A month before her wedding, qingling stood for five hours on Moscow's windy Red Square to watch a military parade to celebrate the October Revolution.
Some people recall that at that time, everyone did not know the trick to use the newspaper to pad their feet, so their feet were cold, their knees were trembling, and their calves were numb with pain.
Song Qingling was even more miserable, because the soles of the shoes she wore were very thin, and only a layer of rubber cover was added to the outside.
Qingling's life is very hard, and she has little money left.
Her family had opposed her, so she didn't get half a cent from her family.
The entire asset left by her husband, Sun Yat-sen, to Qingling, was a house on Molière Road in Shanghai, which could not be exchanged for cash in time.
Still, she didn't ask for help from anyone, not even the Kremlin nearest to her.
Her whole body was rather haggard, like a mournful and moving lady in ancient paintings.
In those days, the writer Vincent Shea described it this way:
It was a cold day. I noticed the trembling, slightly curved figure of Mrs. Sun Yat-sen.
Her source of income has been exhausted, and she is self-respecting and reluctant to accept financial support from strangers.
She didn't even have a winter coat, just a thin black cloak, and walked slowly through the cold, snowy streets.
I had advised her to get into the car, but she refused.
With her arms crossed and her demure and beautiful face hanging low, she walked through the city step by step.
Only a few days ago, she had recovered from her illness, and her face was still very pale.
Finally, Vincent wrote that Song Qingling was the loneliest person.
(Song Qingling liked to wear a cheongsam when he was young, 1931)
After Chiang Kai-shek learned of the situation, he asked Song Ziliang to pick up his sister and return to China.
When the two met, they were in Berlin, Germany.
When she learned that her brother was going to pick her up, she knew that Chiang Kai-shek had ulterior motives, so she issued a statement that she would never directly or indirectly participate in any of Chiang Kai-shek's activities.
Zi Liang saw his sister's miserable and drifting life state, and when he heard the above remarks, he was simply shocked, saying that his sister was really a big fool.
Song Qingling looked at Zi Liang and used only one sentence to silence Zi Liang: "It is the Song family that exists for China, not China that exists for the Song family." ”
Song Qingling is so backbone. The things she identified would never look back.
Even if it is a break with the family. And the family she broke with may no longer be a rich family loved by six brothers and sisters, but a group with huge branches and power beyond borders.
And her choice is not conducive to pushing herself to the cusp of the times and using her life to resist Chiang Kai-shek's crazy moves.
Her supporters are Cai Yuanpei and Lu Xun, but she is different from them.
They will not be as vulnerable to slander and attack as she is.
People who had worked with her were particularly prone to using her identity to spread rumors that she had a new love in Russia or Germany.
Anyone who is a well-known revolutionary who comes to her to discuss the future may be said to be another husband of hers.
Some people even said that she was a woman and Taoist family, and it was impossible for her to have her own independent thinking ability. Her head was a racetrack for other people's minds, and her firmness came from ignorance.
For this last point, she was most annoyed.
(Spring 1913, Soong Ching Ling, university graduation photo)
If she had no thoughts of her own, she would have been enveloped by the breath of the rich side of the family, how could she have jumped out of the window to escape from college just after graduating from college, eloped with Sun Yat-sen, and then married?
When she decided to be with Sun Yat-sen, it was the most depressed and decadent period in Sun's life.
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At that time, Kong Xiangxi wrote to a friend in Japan, saying, "Some people think that he (Sun Yat-sen) is in danger, anxious, and has affected the nervous system." ”
The Soong family rarely talked about Sun Yat-sen in this way, and they were also tight-lipped about their private lives.
This time Kong Xiangxi said this, probably quoting words with Song Jiashu or Song Xialing.
Among them, the relationship between Song Jiashu and Sun Yat-sen is the best.
If a person does not have her own thoughts, but only relies on the thoughts of others on the side of the door to guide her actions, how can she be so determined?
You know, how many hearts did her decision to marry Sun Yat-sen break.
After Song Xialing returned from studying abroad, like Soong Ching-ling, he made a secretary to Sun Yat-sen.
Later, Song Xialing married Kong Xiangxi, immediately interrupted the secretary work, Qingling just returned to China, just need to work, her parents supported her to replace the eldest sister's work, to sun Yat-sen as a secretary.
Of course she did. She worshipped Sun Yat-sen.
When she was a year old, she met him.
Later, while studying in the United States, she studied countless historical and philosophical texts on her own, far beyond the tastes of ordinary girls at that age.
At school, she was silent, but her mind was exploring a different kind of problem, thinking about the profound significance of what was happening in China.
Pondering the revolutionary morality of his father and friend Sun Yat-sen.
She is shy, a smile always reveals a touch of sadness and contemplation, which naturally makes her whole person more pure, like the pure water in front of a bay of Buddhist halls, when each leaf falls, I can't help but fall to her and say hello to her.
But, deep down, she has become a rebel.
Fathers often write long letters and send briefings to their daughters to keep them informed of the situation in the country.
Qing Ling learned about the difficult course of Sun Yat-sen's revolution from the letterhead he sent.
They struggled for nearly a few decades to understand that people must be defeated without being discouraged. At this time, she was still just a hot blood, and she did not understand that persistence not only required the momentum of the beginning, but also needed to be unswervingly adhered to for a lifetime.
At this time, she did not expect the future results.
After taking over her sister's position, she accompanied Sun Yat-sen day and night.
Unlike her sister's extreme pragmatism, Qing Ling is a very messy woman who talks to him.
He also had no scruples about his family chores, his wife and children, the dangers and opportunities of the revolution.
She also often interrupted him, eager to say her point.
She was passionate about revolution and ideals, and like a dragon flame pierced through his chest, illuminating his loneliness, loneliness, and deeply trapped overwhelm.
(1924, photo of Sun Yat-sen and Soong Ching-ling)
In just half a year of companionship, he not only received spiritual support, but also founded the Chinese Revolutionary Party.
At this time, he clearly understood that if he wanted to complete the great cause of the revolution, he could not do without her.
And she believed in his revolutionary principles more than anyone else.
The two are intoxicated by a great emotion, more precious than love, more magnificent than family affection.
The two decided to get married.
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When his father, Song Jiashu, found out, he was furious and locked Qingling in a room on the second floor of the house.
She secretly wrote to Sun Yat-sen, hoping to return to Japan and return to him.
He wrote back saying he needed her.
In order to prevent her from escaping, the father locked his daughter in the bedroom.
She boldly told her father that she would definitely leave.
That night, QingLing escaped through the window with the help of the maid's escalator and took a boat to Kobe that night.
For a dignified lady, the courage required for such an approach is extraordinary, for it violates not only filial piety, but also family rules.
And Sun Yat-sen did not delay. The day after she arrived in Japan, the two were married.
However, what really annoyed his father Song Jiashu was not Qingling's rash marriage and love turmoil, but that Sun had not divorced his ex-wife at this time.
Song Jiashu chased after Japan in a menacing manner, rushed to the wedding scene, and accused Sun Yat-sen of being sorry for his friends.
Say he's acting ridiculous. He also persuaded that now that victory was imminent, his best friend had lost his mind and destroyed the trust between his friends.
When Song Jiashu saw that this persuasion had not worked, he threatened that Qingling was too young, had just turned 22 years old, and had not yet obtained his parents' consent to marry, and the marriage was invalid.
Sun Yat-sen saw that Song Jiashu was angry and smoked, but he was speechless. He really wanted to grow old with Qingling, so he had no room for rebuttal.
In the end, his father had to calm his face and tell Qingling that he would break off the father-daughter relationship with her.
But he didn't.
Only a few months later, talking to a friend about this, he expressed the pain in his heart, "I have never been so sad in my life." One is my biological daughter and the other is my best friend. ”
And Mother Song is a devout Christian, and when she hears Qingling elope, it is like a thunderbolt on a sunny day.
Her sister Song Yiling, who also served as a secretary to Sun Yat-sen at that time, was also angry. Misty Ling once admired Sun Yat-sen as well.
She was officially with Sun Yat-sen.
From then on, the test of family affection and politics began.
When the sisters in the family were eating and drinking, she hid from the rain of bullets in Wuhan;
Others work in the office, but she has to follow her husband, running around, and displaced.
And her break with the Song family brothers and sisters is more reflected in her thinking.
When the whole world advocated that the two families of Song and Jiang should be married and had great profits, she was dismissive.
When Chiang Kai-shek asked Sun Yat-sen to be his matchmaker, he asked Sun to ask Soong Ching Ling.
As soon as QingLing heard this, he was extremely disgusted and hissed, "I'd rather let my little sister die than marry the person who claims to have no wife, just in Guangzhou, he has at least one or two good friends." ”
The day when QingLing and Sun Yat-sen fell in love was exactly ten years.
During this decade, the two promoted each other, with ideas as the cornerstone of the exchange.
(In the process of going north, it was rumored that Sun Yat-sen had passed away.) In order to dispel the rumors, Soong Ching Ling specially asked the photo studio to take this group photo for her and the seriously ill Sun Yat-sen. Distributed to major newspaper reporters. ）
Ten years later, Sun Yat-sen was seriously ill, and when he was recuperating from Xiehe Hospital, he was diagnosed with: liver abscess turned into advanced liver cancer.
She sat next to him, tears streaming down her face.
She held his hand and signed the three wills. Let go. He died.
Ten years, with youth as a chip, ended too quickly.
After his death, she inherited his will.
He traveled around for the light of his ideals that would never be extinguished, and participated in major events at home and abroad in his name.
Torture, assassinations, stalking, her friends and supporters gradually decreased.
QingLing alone and alone to receive all the blows.
The special and extraordinarily honorable status of Sun Yat-sen's widow protected her, but also made her more vulnerable to enemy attacks.
She is always in the light, and others are always in the dark, wandering like a street rat.
In those turbulent years, her heart, like an incomparable mineral illuminated by the diamond of the ideal, gave her enough strength to burn, illuminate the fog, and let her life always walk on the road.
In fact, she could have gone to a city like Paris or Berlin like many other exiles and lived a life of rich exile.
But she didn't.
She had been waiting, and by 1949, the Song family was the only one left on the mainland.
On October 1, she finally won her own victory.
She didn't have to stand in the cold wind with her feet trembling, and she didn't have to go hungry.
This time, as a procession of millions of people walked along Chang'an Avenue in front of the Forbidden City, New China was founded, and she stood on the tower of Tiananmen Square.
By this time, she was fifty-seven years old.
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She had been fanatical and stubborn, but she had not become an old and stubborn fanatic after all.
She is still her, still cherishing family affection and missing her family.
In her later years, she once mentioned the blow of elopement to her father, "I love my father, I also love Sun Wen, and I am sad to think about it today, and my heart is very painful." ”
Thinking of her family, she said to the staff around her, "Like you, I am three brothers and three sisters, but I can't communicate with them." ”
For thirty years, she tried her best to inquire about her sisters, but very few of her family members came into contact with her.
Song Ziliang, who went to Berlin to pick her up and return to China, was one of the better ones.
Someone brought her a recent photo of the third sister Meiling from overseas, she stared at it for a long time, always nestled in her hand and refused to put it down, endless words converged on the lips, but there was only one sentence, "I haven't seen the third sister for a long time." ”
For most of her life, she was a very sublime symbol of China.
In her later years, she became extremely affinity.
She loved children and adopted two children.
She was obsessed with all the good things, always dancing, socializing, and inviting friends to her home.
She smokes Panda brand cigarettes.
Whenever I have time, I go to the movies and watch the plays.
Living in Beijing, she also has a small screening room at home where she can see the latest Western films.
All this seems to fit with the life of the third sister Meiling, who is thousands of miles away, with a heart and a sharp mind.
After experiencing countless hardships, she instead unloaded the seriousness, calmness, humor, and humor of her youth.
Later, the house on Molière Road in Shanghai, where she and Sun Yat-sen lived together, was built as a national memorial.
She moved into her father Song Jiashu's house on Xiafei Road, which was Song Jiashu's last residence.
On the eve of the elopement, she was locked in the bedroom of the small building.
In 1960, she discovered she had leukemia.
She suffered from this disease for the rest of her life.
She died of leukemia on May 29, 1981.
At this time, among the three sisters of the Song family, only the younger sister Song Meiling was alive.
I once heard such a sentence, "After experiencing the cold desert of human nature, I will love life more." ”
Song Qingling chose suffering and chose a completely different path from his peers.
Before the ideal is realized, it is defined as madness, ignorance, and disregard for others.
But how can they know how much effort it takes to insist on what they think is right?
Qingling's choice plunged her into loneliness, Sun Yat-sen accompanied her for ten years, and ten years later, she was the only one who walked this road.
Countless help and comfort gathered around her, and she was still alone.
Just like she did in school, because of her deep thinking and detachment from everyone, she can't fit into the school life of laughter and playfulness.
When Sun Yat-sen was inaugurated as the provisional president, her father sent her a five-color national flag of the Republic that was produced for the first time.
She reversed the silence and coldness of the past, dragged a chair, dragged the chair to the wall, climbed up, ripped off the old Manchu dragon flag hanging on the wall, and hung up the new flag.
She shouted excitedly, "Down with the Dragon Flag and hold high the flag of the Republic." ”
The students were very surprised by this practice, and they remember it very fondly.
The demise of the Qing Dynasty made her very excited.
Since then, she has taken on unprecedented vigor and thrown herself into countless events surrounding social change and upheaval.
"The Chinese revolution was one of the greatest events of the twentieth century, the greatest event since Waterloo," she said. ”
She also said, "Fraternity is yet to be fought for, and fraternity is the unfulfilled ideal of mankind; without human love, freedom loses its reliable foundation; and apart from the fact that people are brothers and sisters with one another, equality is only a dream." ”
Ideals, like eternal active volcanic eruptions, ran through her life.
She has always been a tenacious person.
In fact, I think it is always difficult to adhere to ideals.
Ideals, though brilliant, are temporarily unfulfilled and sometimes more like a distant utopia.
People who do not have the ability to persist can only hurt themselves and hate the ideal.
Those who have the ability to persist will find that in the face of ideals, the ability alone is not enough, but also needs stubbornness, kindness, and excellent vision.
It has to be Trinity, or even five-in-one.
You need to use extraordinary vision to suppress the vacuousness and contrivance caused by beauty;
Use natural beauty to decorate the ability, so that the hidden power will impress people for the first time;
You must also learn to work with everyone on the way to achieving your ideals, and social skills are certainly indispensable.
A passion ignites the ideal, and what makes the ideal burn forever will always be the spiritual qi that you have gradually accumulated in your life.
QingLing did it.
Better than anyone else.
A life of ups and downs, but the word patriotic.