once, she took her daughter Liu Meimei to marry Chen Boda, and later let her daughter change her surname to Chen Boda, after marriage, the two people lived a relatively stable life, Liu Shuyan gave birth to a son and a daughter for Chen Boda, named Chen Xiaoyun and Chen Lingmei respectively.
At first, although the life of the two people was plain, it was better than stable, but as Chen Boda became more and more unsuccessful in his work, his personal emotions were also brought into the family, and the two people often quarreled.
Liu Shuyan was not without attempting to retain. But in the relationship, Chen Boda is like a gust of wind, no one can catch it, and no one can leave him. This old man still seems to be adhering to his own concept of love, and in the sixties of the last century, because he had no feelings, he announced his separation from Liu Shuyan, and the marriage existed in name only.
For some reason, Chen Boda's life was bumpy, and his children could not go smoothly, the eldest son Chen Xiaoda had committed suicide many years ago, the younger son Chen Xiaoyun had mental problems, and the three wives had long since lost contact. Therefore, in 1981, when Chen Boda was released on medical parole, there was no one to serve at the bedside.
Fortunately, the second son Chen Xiaonong is still not in good conscience, so Chen Boda's days in the hospital are generally taken care of by Chen Xiao and his wife, thinking of blood and family affection, the two are very attentive, therefore, although Chen Boda's life is bumpy, it can also be regarded as a peaceful old age.
But death was like the wind, and no one could influence the fact that Chen Boda was already seriously ill, and even Chen Xiaonong's meticulous care could not save his father's life. In September 1989, Chen Boda died of a myocardial infarction, and the old man's life finally came to an end. At the funeral, none of his former lovers sent him off, only the children of the guests mourned.
Love for a painful, more need a memorable, everyone in the feelings, will play a different individual, you have me, I have you, life is like this, only to participate in it, will know a central pain, love is everyone film and television, cold and warm self-knowledge. Falling in love is not as easy as imagined, and if you don't pay your heart, you won't get rewarded.
Text/Yu Xin