Young Barkin took a photo
An old man with silver hair and a faltering walker crouched down at the desk worker. Writing is his lifelong career.
"The wind is dead." He thought, "That's probably what describes an old man like me, right?" ”
"Man dies like a lamp goes out. Maybe it won't be long before I can go and look for my little sun. ”
The old man looked at the box at the head of the bed and a few translations, but his thoughts could not stop returning to the first encounter decades ago, those who shared happiness and suffering.
Barkin took a picture
In 1936, the bustling Shanghai street market. In the window seat of a restaurant called "Xinya" sat a polite middle-aged man with a bookish temperament.
His name is Li Fugan, he is a writer whose home is thousands of miles away in Chengdu, Sichuan.
He was only thirty-two years old, but he was already well-known throughout the country, and "fans" were everywhere; in the same way, he was thirty-two years old, but he was still a bachelor, and he didn't even have a girlfriend.
Maybe "the hero is lonely"; maybe it is his jealousy and despair of that chaotic world. He even feels that the current work is busy and alone, which is very good. You won't be unable to take care of yourself, and you won't be tired of others.
He had thought it was like this, he didn't know that God had arranged the best fate for him.
It's just that, in the eyes of the world, it's a bit late.
Ba Jin and his wife Xiao Shan
The right man is finally coming.
"Oops! Mr. Lee, you're here early! The crisp and crisp childish female voice pulled him back from contemplation to reality.
Oh, he's here to "face the base.".
The object of "Face Base" is one of his thousands of fans and one of his pen pals, an 18-year-old girl at the time.
"Hey, you're early!" Mr. Li smiled lightly and looked even more warm as jade.
The little girl said happily, "You are much younger than I thought!" ”
"Then you're more like a doll than I thought!" Mr. Li felt that chatting with such a sunny little person was very pleasant.
"I don't want you to treat me like a little doll too!" The little girl sniffled, and seemed to be a little unhappy, perhaps pretending.
"So, someone thinks the same way I do?"
The little girl paused, before she could speak. The writer added, "Can you tell me your name now?" ”
Strong and optimistic elderly Barkin
It turned out that this little pen pal was the most knowledgeable about his works among fans, and at a young age, she read through all her works.
They often talk about the world and discuss ideas.
As an elder, he is also willing to give a little spiritual help to the younger generation and light up her world.
But she was always mysterious, did not tell him her name, and each time only signed the letter "A teenage girl." ”
She seemed embarrassed but playfully told him that her name was Chen Yunzhen and that her father was a shareholder in a factory.
Although the family was well off, his father was quite conservative.
Yun Zhen's hundred people who want to participate in the patriotic student movement are also able to stand alone in the student team.
But her father thought she was "too young" to show her face and stop her.
Before going out to study, The teenager Barkin and his family
Even with the support of other family members, Yunzhen still can't screw her father, she is very depressed.
This is also an important reason for her to meet her idol, and she hopes to get the method and spiritual power from him.
"I want to leave my family and run into the world." Yun Zhen said what she thought.
"No, you can't." Mr. Li hurriedly dissuaded, "You are still a fledgling bird, and you should not act impulsively." ”
He went on to tell her that the best way was not to run away, but to "read and think" before making plans for action.
She listened, and in the face of family conflicts, she no longer fantasized about walking away, but sunk her heart and studied hard.
In his later years, Ba Jin meditated in front of the statue of Lu Xun
Since then, fans have gone even further into their relationship with their idols: he responded to letters calling her a "little friend," and she often went to the publishing house where he worked to find him.
This young man named Li Fugan is Mr. "Ba Jin", one of the titans of Chinese literature, a famous literary figure, and also known as the Old Man of the Century.
The girl named Chen Yunzhen is his wife, the sun that burns life for him, the love of his life: Xiao Shan.
It was their first meeting.
At this time, Ba Jin only regarded Xiao Shan as a child; she was cute, intelligent, studious, and energetic.
Since she offered that she needed his guidance and help, he was willing to help her grow.
Barkin was a man of integrity, kindness and reason. At that time, he would not think of an immature child as a "life partner".
Mr. and Mrs. Barkin play with their grandchildren
Later, a friend left Shanghai and entrusted Ba Jin to serve as a detention center.
At the same time, he also had to read, revise, proofread, and write, and he was so busy every day that his feet did not touch the ground.
At this time, Xiao Shan often came to visit him and cared for life. This is both a love for Barkin and a reward for Barkin.
Xiao Shan's sincerity and enthusiasm made Ba Jin have to appreciate in his eyes and thank him in his heart.
A rowing trip between friends made Barkin's heartstrings begin to stir.
He finally stopped blindly treating the girl in front of him with the relationship of "brother and little sister"; he realized the gentleness and understanding of this woman.
While rowing, Xiao Shan and Ba Jin were in a boat. Xiao Shan was young, and she could not avoid being competitive, and she was interested in quickly opening up the distance with the other fleet.
Century old man sitting alone
The novice player Ba Jin also played happily, struggling to paddle, and soon he was sweating profusely.
Xiao Shan saw the pain, and took out a handkerchief to brush the sweat off Ba Jin's forehead, "Mr. Li, let's slow down, don't compare with them..."
As a result, Barkin's heart moved.
A woman's intelligence is not just reflected in one place.
She can read books, talk about her own opinions, will moderately release her good feelings, in the layer of provoking relationships, Xiao Shan will also use life skills freely.
Xiao Shan came to see Ba Jin happily, but after a while she ran down the stairs crying.
The friend who lived with Ba Jin was puzzled and asked Xiao Shan what was going on.
It turned out that Xiao Shan's father had asked her to marry a rich man and asked her to make a marriage contract, and she wanted to ask Barkin about her decision.
Group photo of the Barkin family of four
But Ba Jin was silent, and Han Yan only said one sentence: This needs to be considered by yourself.
She burst into tears of disappointment, but she had no idea of his panic and entanglement at that time.
At this time, Ba Jin also hurried downstairs-after all, he really couldn't bear to let Xiao Shan mistakenly think that he didn't care about her.
He quickly explained to his friend, "I mean she's still young. Once considered immature, there will be regret for life. ”
He sorted out his nervous thoughts and added, "In the future, when she grows up to have an opinion and mature, she is willing to ask me as an old man, then I will live with her." ”
Loving someone, even if there are some concerns about each other, is for her good, so that she has plenty of room to consider, not to knock on the plan for herself.
Xiao Shan burst into laughter after hearing Ba Jin's heartfelt words. The big stone in her heart fell, and she was relieved.
Ba Jin Xiao Shan took a group photo with friends
She knew that this would be a two-way rush of feelings, and she was more determined about the man in front of her.
Xiao Shan's mother was an enlightened and assertive woman.
After learning of her daughter's wishes, she was not troubled by the age difference between the two of them up to fourteen years old, nor was she worried about violating her husband's previous decisions, but personally invited Barkin to a meal.
She had heard Barkin's name and read Barkin's work, and had a hunch that it would be a good young man.
However, it was better to see than to see, she was very satisfied with the young man in front of her, and immediately made a decision and recognized the son-in-law.
Friendship lasts forever. Love begins. The two were engaged and have been in public contact since then in the relationship between unmarried couples.
The daily pleasures of the Barkin family
Good love is not only two-way, but also mutual achievement.
A good lover is not only a companion, but also a catalyst for the growth of the other half. They are all good people who are willing to think and give for others. They burned through each other's lives.
During the War of Resistance Against Japanese Aggression, Xiao Shan joined the field hospital. She told Barkin what she had seen and accepted his encouragement to write, and published in several newspapers.
And he was also infected by her, and created a novel with her as the protagonist of the War of Resistance.
Fast forward to 1938. While they were in Guangzhou, the area was attacked by the Japanese.
Ba Jin Xiaoshan went all the way to Guilin, supporting all the way to Guilin, and was displaced for nine days.
Barkin, who wrote in his later years
Disaster is an emotional test, and love that withstands obstacles is more indestructible and precious.
A few months later, Xiao Shan was admitted to the Southwest United University. They began a love life in a different place and running in two places.
Distance is the barrier to constant true feelings. The right person can keep it for a lifetime when they meet, so why bother?
Xiao Shan knew that Ba Jin was busy with writing, and she often worried that he would not sleep and the rhythm of his life would be disordered because he was catching up with the progress.
So during the semester, she sent him letter after letter, and the warmth in the letter illuminated Barkin's lonely nights.
Boring life, with an efficient booster.
During the summer vacation, he took the time to run to her and accompany her through the happy days.
The grand moment of the elderly Barkin
In 1942, the publishing house where Barkin worked was sparsely staffed due to the impact of the war.
Xiao Shan couldn't wait for graduation, so she hurried to be his backing and injected him with a cardiotonic agent.
She said: "Don't be sad, I will never leave you, I will always be by your side." ”
"I don't know how to thank you, you wait for me for another year, okay?"
"Hmmm... Of course. Can I still answer the question? ”
At that time, Barkin was in trouble.
The eldest brother in his family died, and the third brother was blocked by the war. The family's financial burden is all on his shoulders.
How could Xiao Shan not know that he was trapped in his difficulties?
In her eyes, age, distance, or wealth are not a problem. True feelings are the first, and it is their willingness to stick to the beloved person and spend time with him, and even, it is indispensable.
Barkin with parents and sisters
She tried to take care of his diet and living, urging him to rest moderately when he was tired, and creating a good creative mood for him.
He also strives to maintain the level of creation and strive to be efficient.
Soon after, Ba Jin finally earned his children's and nephews' school money and his own marriage money in the work of writing, translating and editing in turn.
They ended their eight-year love run as they wished.
May 1944, Guilin, Li River. Ba Jin, Xiao Shan. A new house on loan.
In the name of the parents of both parties, a notice of travel marriage was issued to the relatives and friends of both parties.
In this way, they were married both easily and solemnly.
Later, they had a pair of children.
Ordinary and happy days pass day by day, and of course they pray for the grace and love of time, the earth is long.
Ba Jin teased Sun
As a man, the head of the family, Ba Jin ensures that the direction of economy and life is controlled, and is the pillar of the pillar.
And his delicate wife is the main backbone of his pillar.
After the founding of the country, Barkin's prestige was even greater, and he was busier; he often held meetings, often went abroad, and often left home.
And Xiao Shan is still the most trustworthy, the warmest and strongest barrier; she takes care of the family's big and small affairs, educates her children, and he can always relax his heart.
If the two loves are long, are they in the twilight of the dynasty?
They're still the same. Ben is a pen pal "born", often write letters, not to mention.
History has catastrophes, and life has accidents.
Xiao Shan Wencun
His lover Xiao Shan was also bullied and persecuted, she was beaten, punished to sweep the streets, and insulted as a "stinky woman"... She didn't say a word about it in front of her husband.
Barkin sometimes seemed to be a little stiff, and had to sigh: "The days are sad!" ”
"It's a hard day!" Xiao Shan, as always, sang with her husband and wife, but then she raised her spirits: "Persist!" ”
If you have such a wife, why should your husband ask for it? She was there, and he was treated with the most tenderness in life.
The weather is unpredictable. Misfortune tore apart Ba Jin's long-cherished tenderness.
In 1972, Xiao Shan was diagnosed with rectal cancer. In those days, such diseases were almost prematurely declared dead.
Although Ba Jin, who was thunderstruck by a sunny day, did everything to comfort and soothe, Xiao Shan still realized the sadness and felt desperate.
Barkin with his wife and daughter
"It looks like we're going to part ways." Before the operation, Xiao Shan had no regrets.
"No... No, you'll be fine. You must get well, stay with me, stay with me until dawn. Barkin gently pressed his wife's pale lips.
Xiao Shan's lonely eyes told him what she knew about her body.
The two clasped their hands and choked.
After the operation, Xiao Shan was in abnormal pain, but she did not cry out. She just said lightly that the medical expenses were not too high.
At this time, Ba Jin wished that he could suffer for Xiao Shan, and he really couldn't bear to value his lover's tortured face as haggard and fragmented.
At the time of life and death, Xiao Shan still considered not herself, but not because of herself, let this man who had been with her for 28 years too tired.
Ba Jin engaged in cultural exchanges in the Soviet Union
Xiao Shan believes that her lover is her best doctor, and with him, she can have a desire for life, reluctance, courage to fight against diseases, and perseverance to fight suffering.
During her hospitalization, her personality was still young and fresh, and her temperament was still as playful as a girl.
She called him: "Doctor." This best doctor guards himself every day, almost inseparable.
Or Providence.
That day, the "doctor" went home for lunch, thinking of going back quickly.
Unexpectedly, when she came back, Xiao Shan had left herself forever. When she left, she was only her cousin by her side.
From her cousin's mouth, I learned that when Xiao Shan was dying, she still called out to "call the doctor to come."
Barkin's Guardian
At the thought that he had not been able to give his wife the last journey, that he had not been able to take her hand, and to take her into his arms when she needed it most, Barkin regretted it.
This has also become a regret that accompanies Barkin for the rest of his life.
After Xiao Shan died, he took her ashes home and placed them in his bedroom. He placed her last works at the head of the bed and often looked at them out of his mind.
In this way, he let Xiao Shan participate in every day of his life.
When he fell asleep, Ba Jin often dreamed of his lover, her smile, her ding-dong instructions, her everything...
He sat up and looked silently at his eyes. Fortunately, every corner of the house, every grain of dust, has the smell of a lover.
The candle of life is flickering.
Barkin toiled hard in his later years
The lover is dead, and the rest of his life is lonely. In addition to nostalgia, where is there more strength to support the disabled body?
Every birthday, others wish the old man Ba Jin a long life and a hundred years.
But Ba Jin smiled bitterly, he knew that losing Xiao Shan's "long life and hundred years" was just a second to survive.
How much life energy he still has left, he always has to sprinkle a little bit of it in his work until it is exhausted.
Barkin did not believe in ghosts and gods. But only Xiao Shan made him long for an afterlife.
He recounts in The Sick Collection:
"When I think of death, I'm not afraid, I'm just full of nostalgic feelings."
"How nice it would be to have a ghostly world." I was there to meet my lover. ”
Xiao Shan sent Ba Jin the first photo and handwriting
Ba Jin Xiaoshan's love and marriage are a lifelong watchful eye, and a lifelong connection of mutual concern, mutual payment, and mutual rushing.
Together, they proclaimed the true existence of the fairy tale of "death and life, and the story of the son".
Although Xiao Shan died early, the two "white-headed and old" had some regrets.
Once a happy family
But in these 28 spring and autumn seasons, who can't see the legend of "one life and one couple"?