Carefully experience life, always everywhere there is human warmth always there.
Just came back from vacation, packed up the induction items, sorted and cleaned up. When I arrived at the courier station to collect items in recent days, suddenly a woman with a ponytail greeted me, everyone was wearing masks, and I couldn't see my face clearly, and I thought that the other party recognized the wrong person. The other party heard me talking to the courier company, and added a sentence, as soon as I heard the voice is you, I was surprised that it was my opposite table 10 years ago, I carefully looked at this child who had two children, and I could hardly see the traces left by the years, or the same glorious feeling as in the past. Make small talk about the state of affairs over the years. We also became neighbors in a small district. She was going to go to another courier company to bring the courier, so we broke up. But in the chat, I still noticed that people seem to have changed their mood in addition to the precipitation of life experience in 10 years. Almost nothing has changed, I can still talk so much, she is still so understanding or can soothe my mood with a word. A few words calmed down my difficult mood.
The "one" of my family said he was going out to the supermarket and asked me what I wanted to buy, and all I said was to ask for a bottle of Jianlibao. People came back with two large bottles of Jianlibao, a large bag of Boli nori, a big bag of Wang Laoji herbal tea, he said this is for you to eat this, but also moved these from the table to our bedroom and even placed my bedside to get up and reach out of front of the "C position". Just mentioning asking for a drink, he added snacks that he thought I loved. But this is the "enthusiasm" expressed by not seeing me for months – the warm celebration of welcoming me home.
"The one" asked me how many gifts it was appropriate for his parents-in-law, and I said 1,000. He held out his hand toward my position to ask me to pay for it. I said to come back to you for reimbursement, and he stuck out his tongue and grimaced and said that your words were like ghost words - can not be believed. I glanced at him and added, "It's best if you can do it yourself, after all, you're the head of the family." He hummed a few times and acquiesced. Then he said that he saved 10,000 yuan this year, let me take it to choose a gold jewelry, I am like a flattered jungle deer, can't believe my ears, usually that will live, such a stingy man actually said to use 10,000 to buy me jewelry, he explained that this is the tenth year of marriage, I said this is a anniversary? He meant to commemorate the 10th year of marriage, which was a magnificent, sweet, sour, bitter and spicy experience. I thought about it and said I didn't want it, I felt that jewelry was useless, and I had personally bought a lot of gold, silver and jade jewelry. Let him save it first. I think I'm more pragmatic. He didn't say anything more. I sighed: a person who is not romantic has done something that makes people feel "romantic" unexpectedly, it is really not done, and it is amazing to do it!
Looking back on the 5 years I spent in the field, I came back every year before the New Year: the one who, as always, bought a pile of snacks that he thought I loved to eat and let him go. As always, when I shop online, when the "chopper party" of a thousand knives, it seems that I am also rewarding myself for a year of hard work outside, and I am also adding home to my home, and it is a cathartic mood, unhappy things to buy and buy to be satisfied, happy to fill some gaps in life. But because I think of saving some money for my children, I always have a little regret after buying it. Let's return it before it is shipped. In this way, it is necessary to wait for the receipt of the goods, not necessarily, so I will apply for a refund before the shipment. My family saw that I was more rational than emotional in online shopping, and I did not interfere too much. In fact, the purchase process has happened, no matter the result, it can also satisfy my desire to consume shopping as a "chopper party". Consumption makes people happy, consumption brings you a pleasant sense of satisfaction, the original consumption process is so comfortable.
It was night, I was reading a book under the lamp, and suddenly I saw a few words: "The heavens and the earth are not kind to all things." "The way of heaven is to make up for what is lost and what is insufficient, and the way of man is to be deficient and to be served with excess." "The Tao of Heaven believes in the survival of the weak and the fittest." On the contrary, humanity is against the heavens. I think the unity of heaven and man is to take a balance between the two and practice the middle way. If you are partial to the tao, there will be too many social egoists, and society will be easily trapped by capital. If it is humane, it is easy to be white-left, and people without rights and qualifications are given equal rights or qualifications. ”
After reading it, I feel that people are kind and grateful, and it is convenient for others to be convenient for themselves. That is, altruism or serving the public, there are many benefits for the benefit of the public. For example, a story I have seen in the past is that the blind man goes out at night and will pick a lantern by himself, others may not know that he is blind, but he knows that only when others see the lantern can he know to avoid, and can think of people here. Then illuminating the path of others is actually illuminating their own path, and it is also an explanation that it is convenient for them to be convenient for themselves. In addition, it is also a way to avoid evil. Thus avoiding the possibility of not being able to see others in the first place, and may bump into others. Conversely, there is a possibility that someone else will bump into themselves because they can't see themselves. Isn't that a warmth?
Looking back on the past few years when I left my hometown, I used to think that I had to do a good job because of my family and because of my deep friends, I couldn't relax, and the spiritual pillar that could support me to work hard and complain was them. There are frail and sick elders in the family who are getting older; partners who hope for you, young children who need love, friends who are in trouble in life. I secretly swear that I must work steadily and steadily, give full play to my own strengths, not only to make a contribution to society, but also to give them an account, in the future even I may become their dependence, I can become stronger and stronger through hard work, and one day I will be able to become their backing. It is these beliefs that have made me persist until now, without giving up, like that tree, slowly growing, just waiting for her efforts to blossom and work hard to bear fruit. Whatever it looks like in the end. I've always been there, and that's what I want to give them. I was that tree many years ago, and when I look back many years later, I am still that tree, except for the increase in annual rings and the increase in height, the appearance and characteristics have never changed.
I hope that in the future, this tree of mine will be able to shade you and provide shade for you in the summer. In winter, you can be covered with snowflakes or sheltered from the wind and rain. The fruits of the day are for you to pick and drink and eat. Usually when the flowering can make you pleasing to the eye and happy. The mood is bored, I am still that "tree hole", in short, I have valuable and meaningful companionship, I am still there, and I have always been...
About the author: Ren Wenxin, a member of the Communist Party of China, a front-line teacher in the Huangjia School District of Leling City, a member of the Shandong Provincial Prose Literature Association, a member of the Dezhou Writers Association, a member of the Leling Research Society, and a member of the Leling Writers Association. During the epidemic period in 2020, take the town online class, and serve rural education with the creed of being conscientious and responsible, and working hard. He has published written works in publications and online platforms such as Qilu Evening News, Shandong Price, Xueba Homework, Reading and Growth, Leling City Daily, Dezhou 24 Hours, Leling Literature and Art, etc.