The wife's last letter to her husband

Dear husband, the last time I called you this, tears couldn't help but burst out of the embankment. I know that you hate me the most, in the eyes of people who don't love, crying is being pretentious, it is doing, and this is also the last tear shed for you...

We have our own love, you have given me the sweetest love, but also gave me a thousand arrows through the heart, tearing the heart and lungs of the severe pain. How sweet it was then, how painful it is now. In the eyes of outsiders, you are loyal and honest, humorous and funny, warm and kind, a good man, a good husband, and a good father. I naively thought that whoever cheated in the world, you wouldn't cheat. Seventeen years ago, I desperately chose to marry far away, abandoned my parents and relatives, and put out the fire for the so-called love moth, but you made me lose a mess. What I'm sad about is not your cheating, but your attitude after the cheating, pushing all the fault on me, I'm strong I don't care about you. You are simple and kind, and you are touched by the words and words of others, and you easily deny all my contributions to this family. Looking at you who became strangers, I instantly fell into the ice cave... Resolutely went to the Civil Affairs Bureau, on the way back, you kept crying, and I also shed silent tears...

In the following days, I didn't think about tea and dinner, and washed my face with tears all day. I deny myself, I feel that I am not a good wife, I feel that I am the worst person in the world, and I do not deserve everything good. Thinking about that time, I still can't hold back tears... I didn't ask anything, I wasn't willing, I didn't understand, why a good person suddenly stopped being my dependence, obviously before we were still very beautiful! I can't accept it, I'm planning for the future, but you're thinking about leaving, and I feel like the spiritual pillar has suddenly fallen, and I don't know what the point of being alive is... Aren't you saying that men are all like this? Obviously, you said that what you despise most is such a person, why have you become such a person? I feel that the worldview that I have insisted on for many years has been suddenly subverted, I feel that I am living a joke, digging my heart and lungs out for this family to make money, not willing to eat, not willing to wear, the result? ...... Looking at your chat history, my heart aches, tugging at the pain, when did you ever give me such tenderness? It turns out that you can speak the Tao like this, you can also say such sweet words, and I also understand in pain that I am not the person you want to love, not the person you want to be warm. I also understood the reason for your domestic violence, and I was relieved and let myself go. I lost I confessed...

I also want to make a big fuss, and I also want to tear up the little three, let you lose your reputation, and then leave. But I feel sorry for my child, poor your parents, this grievance I swallow for the time being. I didn't tell any outsiders that I suffered everything in silence. After all, I have loved one and don't want you to be too embarrassed. I'm sorry I didn't live the way you liked it!

I never like to fight for anything for others, just take it if you like it. Put the blame on yourself and politely exit. Even though my heart ached to death, I had to let go. I'm sorry I'm preventing you from loving someone else! Go and pursue your happiness!

When I came, you had nothing, and when I left, you were penniless. You tell me, what is love? What is sincerity? Don't look back, I'm gone, you ruined the rest of my life, I'll never love anyone else like I love you, I'll love myself for the rest of my life.