feed! Tell you, pay less attention to me! Who cares what fire is burning in your heart! What is beauty and what is love? What are you doing here?
This paragraph is from Xu Fang's "Tell You". For love, she never settles, as the flower of Peking University, she is also talented and beautiful, and there are countless suitors in her life. She has always been very cold to suitors and refuses. But if it is her favorite sweetheart, she will pursue it fanatically. Three years of crush, five years of ambiguity, like their mentor but not afraid of the outside world's eyes, bravely pursue their love. Eventually married to a soldier. This is Xu Fang, the life of a legendary talented woman.
Although there were many talented women in the Republic of China period, it was the first one like Xu Fang who lived boldly and freely. But she also has a very strong capital to be so wanton. Born into a family of scholars, her family is very prominent. His grandfather was Xu Shou, a very famous scientist in the late Qing Dynasty, and most of the Chinese names of the elements on the periodic table came from his translations. His grandfather, Xu Jianyin, once studied in Germany, tried smokeless gunpowder, and eventually died for some reason, and was called "the first victim of science" in China by Hu Shi.
It is this kind of family that makes Xu Fang learn various literatures and read books from an early age. He also has a great love for Chinese classical literature. Later, as the only two female students, she was admitted to the Chinese Department of Peking University. At that time, Xu Fang could be described as the brightest landscape of Peking University, and it would not be exaggerated to be called the "school flower" of Peking University.
When she entered Peking University, she was able to shine and often tried to create various themes. Her one-act play "Li Lili" was published in the magazine "Literature", and the one-act play "Sin" she wrote was also published in "National News Weekly". It can be said that she is a fully talented woman. As a talented woman, her emotional history can be said to be very tortuous and full of legends.
Xu Fang can shine in the field of literature not only because her literary literacy is very good, in addition to her own superior conditions, her success is inseparable from a person. This person can be said to be a noble person in her career, and he is Xu Fang's mentor - Hu Shi. Everyone who mentions Hu Shi is certainly not unfamiliar, as the dean of Xu Fang's sophomore year of the School of Literature and the director of the Chinese Department, the relationship between the two is also relatively close. By the second year, Hu Shi had become her thesis supervisor.
At this time, Xu Fang was about to graduate, and her topic for the graduation thesis was "History of New Chinese Poetry". After all, she was born in a family of scholars, and she has her own research and experience in ancient poetry. And Hu Shi, as her instructor, is also very dedicated to tutoring her. After graduation, Xu Fang was assigned to Tianjin Nankai Middle School as a teacher. Soon after, he was recalled by Hu Shi as an assistant at the Institute of Liberal Arts at Peking University. Helping Hu Shi sort out some literary manuscripts, whether it was her self-recommendation or Hu Shi's recommendation, made Xu Fang's fame grow in the later period.
It is also in this way that they get along day and night, which makes Xu Fang have different feelings for Hu Shi. Once Xu Fang was also invited to attend a banquet for such a celebrity as Zhu Guangqian. And it is generous and generous, which makes everyone admire.
Xu Fang is ambitious in her career, but she is also very capable and works very hard. The one-act drama was published in the newspaper, and her poetry collection was also a small achievement. Among these achievements, love poems can be said to be the most outstanding. She also confessed that the achievements and inspiration for love poems came from her mentor Hu Shi.
Since Hu Shi became Xu Fang's thesis tutor, her feelings for Hu Shi are no longer simple. Xu Fang herself said that from simple admiration and respect for him to an inextricable admiration. In college, it is also a crush that can only be bitter. As described in the poem: Acacia is only three years of suffering.
Later, the two became more and more frequently in contact with each other because of their work. On May 21, 1936, he wrote a love letter to Hu Shi. Finally plucking up the courage to stop having a crush, she boldly expressed her love for her mentor. This move can be said to have broken through the world's vision. Later, Xu Fang also continued to write love poems to Hu Shi, and even compared love to a delicate rose. Immersed in love, she has a very strong passion for creation, has written many famous poems, and these warm love inspirations are also derived from Hu Shi.
Hu Shi is not a silent party, in the face of Xu Fang's love and fierce attack, he also has a certain response. In "The Moon Without Heart", it is also written: Child, he can't keep it for you, although sometimes he kisses your eyebrows. Yes, Hu Shi's feelings for Xu Fang are very clear. You can't get married, but you can be ambiguous. In this way, although Hu Shi did not break the boundary with Xu Fang, the two exchanged letters very frequently, and sometimes used love poems to express their feelings. This ambiguous exchange lasted for five years. Without any commitment, Hu Shi also enjoyed the hot love of young Xu Fang for five years.
Later, Hu Shi became more and more cold to Xu Fang, and did not respond much to Xu Fang's letters. Such behavior greatly dissatisfied Xu Fang, and later Hu Shi promised Xu Fang that she would no longer love others, and she immediately made other girlfriends after going abroad. Under Hu Shi's cold treatment, Xu Fang gradually let go of her sincerity. In 1941, Xu Fang asked a friend to forward a letter to Hu Shi, which was also her last copy to Hu Shi. He changed his title from the person he loved the most to his mentor, and in the end he did not get a response from Hu Shi. Disheartened, she also chose to let go of the relationship.
In the face of the ambiguous Hu Shi, although there have been wandering and hesitation, but in the end fruitless love, Xu Fang is also broken clean and neat. And the title of the school flower is not a waste of time. Friends said that Xu Fang herself is a "talented woman", presumably she does not need another romantic literati philosopher, and is likely to like cultured soldiers. This sentence became a prophecy. In the end, Xu Fang took a fancy to General Xu, who was then the chief of education at the Army University of the Nationalist government. Xu Fang's final entrustment of life was not a well-known literary hero in the literary world, but a soldier. It's surprising, but it's not unreasonable.
As a soldier, his thinking is certainly simple and simple, and he only has Xu Fang in his heart, so he also has a better sense of security. In short, in 1943, Xu Fang entered the palace of marriage with her military husband Xu Peigen. After getting married, she also completely bid farewell to the literary world, but focused on the family. A literary talent becomes a housewife who concentrates on assisting her husband at home.
On February 8, 2009, Xu Fang passed away at the age of 96. A brave and talented woman who once pursued Hu Shi's hot love and pursuit without results. Later, he fell in love with the soldier and spent his life busy paying in a small family. In a person's life, the dust eventually returns to dust, the earth returns to the soil, and it returns to peace. In this life, she has bravery, directness, romance and blandness. In the end, they were all smoothed out by the years and became the most ordinary memory in the long years.