I want to leave evidence of my own life in this world, because it is difficult to be born as a human being.
Every soul who is brave enough to love should be treated tenderly by the world.
She was rejected by her family, and her brother wanted to break off relations with her.
She was disliked by people she liked, and people she trusted disappointed her again and again.
She was rejected by strangers and ended her life as a playful person.
The life of Pine Nuts is a life of absurdity, a life of failure, but it is also a life of not giving up hope, a life of serious life.
"The Life of the Rejected Pine Nut" tells the story of the pine nuts who have consciously lacked love since childhood.
At the age of 53, Matsuko died in her humble rented house, and her nephew Sheng began to know and understand this aunt who had never met because he was responsible for sorting out the relics...
Matsuko, once a respected middle school teacher, was dismissed from her job for mishandling student money theft, and she impulsively left everything behind and left her hometown and family. After that, her life deteriorated, her brother broke off relations with her; Matsuko entered a custom shop to support her boyfriend; her partner forced Matsuko to use methamphetamine and was killed by Matsuko, and Matsuko went to jail for this... However, no matter how broken life is, Matsuko always has a good heart and never stops chasing happiness.
People will meet many people in their lives, but there are very few truly beautiful encounters.
Matsuko, a "loveless phobia sufferer"
In "The Life of the Rejected Pine Nuts", Matsuko pursues love again and again, is used by love again and again, is disappointed again and again, and finally gets a sad ending.
But her choice was to give her love unreservedly to everyone who passed by her life.
Matsuko's life is unfortunate, and she spends her life searching for love and belonging.
But in fact, she is not an outcast abandoned by the whole world, she also has a successful career, pure friendship and sincere love, but God has made a big joke with her: all those who are not ashamed to claim to love themselves are hypocrites full of lies; all those who really love her are too stingy and only willing to hide this love in their hearts.
Most of the people Matsuko had loved passionately also loved her, but she didn't know it.
She magnifies her ability to give love, neglecting to capture the minutiae of other people's embodiment of love.
Why shouldn't we?
On this road of finding love and belonging, although Matsuko stumbled forward, she never grasped the ultimate happiness. Her wandering and wandering is also the choice and situation that many people who walk on this road- men and women, meaningless young and old, are facing, just like a joke from heaven, the people we give all our love for are often dismissive of our love, and we are too concerned about where our own love goes, but we forget to accept the love we get.
There is love in the heart, and there is no regret in this life.
Looking back on Matsuko's life, it is not difficult to find that the knot of her illness lies in the fact that she cares too much about the love of others for her, so she can even abandon her so-called dignity and even life.
Matsuko's blind compromise is because the love she gives is very pure.
She just wants to be loved.
Like a child, she volunteers to give everything as long as she gets a promise from someone else, even if it seems a little silly to her friends or readers.
When she is beaten and abused, as long as the other party is a little good to her, she still follows her with a dead heart, and the reader is angry that she is obsessed, but Matsuko is happy in it.
Because she enjoys love, and she enjoys being loved even more.
It is precisely because love is too pure, regardless of gains and losses and rewards, so she forgives all the traumas that others have given, just as all the pain has never appeared, and loves without blame.
If you want to be loved, you must first learn to love yourself.
But in today's society, we are more advocating rational and non-self-deprecating love, and we must protect our self-esteem.
I don't love myself, how can I love each other?
If from the beginning, Matsuko loved herself and had the right values. She will not shield her students, saying that she stole them, but will find out the truth and educate her students.
If she loved herself, she wouldn't trust her unworthy boyfriend, wouldn't be forced to sell herself, wouldn't go to jail, wouldn't be involved in drug trafficking, wouldn't be disappointed in love... She may be in a normal relationship, a normal marriage.
If she was shaped with good emotional values in childhood, if she was self-respecting and self-loving enough, if she loved herself enough... Maybe she will survive and become friends with her nephew Sheng...
There is a saying that lovers are eight points full, leave two points to love themselves.
A person who is loved by others is first and foremost self-loving. She has her own bottom line before she loves others, she has the ability to think independently, and she does not live dependent on others.
Only if a person loves himself enough can he truly love others.
It's not narcissism, nor is it selfish.
Loving oneself is an unconditional acceptance of oneself, both internally and externally.
Accept your appearance, accept your own ordinariness, accept your limited ability, and accept that your potential is unlimited.
We must be able to have a clear understanding of our own strengths and weaknesses, not to be proud of our own gains, not to be sad about our own losses.
Be able to gaze quietly at what you have or lose. On the basis of facing yourself squarely, gradually jump out of some problems, solve problems, be honest with yourself, and feel yourself.
If you can love yourself, accept yourself, and be satisfied with yourself now, you can love and accept others.
Born to be human, we don't need to feel sorry.