"If you want, I will always be with you."
Postman XIII
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Hi good evening, I'm your emotional little blogger Postman XIII.
I'm sharing the 539th original story tonight.
Hello, XIII, I would like to contribute.
It's as far as the eye can see
It's all you
I'm 23 years old! I also have someone I particularly like and secretly like for a long time.
At the age when I was first in love and ignorant, a boy accidentally entered my youth, so that for the next ten years, every time I thought of him, the corners of my mouth rose slightly.
Although I have been in a relationship during this time, perhaps because of regret, I have always been habitually in my boyfriend, constantly looking for common ground with him.
He, for the time being, call him Little D, he is the boy I liked at first sight when I saw him in junior high school, Virgo, always believes in love at first sight.
So later, over the course of three years, I began a long crush.
At the time, I felt that three years was too long, but now in retrospect, I feel that three years is too short, so short that I can recall that there are too few beautiful moments, just fragments of fragments.
When I was in school, geography was very poor, and I remember one time in class, the teacher asked questions one by one, and when it was my turn, I couldn't answer, so I had to stand in class.
And coincidentally, the next person to ask the teacher was him, and before the teacher said which question it was, he directly answered no, and then stood with me, turned his head, and looked at me with a smile.
That look, I still remember, think about it, how could he not have that question at the beginning, he was in the top five in the class.
It's just that thinking about it now, in addition to nostalgia, there is a trace of regret in my heart.
Later, the class was divided, and every time I would sneak past his class in the name of going to the toilet to see him sitting by the window.
He's smart, the most down-to-earth of all I've ever met.
At that time, he was my role model and the spiritual pillar in my heart, and later, we were admitted to the same school.
When we went to check in, we took the same bus, and he naturally sat next to me, and then secretly kissed me, and I was so shy that I froze.
He must know that I like him so much.
But then, slowly, I didn't know if it was because of age or the immaturity of adolescence, I began to reject him, all the good he had for me.
At last
I chased him away from me
Every time I met in high school, I deliberately avoided him, and then I went to college and met more people, and I began to miss him.
I don't know if I miss him or if I grow up feeling sorry, and I start to go crazy trying to find him.
But as time went on, everyone was moving forward and living their own lives, and I began to ask my friends to find his contact information.
Later, when I added his contact information, he was very cold, although every time I pretended not to care, in fact, I cared too much.
I was afraid that he wouldn't reply to me, that he would be indifferent as always.
Later, through chat, I learned that he was admitted to a good 211 graduate school, and I, was an ordinary undergraduate.
At that time, my psychology suddenly felt a gap, but I was happy for him from the bottom of my heart.
I remember when I applied to add him as a friend, I didn't tell him my name, and he guessed it was me.
Yes, I guess it, but I feel a lot of regret and guilt.
No matter how long has passed, he is still the boy in my heart who runs a thousand meters barefoot, or the handsome and sunny boy.
Hope you are well, and getting better.
If there really is a parallel time and space, I hope that myself and Little D at that time will be brave.
Maybe you'll never know what I wrote, and I'll always love you in parallel time and space, the past you.
I am Postman XIII, may you soon let go and start your life again.
I wish you a good night's sleep, no dreams, and a good night.
Text/XIII
Audio/Rejoice
Waiting for you too
Wait for the wind
Looking forward to it