If the encounter this night made my heart cold, what really made me come out of the past love and examine the friendship between us was a meeting with Xiaoming. He was also a friend who played games with me, came to the city for business, and on weekends, avoided Yu Man and Liu Zicong, and directly asked me to dinner.
Xiao Ming said, "Last time we went out to play together, you didn't come, it's a bit of a pity."
I didn't know what to say, and after two glasses of wine, the little one spoke amazingly, and a bitter smile appeared on his face, "You know what? I've been with Yuman."
I was so surprised that I didn't know what to say, but compared to the past between two people, I actually wanted to know why Yu man attracted so many people. I asked out of the mouth, Xiaoming did not want to hide, drank a cup alone.
"Not long after you pulled her into the group, she came to my house for a tour and looked for me."
"Yu Man is very kind, very able to take care of other people's feelings, we both went hiking together, the first time we met, she squatted down and reached for my pants, said I was too thin, and dragged me to the supermarket to buy a pair of autumn pants." 」
"Sometimes, it's not about being attracted, it's about not wanting to refuse. Life is too plain, now the girls are reserved, have opinions, Yu Man like that, it is really easy to make men move."
"But then I learned she was married, so I broke up with her."
I listened intently, the mobile phone lit up, it was Yu Man who called, I did not answer, after two consecutive times, Yu Man sent me WeChat again, "I quarreled with Zhang Chao, where are you?" Xiao Ming did not shy away from looking down at my mobile phone screen, "The last time everyone went out to play together, I knew one thing, and I have been hesitant to tell you."
"What?"
"Yu Man knows that you and Liu Zicong are ambiguous."
"When we played together, I sat with the two of them, and she looked at Liu Zicong's mobile phone, and I saw that she had finished your chat history."
I was completely stunned, what expression did Yu Man use to look through my chat history with Liu Zicong? What kind of mood, like no one else, told me as a girlfriend that Liu Zicong pursued her.
Finally, Xiaoming said to me meaningfully, "If you don't stay away from her, your life will become unhappy."
She was a good friend of mine when the word "girlfriend" hadn't stinked, and we've known each other for fifteen years since I was a student.
She has been likable since she was a child, not very beautiful, nor is she a devil figure, on the contrary, she is slightly plump, sunny and cheerful, and can quickly get acquainted with strangers at the first meeting, and both boys and girls like to be friends with her. I was one of them, and the most inconspicuous of them, but I was lucky to be at her table, and then, high school and college were in the same school, and worked in the same city, and naturally, the two of us girls were close.
I am not very social, but Yu Man is a person with her own light, there are always many friends around, and she is willing to take me with anyone she plays with. Usually, I always sit next to her to watch her playing with people, watch her play between men and women, remind her not to forget to bring her mobile phone when she leaves, and she is drunk and responsible for taking off her beautiful pupils. In fact, it is not so much that I am a girlfriend, but that I am her little follower. After meeting Yu Man at a dinner party, the leader of my work said to me in a serious tone, "The luckiest thing in your life is to have such a good friend, Xiao Zhao, you must know to cherish it."
I smiled and nodded, but my heart was awkward. Am I not working hard and not having enough extra shifts? How can I be praised only as a friend of Yu Man? Perhaps he saw my disobedience, and the smile on the leader's face faded a little.
He said meaningfully, "Girl, it's not a good thing to be too jealous."
I was intimidated by the boss's wise expression, and even couldn't help but wonder, is it really me who is jealous of Manli? I slept for a long time that night, and it wasn't until my colleague's phone woke me up that I realized it was almost noon. Pick up the phone, there are several unread WeChat messages inside. Zhang Chao: I'm sorry, I lost my temper that day and said a lot of things I shouldn't have said to you. I know you're human, you're kind, I believe what you say, can you tell me where the two of them are going, what are the two of them thinking?"
Yu Man's: I'm so uncomfortable now, yesterday I had a fight with Zhang Chao and didn't go home, why didn't you ignore me? Liu Zicong's WeChat is more direct, he said: Let's meet.
The sunlight outside the window made me feel a momentary trance, I always tried to meet the requirements of the people around me, I thought that I could have friendship and love as long as this, but in fact, I was always around others. Just like in a vicious romance novel, I am just a tool woman, busy with the protagonist's things all day, not worthy of having my own life. I wanted to hear what Liu Zicong had to say, Liu Zicong asked me to meet at the café, this was the first time we met alone. Before even the coffee was brought up, he said anxiously: "I really like Manman, I now earn a lot of work, I can give her a happy life, Xinxin, you are her best friend, you persuade her."
"Persuade Yuman to divorce her husband?" That's between them." Liu Zicong's still handsome face became distorted because of the hurry, "Man Man and Zhang Chao are forced to marry, we are true love, we can't be so selfish, don't you want your good friend to be happy?"
"What about me?"
When these words were uttered, I suddenly felt relaxed. Liu Zicong looked at me with his mouth wide open, looking a little silly, "What are you talking about?"
"What are our voices and videos for more than a year?" Are you lonely for a pastime? Even if it's ambiguous, you can't pretend to be stupid and pretend not to know me."
These words are actually not so difficult to say, why am I tight-lipped, more or less there is a good face component in it, my ambiguous object pursues my married girlfriend, every word is revealed that I am inferior to her.
"You can think of me as Yu Man's girlfriend, but before you do that, treat me like a person."
I stood up and wanted to leave, but Liu Zicong suddenly took my hand and pleaded, "Just because I'm sorry for you, can't you?" I apologize to you, and you can do me this favor?"
"Just be", "No", Liu Zicong didn't care what I said, in their eyes, helping without complaint was the value of my existence.
For the first time, I didn't reply to Yu Man's message for such a long time, and after a few days in a row, Yu Man came to my company during his lunch break, brought a few cups of coffee to my colleagues, and lovingly carried me away. Yu Man's mind did not seem to be on the meal, and he did not find another place to eat, and directly found a corner in the restaurant downstairs of the company.
I didn't even finish reading the menu, Yu Man grabbed my hand and shook it, his expression was not very satisfied, "These two days you have ignored me, are you encountering any difficulties, you say it, see if there is anything I can help."
"Nothing, just busy at work."
I ordered a package, and today I have to work overtime and eat more. Yu Manlian said a few words, and my reaction was very weak, and she was briefly silent and said to me, "Xinxin, you have to help me."
I looked up at her, and although she was wearing delicate makeup, she couldn't hide the acne marks under the thick foundation of her skin, and the bottom of her eyes was blue, and there was a kind of heart-wrenching haggardness.
Yu Man said, "You went to Zhang Chao to admit that it was good or not, he thought that you introduced me and Liu Zicong to know, it is better to make the mistake wrong, just say that I was initially instigated by you, for a while the ghost was obsessed, and now I regret it."
"He is now at home every day throwing tantrums with me, asking me where Liu Zicong and I have progressed, and I am very annoyed. You said that I and Liu Zicong had broken off, let Zhang Chao stop making trouble, and he could believe what you said."
I clutched my chopsticks tightly and rejected her for the first time: "I can't lie for you anymore."
"The two of them deserve it because you're uncomfortable, so pick one as soon as possible."
Yu Man stopped smiling and looked at me solemnly, as if I were fooling around, "This is my business."
"Zhang Chao will know, others will know sooner or later, lies cannot be hidden forever."
I thought I was done with all this, but Yu Man immediately turned his face cold, looking about to get angry, "What do you mean by that?" Do you want to tell someone about me?"
"Liu Zicong is indeed your friend, right, you introduced it right, after the two of us were together, didn't we look for you to eat together?" Do you think you can get rid of the relationship?"
She looks like an unreasonable person now, thinking about some things, I am very calm, "I did not want to tell others, if I want to, these few years of things are enough for me to write a book——"
It was also said that at this point, I suddenly realized that every time Yu Man asked me for cover, it was a phone call, and throughout the chat records of the two of us, there was only sisterly affection. Letting Yu Man lose his temper, I looked down at my phone and didn't speak again. If you think about it, there are traces of the relationship between me and Yu Man. When I was in junior high school, I met Yu man, I was attracted to her enthusiasm, we became good friends, and we all played together after school.
My parents were busy at work, and I liked to follow Yuman, even if what she did had nothing to do with me, I still had a feeling of being accompanied. It can be said that in addition to sleeping at night, I have seen Yuman longer than I have spent with my parents. I have also been dissatisfied with not getting all the attention of my friends, but that dissatisfaction is nothing compared to the trepidation of loss. Because soon, Yu Man had a new friend, she unreservedly exerted her enthusiasm, always surrounded by people, often there were people I did not know, pointing in my direction and asking Yu Man: Who is she?
Yu Man would introduce me to my existence and say that I was her friend. So I naturally continued to follow Yuman and watch them play, although these people were Yuman's friends and rarely took care of me, but in the middle of it, it was as if I had become a part of the lively crowd. I was like a shadow, enjoying the convenience brought to me by friendship, and gradually, I felt that it was nothing to give in when there was a difference of opinion, a little concession, and return to accompany me.
As time passed, the circle around Yu Manli grew larger and larger. She liked her friends to listen to her words, and whenever her other friends were reluctant to do anything with her, Yuman would think of me. In order to continue the friendship between us, I became more and more humble. What to eat? Casually, where to go? As long as she has time, I will cooperate unconditionally.
So, even though Yu Man's life circle is changing, and her friends come and go, but I am the person who has been with her for the longest time, which makes me misunderstand, we are really the best girlfriends, so for this precious friendship, I have done a lot of things - such as when she was bumped into by me for the first time after marriage, I struggled for half a night, or promised her, chose to turn a blind eye. I persuaded myself that Yu Man only agreed with yu Man's point of view on love, but other than that, she was still kind and unchanged.
But I repeatedly recalled that in fact, Yu Man never did anything for me, she was like a sun, a dazzling light that graced all sentient beings, shining on me, not with a heart, but inevitable. She just didn't correct my misconception about the relationship between two people, it was a deformed friendship, it was my unilateral effort, and I couldn't let it develop.
Although Yu Man and I broke up on that day, more than half a month later, Yu Man and Zhang Chao's third wedding anniversary, between my "excellent performance" in the past decade or so, Yu Man still invited me. Zhang Chao and Yu Man invited a large group of friends and chartered a large box in the hotel, which contained five or six round tables and could sit dozens of people. The couple is still very affectionate on the surface, and I heard that Liu Cong's promotion is imminent, and this time he also specially invited several leaders, which can also be regarded as a closer relationship.
I was placed at the table of my classmates and friends, and all the people sitting around were Yu Man's friends, I had basically seen them, but I also stayed closely on the acquaintance, not familiar, only said hello, and said two words on the scene. There was suddenly a person sitting on the empty seat next to me, it was Liu Zicong who came, he and Yu Man were far away, for a moment I thought I was watching a TV series, sadomasochistic love type.
A friend asked curiously, "Xinxin, who is this, don't you want to introduce it?"
At this time, Yu Man had already walked over, and not far away stood Zhang Chao, who had a bad face, and before I could speak, Yu Man smiled and said to everyone, "This is Xinxin's boyfriend, Liu Zicong." Zi Cong, how did you get here? Are you not at ease?"
I saw the struggle on Liu Zicong's face, but the next moment, he leaned over to me, held out his hand to put his hand on my shoulder, and looked ready to dedicate himself to love. But I didn't want to, I didn't want to become a tool person they called out, I got up and poured water, and Liu Zicong's outstretched hand fell into the air.
It may be that I made it clear that I did not cooperate, Liu Zicong's face was not good, several people at the table stopped talking, looked at each other, and only Yu Man calmly smiled: "Xinxin, I hope you can be happy."
The bits and pieces of her wedding still faintly appeared in front of me, and when she handed the bouquet to me, she also said this sentence, compared to the touch at that time, I was surprised to find that at this moment, my heart was like water.
Before the celebration cake was pushed up, I cut off the original link device, and when the staff of the hotel was upset, I took out my mobile phone and handed it over, laughing and saying, "Use my mobile phone, the playlist in it is just right."
Halfway through the meal, the staff pushed a double-layer cake out, causing a cheer, Yu Man held Zhang Chao's hand, the two people held the knife to the cake, friends lively around the photo and coaxed, anyone who looks at this is the most beautiful look of love.
In the sound, a sweet song ends, there are more than ten seconds of blank time, at the beginning everyone did not react, but for a long time there was no background sound, it seemed that the space atmosphere was dry, and the voice of the person was amplified several times, making people involuntarily lower the volume.
A female voice came out through the current--"I would tell you so much about you as a girlfriend."
I heard someone around me ask, "What's going on here?" The next moment more people reacted, someone was recording the conversation, but the content of the conversation was shocking.
"I do like Liu Zicong and want to be with him, but I can't give up my family, I love both of them, and it's really hard for me to choose." 」
"I only met the person I loved after I got married, what's wrong with love itself?" You should not be jealous, jealous of Liu Zicong's love for me, I have always been a good girlfriend of you, I know that you are not such a vitriolous and mean person, you don't let me down."
"It's not that I threaten you, if you want to talk about me everywhere, others may think that you beat a rake, I say this for your own good, in the past three years, I and other people's feelings have been kept secret for me, and now don't do stupid things." 」
The sound of this recording is clear and audible, and it spreads along the speaker to every corner of the scene, and the female voice in the recording is Yu Man who listens to it. The smile on Yu Man's face disappeared, and his eyes stared straight at me, I had never seen such a terrible expression on her face, as if she was going to pounce on me and tear me apart in the next second. My heart was beating faster, a little nervous, but more of a relief. On the day that Yuman came to the company to find me, I recorded the second half of the conversation, which was the only time I used a trick on her.
Yu Man's words woke me up that day, and I wanted to leave some evidence to prevent Yu Man from pushing everything on me, for example, in order to relieve herself, treat me as an object, and give Liu Zicong a girlfriend - if she hadn't done this today, the recording might not have been public at all. Zhang Chao's face was extremely ugly, and he nervously threw away Yu Man's hand and strode away, he did not leave the scene in shame, but went straight to the next table to explain. At this table sat his company leaders and colleagues, looking at their expressions - Zhang Chao, who could not handle family affairs, looked hopeless for promotion.
Yu Man found the stereo, pulled out my phone like a madman, rushed to me, smashed the phone at me, and asked me, "Why are you doing this to me?" I was so blind that I thought you were my girlfriend."
I stood opposite her, facing the various eyes of everyone in the room, straightened my back, "I want to return this sentence to you, you don't insult the word 'girlfriend', what you want is to accompany you when you need it, unconditionally listen to your words, then you might as well have a dog."
Yu Man was enraged by me, raised his hand to hit my face, this time I was ready, I grabbed her hand with my backhand, threw it away with force, Yu Man stepped back with one toe, knocked down the cup behind him, and his body was even more awkward. Liu Zicong wanted to come forward to help her, but the buzzing around her was louder, and liking to watch the hilarity was the essence of human beings, especially the polyamorous relationship between men and women, which could always arouse the great enthusiasm and desire of onlookers. Liu Zicong's outstretched hand involuntarily retracted, paused for a few seconds, looked around, and suddenly walked away without looking back.
The original anniversary of Xiu'ai turned into a farce, Zhang Chao and Yu Man quarreled in the corridor outside the box, and the rest of the guests also left the scene one after another. I took the wine on the table and drank it all, and it made me cry. The people who passed by me all threw strange glances at me, and they may be speculating that none of the people I played in this farce said the first half of the sentence to me, but I did not regret it. A raw-faced girl reached out and handed me a tissue.
"Give, wipe it."
"Thank you."
I took it, and the girl didn't leave, but sat down next to me, "You're a real cow, but the anger is out, but you're not afraid that after this matter spreads, will it have an impact on yourself?" After all, you knew about Yu Man's derailment early on, and you helped her keep it a secret for so long, and you are not innocent."
It was a kind word of concern, and I could still tell the difference.
I shook my head, "It's like my tuition."
Curiously, she asked, "What tuition?"
"Let me remember in the future that even if a person craves care and companionship, don't find friends in the garbage."