Some people meet is a story, some people meet is an accident, Wang Xiaobo and Li Yinhe's encounter is a romance written on the stave, it is the love of loving you like loving life, it is the life that completes each other.
They have truly loved, lived freely, and written with their lives in their lives.
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Wang Xiaobo and Li Yinhe were both born in 1952, a difference of three months.
The longer Wang Xiaobo is, the uglier he is, and when he was a teenager, he grew into the look of "Xiaobo is really ugly, I can't get my hands on it" in his mother-in-law's mouth, and the longer Li Yinhe is, the better he looks, and he has become a big girl.
At the age of 13, Wang Xiaobo followed his brother Wang Xiaoping and began to steal books from his father's bookcase to read, in that era, reading books could be read at will, but could not be read casually, if not careful, it was a "reactionary".
Wang Xiaobo read quickly, and as he read, an uneasy heart began to stir.
In a later letter to Li Yinhe, he said: "There is only one thing I have inherited from my childhood, and that is the rage against mediocre life.
When he saw everything vulgar, he silently wrote it down, and when he saw that people regarded meat and hemp as interesting, he was very angry, and his heart said what a small act.
This is the teenage Wang Xiaobo, contemptuous and boring, eager to be funny.
At the age of 16, that restless heart began to have the urge to write, and in the gap between the queue and the queue, it began to choreograph interesting stories.
The more boring the world is, the more interesting life must be.
From the age of 16 to 26, the torrent of Wang Xiaobo's era, like a screw, was nailed in one place, a nail is for many years, the background of "Golden Age" has been there, the background of "Love in the Revolutionary Period" has also been, of course, Li Yinhe is getting closer and closer to him.
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In 1977, Li Yinhe graduated from university and became an editor of Guangming Daily, when she was twenty-five years old.
Because of the publication of some articles, Li Yinhe has become famous, and the sentence "Great people are great because you kneel and look at him" has caused countless responses.
At this time, Wang Xiaobo was still a small street worker, working during the day and writing stories at night, and one day, he sent the finished "Green Haired Water Monster" to guangming daily, and the editor was Li Yinhe's colleague.
This girl watched "Green Hairy Water Monster", looked at it, and the tears fell wow wow.
Li Yinhe asked, "What do you see?" So committed? ”
Colleague replied: "Green haired water monster." ”
Next to Li Yinhe, a strange, "water monster", still with "green hair", how scary!
"So good-looking? I flipped over. ”
Li Yinhe took the manuscript and read it:
I said, "Demon, what do you think the light of that mercury lamp looks like?" Large clumps of dandelions floated on the river of the street, swallowing soft needle-like light. ”
The demon said, "Okay, so what about us walking on the sidewalk?" ”
I looked up at the street lamp, which cast its dim light all the way to the ground through the mist.
I said, "We seem to be at the bottom of a pond." From one moon to another. ”
At this look, my heart was scratched fiercely, and I waited to see the paragraph describing Dostoevsky's work "Nedochka Netskyova":
"I read the book and remember the first half of it for the rest of my life. I still think it's the best book, topped by a tome. I think people should always miss Dostoevsky for it. ”
Li Yinhe was shocked in her heart, wasn't this the real thought in her heart.
She felt that she and this Wang Xiaobo, who had never met before, really had a sharp mind.
She remembered the author named Wang Xiaobo.
(Green Haired Monster Manuscript)
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Once, Li Yinhe was accompanying a friend to ask Wang Xiaobo's father for advice, but she wanted to see in her heart who Wang Xiaobo, who wrote "The Green Haired Water Monster", who was also!
The moment she saw Wang Xiaobo, her heart was hot and instantly cool.
"I was shocked, I didn't expect it to be so ugly."
"Not only is it ugly, but it also has a fierce look in it."
At this sight, the original expectations turned into disappointment, and she never thought of falling in love with such an ugly person anyway.
However, within a few days, Wang Xiaobo went to guangming daily to block Li Yinhe, on the grounds that he was returning the book.
After the two met, they talked about literature freely, and when the conversation was hot, Wang Xiaobo came to a sentence:
"Do you have a boyfriend?"
A straight man of steel, when Li Yinhe's first love had just broken up, he told the truth: "No."
However, Wang Xiaobo's next sentence was simply fierce, frightening Li Yinhe: "How do you see me?" ”
Wang Xiaobo is so fierce, "Golden Age" is fierce and messy, even talking about a relationship, it is fierce and frightening.
Li Yinhe graduated from university, and Wang Xiaobo did not graduate from junior high school;
Li Yinhe newspaper editor, Wang Xiaobo worked as a worker in a street factory full of old mothers and disabled people;
Li Yinhe's parents have resumed their jobs, and Wang Xiaobo's father has not been rehabilitated;
Li Yinhe has become famous for writing articles, and Wang Xiaobo has not published anything obscurely.
He does not care about the difference in status at all, disdains worldly things, and does not have the slightest inferiority complex of being in a "low position".
But this kind of sincerity and purity is something that many people do not have.
Li Yinhe also knows that Wang Xiaobo, the "Cinderella", actually has a "natural beauty" heart, and sooner or later she will stand out.
What is romance?
Compared to the current 999 roses, the candlelight dinner in a fine dining restaurant, this is the real romance, nothing, just a heart.
Wang Xiaobo said: True marriages are concluded in heaven.
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After the first meeting, Wang Xiaobo began to write "love letters" frantically.
The most special thing is that Wang Xiaobo wrote love on the stave:
"I never dreamed that I would write the letter on the stave."
The staves came by chance, and so did you.
But my letter to you deserves to be written in the stave.
I hope you and I are an inexhaustible song..."
The more passionate the love letter was written, it directly turned into a naked confession.
"Your name is beautiful, really, your name alone is enough for me to love for a lifetime."
"The sky was full of stars, like a frozen rain."
Love letters a day, li Yinhe read every time, the heart is soft, reading and reading, tears.
Soon, Li Yinhe went on a business trip to the south, and when he returned, the table was full of love letters.
So the two of them were together.
Li Yinhe once asked Wang Xiaobo: "How many generations of writers do you think you will become?" ”
Wang Xiaobo tilted his head and thought seriously for a moment and said, "First-class and half-class." ”
At one point he asked, "What if I don't succeed in the future?" ”
Li Yinhe imagined the future scenario and said to him: "Even if it is not successful, only our happy life is enough."
Like between Sanmao and Jose, Jose asked, "How much do you want a husband to make?" ”
Sanmao replied: "If you don't look good, the multi-millionaire will not marry; if you like it, the billionaire will also marry." ”
Jose: "Speaking of which, you always want to marry someone rich." ”
Sanmao sighed, "There are also exceptions. ”
Jose asked again, "What if you follow me?" ”。
Sanmao replied: "Then as long as you have enough money to eat, you can count it." ”
He asked, "Do you eat too much?" ”
Sanmao replied very carefully: "Not much, not much, you can eat less in the future." ”
The most beautiful love is probably to take away all the things outside the body, in order to see it, so as not to muddy the world, and it is impossible to distinguish whether to love foreign objects or love people.
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After the two were together, one day, Li Yinhe took Wang Xiaobo home, and Li Yinhe's mother looked ugly and her thinking was not orthodox.
"I think he's not orthodox and a bit outrageous."
Of course, the main reason is that it is ugly and hinders the view.
"Xiaobo is so ugly, I can't get my hands on it."
Thinking of the first love so handsome and dashing, the difference in length is not a little bit, but a world of difference, Li Yinhe proposed to break up.
Wang Xiaobo was half dead in anger and immediately replied:
"You must be able to smell the smell of erzhu head, wuliangye liquid, and bamboo leaf green from this letter paper, so why relieve your worries, only Du Kang..."
Li Yinhe ignored it, and Xiaobo continued to write:
"If you want to, I'll love you forever." If you don't want to, I'll miss each other forever..."
Li Yinhe still ignored it, and Wang Xiaobo said:
"You should go to the reptile hall of the zoo to see if I am even uglier than they are..."
Finally, he also said: "You are not so good-looking, we have evened it out." ”
Li Yinhe was happy, and he no longer cared about whether he was ugly or not, "I'm not so good-looking, why do I have to find someone so good-looking!" ”
The two were together again.
There are thousands of good-looking skin bags, and interesting souls are one of them.
Wang Xiaobo is not very good-looking, but his soul is too beautiful.
In January 1980, Wang Xiaobo and Li Yinhe married, and the two families had a meal in Quanjude, a total of 10 people, not even brothers and sisters went to Quan, just like ordinary relatives gathered for a meal, it was a wedding that did not look like a wedding.
Later, I learned that Wang Xiaobo's family gave 500 yuan, and Li Yinhe wondered in his heart, "Why is it that their family gives money, not our family?" ”
Later she learned that it was a bride price.
Wang Xiaobo has Li Yinhe, just like life has flowers, just like the sun has the moon, and the sun and moon shine together.
Xiao Bo said: "I have a conscience, and my conscience is you." ”
Li Yinhe had Wang Xiaobo, just like the lock had the key.
Galaxy said, "You opened this lock on me with this key." ”
Love is simple, don't look at the worldly tidy up is very troublesome.
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In 1982, Wang Xiaobo graduated from university and Li Yinhe studied abroad.
Because the policy does not allow both husband and wife to go abroad at the same time, Wang Xiaobo can only "stay alone in an empty house" in China, light a lamp and boil oil, read and write, although he has not written a famous hall for the time being.
Two years later, Wang Xiaobo went abroad to look for a wife, at that time, Li Yinhe scholarship of 400 US dollars, Wang Xiaobo did not have a penny of income.
He applied to school, and the teacher told him, "You're not going to school, you're going to fund!" We have to cut it, and now we can't even keep the jobs of our colleagues, and we don't have the money to manage Chinese. ”
After that, Wang Xiaobo contacted a large number of schools, only waiting for four replies, three refusals, one agreed, and paid for the tuition fees himself.
Life is tight, so I had to go out to work to make money, Li Yinhe was a waiter at the front desk, and Wang Xiaobo was washing dishes in the background.
During that time, Wang Xiaobo felt that he was dragging Li Yinhe down, and Li Yinhe looked in his eyes.
She looked at Wang Xiaobo's ugly face and said:
"You write novels at home, I'll think about money."
Xiao Bo looked at her, and his eyes were a little red.
After Li Yinhe's family knew about it, they resolutely opposed, "Which line is this?" ”
But Galaxy said, "He is such a wise mind, I don't want him to do rough work." ”
My family said, "You can't make a living by writing novels." ”
Li Yinhe is very firm: "I insist that Xiaobo must write novels, and literature is his life." We don't have high requirements for life, and I can work alone enough. ”
For a while, his brother Wang Xiaoping couldn't look at it anymore and said to Li Yinhe: "Xiaobo can't make a living by writing novels." And Li Yinhe is very determined:
Xiao Bo is a genius, it is a pity that literary talent is wasted, and literature is his life, if he does not write novels, he is a walking dead, in that case, even if the material standard of living is high, it has no meaning.
In this way, Wang Xiaobo was able to concentrate on writing.
No one wants to write something, and Wang Xiaobo often doubts himself whether it is suitable for writing or not, but Li Yinhe always says to him:
"Xiao Bo, write a novel well, you are priceless."
In those years, Wang Xiaobo read a lot of Western philosophy, first Russell, then Western philosophy, and many "uncommon forbidden books."
He wrote Tales of the Tang Dynasty and completed a large number of the writing frameworks for the Golden Age.
Between them, just like Qian Zhong wrote "Siege of the City", Yang Dai was willing to be a concubine.
Without Li Yinhe, although Wang Xiaobo is still Wang Xiaobo, he may not be the current Wang Xiaobo.
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After the two returned to China, Li Yinhe became a professor at Peking University, and Wang Xiaobo was a part-time lecturer at Peking University.
Wang Xiaobo said: "My wife is a professor, and my bullshit is not." Mourning middle-aged, probably like this. ”
However, Li Yinhe has always firmly believed that Xiaobo's writing will eventually come out.
In 1991, the novel "Golden Age" won an award, with a prize of NT$250,000, and Wang Xiaobo decided to write full-time and stop doing other miscellaneous things.
Many people are opposed, thinking that the road of writing is not good for making money, but Li Yinhe said: "I think he writes novels." ”
Li Yinhe is a strong supporter of Wang Xiaobo, no matter how others oppose Wang Xiaobo, she helps Wang Xiaobo and believes in Wang Xiaobo.
In turn, Wang Xiaobo was also against Li Yinhe.
Homosexuality has long been recognized in foreign countries, but at home, it has always been a "forbidden place" in the early nineties. Li Yinhe did gay research, and the resistance was not generally large.
A lot of people objected and said no.
Wang Xiaobo resolutely supported it, there was nothing that could not be done, and he could do it if he wanted.
He not only supported it in his heart, but even helped Li Yinhe to do a homosexual investigation and go deep into the "gay" people.
Even for Li Yinhe's homosexual research, Xiaobo often wrote articles in support.
With the support of Xiaobo, Li Yinhe became one of the earliest people in China to study homosexuality, "sex" is a secret topic, Li Yinhe studied sex, Wang Xiaobo did not feel strange.
Many people may have a grudge in the face of their wives studying "sex", but Wang Xiaobo will not.
Wang Xiaobo even wrote a case for Li Yinhe:
Besides, Little C and A went to Shanghai. As expected, A.
Little C had nothing else to do in Shanghai. He went purely for A.
A runs a business in Shanghai, often staying in the hotel, and more often staying in the room.
As mentioned earlier, the two of them had many happy times, and then Little C wrote to A, saying that he could no longer go to the public bath to take a bath.
As soon as he saw the water flowing out of the sprinkler, he thought of the scene when the two were in Shanghai making love under the sprinkler.
Thinking of that, his body reacted.
These cases are written in the style of Wang Xiaobo.
The best love is mutual fulfillment.
Without Li Yinhe, what Wang Xiaobo would look like is debatable; without Wang Xiaobo, what Li Yinhe would become is also debatable.
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He is in love twice, inseparable from sex, he talks about sex twice, and he cannot do without love.
Wang Xiaobo said: "Wisdom, fun and sex are the three most beautiful things. ”
And Li Yinhe said:
"Can you always satisfy my 'wants'?" You said: Yes, for me, is to give. Can you always think like that? I'm still jealous, I'm even jealous of the heroine of your novel and the little girl who was infatuated. Am I ridiculous? It's a bit of a pervert. Can you stand it? ......”
Li Yinhe studies "sex", does not shy away from sex nature, and is also full of tricks with Wang Xiaobo.
"Once, Xiaobo took the initiative to buy a rope with the thickness of a finger to go home, which surprised me unexpectedly..."
"We have sex that includes bondage and light whipping..."
Many of Wang Xiaobo's novels are very "yellow", especially "Golden Age" is the most yellow.
But as someone said, he wrote beautifully, so poetically, that it made people not feel lascivious, but beautiful.
Wang Xiaobo wrote, even though "The Golden Age" has won awards, but his works have not been recognized.
At that time, Wang Xiaobo had many works: "Red Breeze Night Run", "Wanshou Temple", stage plays "East Palace West Palace", "Like Water Tenderness"...
Each of these works is ingenious and painstaking, and the result is the same, and it cannot be sent out.
The editor asked him to keep revising, but the change came and went, and the work was completely different, and it was not necessarily published in the end.
Wang Xiaobo said:
"People live to perform, so they lose themselves. Even if you have nowhere to go, never give in. I am determined not to change. I'd rather write something that can't be tasted than something that doesn't make me look like self-discipline. ”
The work could not be published, there was no fee, no bonus, he went to take a truck driver's license, in order to "live in the future, become a truck driver."
But Li Yinhe would not let him be a truck driver, and when he was most embarrassed, he was reluctant to let him clean the dishes, let alone now.
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In October 1996, Li Yinhe went to visit abroad, and Wang Xiaobo sent her to the airport, "but he put his arm around my shoulder as a farewell.
That kind of true affection is unmatched by anything in the world. I never imagined that this farewell would be a farewell. ”
On April 10, 1997, Wang Xiaobo died.
The next day, Li Yinhe abroad received a phone call:
"Hurry back, Xiaobo is in trouble."
While sorting out Wang Xiaobo's relics, his friend flipped through the love letters written by Xiaobo, and tears rolled out, saying to Li Yinhe:
"Galaxy, you have too much wealth. Even if I can only receive one of these letters in my lifetime, I will be satisfied with death. ”
And Li Yinhe said in "Honey Picking in the World":
"At the most important time of his life, his love gave me only one person. It was enough to just get his love in my life, no matter what kind of pain and suffering I encountered, Xiaobo gave me this unrelenting love from a young age, which was my best reward, and I didn't need anything else. ”
The epitaph of the famous writer Stendhal is: Lived, loved, written.
For Wang Xiaobo: he lives like a person, loves like a person, and writes like a person.
The same is true for Li Yinhe.
In this world, there are many people who look like people, and not many people who live like people.
Wang Xiaobo and Li Yinhe have lived freely and written with their hearts.
Enough is enough.
Foot?
insufficient.
The really beautiful stuff is never enough.
Wen | not interesting soul