For the bride price of 200,000, I "killed" my mother

When the doctor asked us if we had given up on treatment, I, my brother, my dad, and the three of us big men chose to give up because of the 200,000 surgery fees and the possibility of facing a mother who could not take care of herself after the operation, and that year, the mother who died was only 48 years old.

Perhaps, filial piety is the same!

After my mother's death, I comforted myself in this way, in order to seek a little psychological comfort.

My name is Yue Yang, I have been a chaos demon king since I was a child, in addition to studying, other bastard things I am the first, hit classmates, hit teachers I have done.

My grandfather was a particularly capable old man, born in 1933, war, famine, cultural revolution, liberation war, all experienced, when I was born, he was already the head of a factory, my father and my three uncles were arranged to work there, my grandfather was the only one in the family to study, is a middle school teacher. My fourth uncle refused to go to work in the factory, and my grandfather bought dozens of acres of land, and his life was also rich. My uncle arranged to be a soldier, and when he came back, he arranged to work in the town...

But my grandfather lived in my house, because my grandfather was not my grandfather's own child, my grandfather grew up without a father and no mother, in the winter cattle without shoes to wear, to stand on their feet in cow dung to keep warm, and my grandmother is a woman who does everything slowly and half a beat, when she was pregnant with my grandfather, she was driven back by her husband's family, and had to marry my grandfather, but my grandfather never treated my grandfather badly, and he was very good to their family...

In the actual sense, my father is my grandfather's eldest son, so my grandfather is particularly biased towards my father, my father's personality is also the temper of the second ancestor, as far as I can remember, my father is a child who covets pleasure, in the winter of eight years, my family can kill two pigs every winter, I can have beef to eat all winter, even ordinary people in the city can't reach my family's standard of living!

Such a day until my grandfather was about to retire, my grandfather could have lived a decent life with a high pension, but my fourth uncle, at the instigation of my fourth aunt, came to my house to make trouble with my grandfather, telling me that these years were not good, obviously they were lazy and lazy and refused to work hard to go to the factory, how did it become my grandfather's indifference?

Grandpa had no way, gave up his pension, and changed the identity of a regular worker to the fourth uncle...

Ever since my grandfather retired home, my mom ran away from home and refused to come home again...

At that time, I was sent by my parents to become a soldier, and when I returned from two years of discharge, my grandparents had been forced to buy a house behind my house, and the old house was an adobe house, and the environment in the house was really bad...

I had a big fight with my parents, but there was no way, my father coveted pleasure, did not save any family foundation, and now my mother's sisters are rich, so my mother is now the one who has the right to speak in the family...

With anger, I left home to go out to work, met my wife Xiaoyu, in fact, I have no skills, love to play, love to gamble, love to drink, it just so happens that Xiaoyu also likes to drink, we developed from a drinking friend to a boyfriend and girlfriend only took a week, and then we went to Shanghai to work together...

During the period Xiaoyu accidentally got pregnant, not once, it was three times, every time the daughter-in-law beat the fetus, she would call my mother, my mother would send us money, sometimes two thousand, sometimes a thousand, in fact, I know, with my father's nature, there must be no money in the family...

After two years of mixing in Shanghai, we decided to go back to our hometown to get married, in fact, my daughter-in-law can marry me without a bride price, but I don't, why my brother got married with a 200,000 bride price, just because I lived with my grandfather at that time, with my grandfather support, it is not difficult to take 200,000, to me, it must be 200,000, less than a point.

For this 200,000, when I went home to see my mother, I saw that she had lost a lot of weight, she and her brothers and sisters made up money, sold the pig of the family, and sold the gold bracelet and gold necklace she had worn over the years, etc., I saw it in my eyes, but I still insisted, these are what they owe me, but also owe my grandfather!

I got married smoothly, the whole family is obviously very happy, and I think it's very good...

About a month after the marriage, my dad trembled and called us, my mother fainted, emergency ambulance rushed to the hospital, the doctor said that the brain stem bleeding, surgery needs 200,000, but there is no guarantee can not get off the operating table, the success of the operation also has a great risk of paralysis, can not take care of themselves.

Looking at my dad and my brother's hesitation, I wanted to say that I did everything I could to save my mom, and my dad looked at the silence of our brothers and finally said to the doctor, give up the operation...

Less than half an hour later, after removing the instrument, my mother went...

I know that my mother, who was forced by the 200,000 bride price, could not sleep peacefully at night, borrowed money, was ridiculed and ridiculed, and was under pressure to organize a wedding for us, I saw her eating painkillers one by one, but indifferently did not care about her, I saw her dizzy from time to time, but I did not ask too much, I just looked at it coldly, thinking that everything was her fault.

I have always stubbornly believed that my selfishness and indifference are in line with her, after all, when she drove away my grandfather, she also forced my grandparents to be sick and hospitalized, and after nearly thirty years of getting along, eating and living together, how could she bear not to look at them at all?

It's been ten years since my mother left me, but I think more and more about her.

My daughter is nine years old this year, and in the years since I had her, I have gradually understood some of the hardships of my mother taking me and my brother, after all, we are both demon kings who have fought all over the villages, and I think that at that time, she should also be desperate...

In fact, I have no right to hate her, I have no qualifications to complain about her, I often wonder, if there is no persecution of my 200,000, is she still there, I still have a "mother" can be called...

Unfortunately, there is no if...

Mom, I'm sorry

I shouldn't give up on treatment, that's your only hope!

I shouldn't have looked at you coldly and indifferently, if I had taken you to the hospital earlier, wouldn't everything have been different...

Life has no if, there is no return key, some consequences, will become a lifetime of grief, can not be repaired...

Some willful, the price paid is unforgivable!

Some are bottomless, but only because they do not work hard to make money, they have the courage to face the wind and rain of life

Don't let money solve the problem, to yours, can't solve