I remember that Jiang Tan said in "The Lock of autumn lanterns" that the wind and rain dripped in autumn, and the pillow smelled of it, and the heart was broken.
He stood in the rain and didn't want to go back to that so-called home. The Cold War had been going on for three months, and he was a little tired. He couldn't remember the last time the two of them had spoken well! He thought that maybe two people who had been together for too long would eventually get tired of each other? Days are like this autumn rain, ticking and taking away those passions and sweetness, and all that remains is indifference and alienation.
The wife filed for divorce again, and he thought and thought about it, but he still couldn't make up his mind. Inadvertently, he recalled the days when the two people had been in love with each other, which made him feel that he should not divorce her at this difficult time. However, during the cold war with her, he never understood why the once elegant and virtuous wife had become the person who was now full of evil words and unreasonable. Why have all those warmths disappeared?
Originally, his family's life was flourishing, and colleagues were very envious. In the eyes of colleagues, his wife is virtuous and capable, his daughter has also been admitted to the ideal university, there is no worry, the life should be lived not to mention how free and relaxed, but in fact, no one knows how much suffering and pain he has in his heart.
He worked in a public institution and became a small official. He has a good temper, no great ambitions, and is not very demanding of life. In his opinion, as long as you don't worry about eating and drinking, everyone in the family is healthy and healthy. But the wife always dislikes him for not having a job, has no ability, and is bent on making a lot of money.
In order to make a lot of money, the wife has been tossing and turning all these years. At the beginning, I did engineering, and after two years, instead of making money, I put a lot of money from my family into it, and then I stopped doing engineering. She began to toss all kinds of deals again, but her person was not patient, so no matter what kind of deals, they were basically tigers and tails, and finally ended in failure.
At first he didn't care, tossing and turning with her. I just want to wait until she is tired, and she will definitely settle down. But I didn't think she would toss out such a big basket! If it weren't for the debt-stricken daily noise at home, his wife might not have told him the truth, and he wouldn't have known that the family now not only had a penny of savings, but also owed a huge amount of money.
It turned out that the wife did not know when she met a boss who was in the fruit business. The boss wanted to build a cold store himself, but he didn't have enough money. To raise money, the boss promised high interest. For the sake of the high interest, the wife not only invested all the money in her family, but also pulled many of her friends into it. She made the boss a guarantor, and she also commissioned it. And such a big thing, my wife actually didn't mention a word to him.
In the first year, the boss paid them the full amount of interest on time, but the 19-year epidemic caught everyone off guard. The boss himself lost a huge loss, could not come up with a penny to deal with the interest, so he promised to repay the principal and interest in the next year. What was surprising was that his promise became an empty word, and he silently disposed of the cold storage at a low price and ran away with all the money.
The boss ran away with the money, and he pit the middleman who guaranteed him. So all those people turned their faces to his wife and asked for debts, and they came to the door every day to make noise. But the family has no money, what to pay off the debt? There was no way, he could only sit down with those people and discuss it a few times, and finally agreed to return a few equal amounts of principal to them every month, until the end of the repayment.
Now, they have more than 20,000 yuan a month to pay off their debts. But his monthly salary is only more than 6,000 points, in order to pay off the debt, he not only has to do part-time work after work, but also borrowed online loans, made credit cards, and demolished the east wall every month to make up for the west wall. Those foreign debts were already pressed down, and he couldn't breathe, but his wife was still so heartless and lungless every day, standing on this mountain and looking at the mountain high! Unwilling to work hard to make money with down-to-earth peace of mind.
Almost every month, on the day of paying off the debt, they would quarrel over the money. And every time a quarrel with his wife will be quite unreasonable to put all the responsibility on him, disgusted that he is not out of the ordinary, has no ability, and said that if it were not for his inability, she would not be so tossed. Such a wife made him feel incomparably strange and cold.
At the same time, such a day also made him feel endless despair and dazedness, and he didn't know when such a day would end! But if he really wanted to get out of the divorce, he couldn't help it. So he chose to let himself be drunk and dreamy every day, and his life was muddy. Because for him, there is no hope in the present day, every day is a torment for him, and he does not know how to face his wife.