Today is the second day of the Chinese New Year, according to the customs of our southwest Lu countryside, this day is the day when the son-in-law goes to the mother-in-law's house to walk relatives, I stayed in the room for a whole day, in the evening to go outside for a walk, I am afraid of meeting people, I am afraid of embarrassment.
After the 80s in the countryside, divorced men, every day of the New Year is torment
Years ago 27 to ask for an account, outside nearly 800,000 payment, recovered 120,000, the money to hand directly transferred to the supplier, and then directly to the village to collect grain three uncles, borrowed 10,000 yuan, told him to pull corn later in the year, that time suddenly felt quite funny, a year down, did not expect the New Year's money, actually still rely on, I have been blind to the ten acres of good land, in order to survive this year, the land is the root of the farmers, is the best hope, this sentence is really not false at all.
On the 28th day, with the small friends in the village, more than a dozen people had a meal together, others were drunk and drunk, but the more I drank, the more sober, the whole liquor game was like a fool, sitting in the corner to watch them dance, the business became worse and worse in the past two years, and the gap with them became more and more obvious, even if I was arrogant and thin, but no matter how bad they were mixed, at least they had a home, and I was the only one of all people who divorced, and in such a humiliating way, I ended the marriage.
At the wine table, most people care about my feelings, and try not to say those topics related to marriage as much as possible, but there are always a few who have nothing to do, thinking that they can stimulate me, after all, beating the falling water dog, it is not the nature of some people in the countryside, people like me, get used to it and don't care.
29 days, a small family organized a party, gave me a greeting, thought about it again, I found a reason, or did not go, after all, he invited a family with a mouth, I went will only make others embarrassed, but also let some people lack a topic, what position they are in now, their hearts are still clear.
I have been hiding in the room since the day of the 29th, not eating or drinking for three days, not feeling hungry, inadvertently looking in the mirror, and suddenly finding myself so old and ugly, 34-year-old me, at a glance ugly and incorrigible.
What are divorced men most afraid of for the New Year?
The so-called don't care, don't care, in fact, are all pretended, are wronged a little bit of support, of course, talking about fear is a bit exaggerated, just in the face of those insincere concerns, malicious greetings, even if the inner strength is how strong, but look at the child's face is bleak, that kind of harm suddenly.
You say, you are so old, I do not eat, do not drink you, usually face you can also be considered gentle and obedient, what bitter new year do you have, which pot does not open which pot, deliberately pierce my heart that? If you are really good to me, neighbors, you come to my house with honor and integrity, tell me a matchmaker, it is also a good heart for you, but in public, in front of my children, so related to me, you make me feel bad, although I am not a glass heart, my heart is strong enough, but I always have to take care of, my child's feelings.
What are rural divorced men most afraid of? The most frightening thing is those, seemingly harmless care of people and animals, in fact, are all stinging, for example, children, your boss is not small, it is time to find an object? For example, children, if you can't remarry, you can live alone, it is not a solution? Big lady, without the suffering of others, do not persuade others to be kind, you can not understand the reasoning, but you can, sprinkle salt on the wound. You ask my child, miss his mother? You tell me that when you say this, your conscience will hurt, won't it? It's okay for you to prick my heart in the New Year, but you bully my child, that is, you are wrong.
So at three o'clock in the morning, I pretended to be a ghost to scare you, to tell you that there are gods three feet above your head, and it is better to see you first after leaving a line of people.
My side of the divorced small partners, or more than 30 years old did not marry the daughter-in-law, this year is actually very consistent, very tacit understanding did not go home for the New Year, I don't know if they are discussed in advance, or are all personal ideas, indeed, rural divorced men, the New Year at home every day of life is suffering, after all, visiting relatives and friends are unavoidable, it is inevitable that there will be mutual care between relatives, and then there is less idle drinking, everyone is busy with their wives and children for the New Year, during the New Year, no matter who you go to, It's an indisputable fact that they all feel quite embarrassed.
As a failed post-80s, people to middle-aged career is a mess, marriage failure, indeed, should belong to the kind of trampled by the crowd, so it is cold-eyed, ridiculed, behind the back of people said, I can accept, after all, this is the current fact, can not escape, only face.
Stay up for 7 days this year has passed, a will go to take a bath, to dress up and clean up after yourself, tomorrow I will also start to visit relatives and friends, the heart is sunny, fearless, when I choose to take this road, I know that I have no way back, I will also encounter a variety of ups and downs, but this for me, really nothing, after the habitual collapse, my ability to heal myself is getting stronger and stronger, the new year, try to be strong, to fight for a sunny day that belongs to me.
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