The last time I saw Yu Xiuhua's news was in a video of a post-90s guy openly showing love:
Dressed in a white gauze dress, she sat on a swing stand, behind a burly man in sunglasses.
As the swing swung again and again, she smiled very happily, like a girl with a sweet heart.
The man in the video, named Yang Yongce, is a beekeeper.
In the video, he said a very romantic statement, and the confession was generally solemn:
She and I traveled through the four seasons, running in both directions
Get together under this swing frame
......
At the end of the year
Thank you for all the fateful encounters
Thanks to all fateful arrangements
Everything was just right
The breeze is not dry, and the warm sun is just right
Many netizens gave them blessings, and it is not surprising that many people are very skeptical about this relationship.
Questioning the age gap between the two, Yu Xiuhua Da Yang Yongce is 14 years old;
Questioning Yang Yongce for Yu Xiuhua's fame and money, and even satirizing him for "finding a mother";
Questioned Yu Xiuhua's old cow eating tender grass.
To all this, Yu Xiuhua did not formally respond.
What is right and what is wrong, what is true and what is false, perhaps only time can prove.
What the poet Jun wants to say is: Yu Xiuhua, she is very precious!
If that affection lasts, I sincerely bless her, and if it is unfortunately too short-lived, I still admire her immensely.
Because even if Heaven is not lenient to her, she has never lost the courage to love and be loved.
She said: "I have never really experienced the love of skin and the love of the soul, and I am not willing yet!" ”
It is better not to be unwilling, without these unwillingness, what to take to resist this impermanent fate?
01
"Sleeping only with the one you love is called chastity"
In 2014, a song "Across Most of China to Sleep with You" made Yu Xiuhua famous overnight.
Poetry is sincere, passionate, frank, pure, and even bold, blunt, rushing, desperate.
In fact, sleeping with you is similar to being slept by you.
Nothing more than that
The force of two bodies colliding,
It is nothing more than a flower that is opened by this force
It is nothing more than the spring of this flower
Let us mistakenly think that life has been reopened
In most of China, everything is happening:
Volcanoes are erupting, rivers are drying up
Some political prisoners and displaced people who are not cared about
Elk and red-crowned cranes at gunneck all the way
I went through the rain of bullets to sleep with you
I am pushing countless nights into a dawn to sleep with you
I am countless of me running into one I go to sleep with you
Of course, I will also be led astray by some butterflies
Think of some praise as spring
Make a village similar to Hengdian your hometown
And they
These are all indispensable reasons for me to go to sleep with you
Those who like it are completely amazed; those who do not like it are also completely surprised.
Yu Xiuhua was on fire, and the name of "slut" followed suit.
In response, Yu Xiuhua's response was: "I am a slut, right?" ”
Even, she wrote teasingly:
"Well, sluts are sluts, I swing from the hall to the kitchen, from the kitchen to the toilet. Later, I accidentally swung to Beijing, Guangzhou and other places, I swung around lonely, the police saw and did not ask, I love the motherland so peaceful. ”
In her poetry, there are always so many fierce and romantic, barbaric and straightforward lusts, loves to express, to vent.
Come, make me a slut,
Otherwise I'm sorry for the encounter in this spring breeze
My wild pigeons,
You bring the peach blossom to the apricot blossom to the cannonball
I prepared wine and betrayal
Carrying the determination not to die and not to return
You like wheat, rice, moonlight
These are the things that feed people
I just drank weeded wine made from weeds
You have been relegated to this round of human life,
In this strange kiln
- "Maybe Not About Love"
I don't think such a verse is shameful or vulgar, on the contrary, it is very clear, very pure.
Love is an instinct, and desire is human nature.
What makes love shameful is never love itself, but hypocrisy and betrayal in the name of love; what makes desire dirty is never desire itself, but the bottomless wanton and indulgence of desire.
"Sleeping only with the one you love is called chastity." Yu Xiuhua said.
02
"I must get a divorce, I want to live for myself"
In 1976, Yu Xiuhua was born with cerebral palsy due to reverse labor and lack of oxygen, and since then she has been slurred and has had difficulty moving.
Stetson said: "As far as fate is concerned, hugh is fair. ”
Not everyone can stand on the same starting line, and from the moment they are born, some people are doomed to a bumpy road.
By the time I noticed my body, it was old and powerless to go back to heaven
Many parts exchange pain:
Stomach, arms, legs, fingers
I suspect I'm doing a lot of evil in this world
Speak ill of the flowers that have bloomed. ”
- "I Delight this World with Pain"
Cerebral palsy makes her right hand tremble involuntarily, often unsteadily when walking, and it is difficult to speak clearly when speaking.
Physical defects are, on the one hand, the discrimination and insults that the soul has to endure, and the deep-rooted inferiority complex, which is deeper pain and helplessness.
At the age of 19, under the arrangement of her parents, Yu Xiuhua married her husband Yin Shiping, who was 13 years older than her.
Her husband didn't love her, didn't understand her, didn't even respect her at all.
In the documentary "The Shaky Human World", the worker said to Yin Shiping: "A woman is a pig, and it all depends on coaxing." Yin Shiping just smiled.
Yin Shiping was working outside, and one year during the Spring Festival, the boss defaulted on 800 yuan in wages, so he specially took Yu Xiuhua to ask for a salary and let her stop the boss's car. Because Yu Xiuhua is disabled, the boss does not dare to bump into.
It was such a marriage that Yu Xiuhua endured for 20 years.
When she was not famous, she could only do painful catharsis in poetry:
He tugged at my hair,
When you knock me against the wall,
The little witch kept wagging his tail,
For a person who is not afraid of pain,
There was nothing he could do.
- "My Dog, Called Little Witch"
In 2015, Yu Xiuhua simply and neatly took out most of the manuscript fee at that time and ended the marriage.
"I'll give you 150,000 when you come back this month, and 100,000 when you come back next month."
Later, whenever she mentioned it, Yu Xiuhua was still full of disgust and hatred for her ex-husband: "This marriage is nonsense." ”
Even in her autobiographical novel "And on Earth," she sets up a fictional identity for her husband: a rapist who has been in prison.
"I think it's good to write novels, write all the people you hate, and no one else can sue me."
When she said this, I think she must have smiled slightly, with some ridicule, with some sarcasm, and perhaps with some sighs of relief.
03
"If you have the desire to love,
There is no way for your body's desires to be satisfied."
In "Readers", Dong Qing asked her:
"Why are so many chapters of your poetry about love?"
She said:
"What is missing makes up for what, this may be a part that God took from my life and will not return."
In Yu Xiuhua's poems, love is an eternal theme.
To use this passage of Duras, it is also appropriate to describe Yu Xiuhua:
"Love for me, not skin kiss, not a vegetable and a meal, he is an immortal desire, is a heroic dream of a tired life." 」
Some people have counted that in her poems that appeared publicly from 2014 to January 20, 2015, "love" appeared more than 140 times.
But she said:
"My love poems were written when I was in pain. I think that people who can really get love can't write poetry. I couldn't help it because I loved it, so I wrote so much. ”
It always seems that the more desperately people who chase love, the more they often do not get love.
Reading her poems, Qing Lingling's, is to be hit at a glance.
Read your poems in a clean yard.
This human affair
Trance like a sparrow that suddenly flies by
And time is shining. I am not suitable for liver and intestines
If I had sent you a book, I wouldn't have sent you poetry
I'm going to give you a book about plants, about crops
Tell you the difference between rice and weeds
Tell you about a weedy spring
- "I Love You"
Oh, and we all love the light, though fleeting
But you are still you
There is a name that trembles as soon as I shout
- "The Wind Blows"
Yu Xiuhua in real life is not as bold as in poetry.
As she put it: "Sex in poetry and sex in life are two different things. ”
The more people cherish love, the more they cannot tolerate the slightest impurity of love.
She is loyal, lonely, and eager for love, but because of her inferiority and pride, she is careful not to go near love.
Yu Xiuhua has written a number of love poems for Li Jian, which has triggered many netizens' discussions.
In this regard, Yu Xiuhua once said in an interview:
This poem was not actually written for Li Jian himself, just because he was a public figure and anyone could confess, so he borrowed his name. Love poems are actually written about the men I really love in my life.
If they could, who would not want to have a healthy body, who would not want to have a good skin bag, who would not want to be able to love and hate what they loved with honor.
Yu Xiuhua, she was helplessly trapped in a mutilated shell, she could hate unscrupulously, because there was nothing to lose.
But she could not love without scruples, and because of love, she was afraid, so she was careful.
All her boldness is fierce, in poetry; all her indulgence is in words.
She was also brave and not brave; lucky and unlucky.
But she must be beautiful enough, not the uniform beauty of the flesh, but the unique beauty of the soul.
In any case, I bless her:
I wish her happiness, I wish her happiness, I wish someone to love her brilliant talent, someone to love her hot liver and gallbladder, but in the end someone loves her mediocre appearance, too ordinary.
Resources
Beijing News. Yu Xiuhua: I am a woman who cares about chastity
Triptych Life Weekly. Interview with Yu Xiuhua: If I hadn't been dead and alive, I would have died a long time ago
Contemporary Literature. Yu Xiuhua: Actually, sleeping with you is not the same as being slept by you
【Copyright Notice】This article was originally published by Shicishijie, author: Ye Han.